Marriage to the Destroyer of my Dreams

Episode 13 Forgive Me

The night was getting late, but drowsiness was still reluctant to greet Jillian who was still sitting glued, staring at someone who was lying soundly in front of her. After hours of awkwardness, Jillian was finally able to breathe a sigh of relief after Jeffran closed his eyes due to drowsiness after taking his medication.

Previously, some of Jeffran's unusual requests were forced to be granted by Jillian despite the inconvenience. To reduce guilt and also hope Jeffran can be cured soon, Jillian willingly grant Jeffran's desire to embrace himself, fed by him and not let go of holding his hand.

Jeffran was actually surprised, why by hugging and inhaling the scent of Jillian's body, eating food made by Jillian, fed by Jillian or just holding Jillian's hand, Jillian, managed to make the nausea and vomiting reduced even disappear altogether.

Not not knowing the symptoms of a sympathetic pregnancy that she experienced, but the fact that a sympathetic pregnancy is generally experienced by a husband who is the biological father of the baby, makes Jeffran believe that it is not a sympathetic pregnancy. He actually considered this a form of punishment from God, because he always behaved badly towards Jillian. Until he is determined to change his attitude and treatment of Jillian, so that his condition can improve.

"Sorry.. Please forgive me. I really didn't mean to hurt and rape**you. Please forgive me."

Degs..

Jillian's heart was hit by a boulder, hearing Jeffran's delusions in her sleep.

'What is Jeffran saying for me? Does he regret what he did to me?' Ask Jillian inwardly.

There was also a shrill cry from Jeffran, even tears seeping out from both corners of Jeffran's closed eyes. Slowly Jillian clasped one hand of the clenched Jeffran.

"Sorry.. I'm sorry.." Lirih Jeffran with eyes still faithfully closed.

Jillian felt her eyes so hot and painful to see Jeffran crying in his sleep. There was a sense of sadness seeing Jeffran dissolve in his regret. But undeniably, heartache and hate still filled his heart at this moment. That night's events leave a deep trauma in Jillian's heart and mind, but Jillian tries not to show it in front of Jeffran.

Jeffran's shriek still hadn't stopped after a few minutes had passed. Jillian patted Jeffran's arm slowly, trying to wake Jeffran from his restless sleep. Until when Jeffran opened his eyes, he immediately hugged Jillian tightly. His face rested on Jillian's shoulder, his cries spilled over again expressing his sadness and regret.

"Are you having a bad dream?" Jillian asked, pretending not to know.

"Yes Jill.. The nightmare that made my life never calm." Jeffran increasingly tightly hugged Jillian's body, inhaling Jillian's soothing body scent. Slowly Jillian pushed Jeffran's body, then looked at the soft and puffy Jeffran netra.

"Sleep again.." Jeffran shook his head, unwilling to follow Jillian's words.

"Lay beside me, Jill.." Jillian's shaken turn, rejecting Jeffran's request.

Disappointed look could not be hidden Jeffran, but Jillian really did not want to obey Jeffran's request this time. His heart is still not okay. Jillian actually took off her hug and also Jeffran's hand to her.

"Jill.. Do you hate me?" Jeffran's question instantly made Jillian freeze.

'Do I have to answer YES? Because that's how I feel about you.' Jillian answered in her heart.

"Jill.. I feel that you still hold hatred for me. I'm sorry for all my bad attitude towards you. Even though we both don't love each other, but I want us to be friends and live this marriage well." Jillian simply nodded, confirming Jeffran's words.

Honestly, he did not know what to respond to Jeffran's remarks. Because he didn't want to lie, saying that he didn't hate Jeffran.

"Sleep, Jill.. You must take care of your health and the child in your womb." Jeffran said as she gently stroked Jillian's stomach. Makes Jillian's heart rustle and warm up because of Jeffran's sweet treatment.

"Yes, I'm going to sleep now." Jillian answered flatly, then walked towards the bed to the right of the room, which was reserved for the patient's family. While Jeffran looked at Jillian who began to stretch himself by turning his back.

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Jillian's faint voice rang out, slowly drawing Jeffran's consciousness from his brief slumber. Despite being fully conscious, Jeffran still closed his eyes. For the sake of listening to Jillian who turns out to be talking to someone over the phone.

"I don't think I can go to college today, Ethan.."

'Shit, it turns out Ethan called Jillian.. Why would the boy still dare to contact Jillian. Though I told him not to bother Jillian anymore.' Jeffran's heart in his heart.

"All right, Ethan. I'll call you back later. Bye Ethan's sister." Jillian said, before hanging up her phone call.

"Ehem.. So you're still communicating with Ethan?" Jillian looked tiptoed in shock, hearing Jeffran's sudden words.

"Sister Ethan is my brother-in-law and my friend. Don't mind anything, I don't have a special relationship with Ethan. So don't forbid me from getting close to him, let alone threatening him. Unless you're jealous of Ethan's sister?" Jillian's casual words were immediately responded to the look on Jeffran's annoyed face.

"Curtain, jealous.. I don't have any feelings for you. How could I be jealous?" Jeffran did not accept the words of Jillian who seemed to accuse and corner him.

"Good then." Jillian sat herself on the couch, eating a bowl of chicken porridge and a glass of warm milk.

"Jill, why are you calling Ethan Big Brother, but to me you're calling him a name? I'm older than you and Ethan.. Ethan even called me Brother.." Jeffran Protests.

"Because you don't deserve to be called Big Brother.." Jillian's reply was barely audible.

"What's? Say it again.." Jeffran asked to confirm his hearing just now.

"Yes, if you act like a good brother, I will call you Brother. But if not, why would I call you Brother." Jillian's answer that was said casually, in fact made Jeffran feel stuck. He realized, if all this time his attitude was so bad to Jillian, it was natural that Jillian was reluctant to respect and appreciate it.

"Do you want me to help you go to the bathroom? Your breakfast has been delivered, I'll bribe you, if you want." Fresh Jillian.

"I can go to the bathroom by myself, but later I want you to take a bribe huh.." Jeffran looks adorable with a spoiled childlike expression on his mother. However Jillian only gave a short nod, holding back her smile from being reflected on her sweet face.

10 Minutes later, Jeffran was already sitting on his bed. Opening his mouth, each time a mouthful from Jillian's hand pointed into his mouth. His blue eyes looked sparkling, with mouth munching voraciously on plain porridge, complete with creamy mushroom soup, boiled eggs, a variety of vegetables, green bean porridge and a glass of warm milk.

"Yeahaw.." Said Jeffran, when all the food in front of him was no rest. Unknowingly, the arches on both corners of Jillian's lips were perfectly reviewed, giving Jeffran a moment of astonishment.

'Beautiful..' Praise Jeffran in heart.

"Jill, can you smile more in front of me? I love watching you smile." Jeffran's words instead of making Jillian blush, her smile instantly disappeared from her face.

"I will smile often in front of people who make me happy." Jeffran froze at Jillian's reply.

'And it seems like the person who can make me smile happily isn't you, Jeff..' Inner Jillian.

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