Marriage to the Destroyer of my Dreams

Episode 1 The Painful Truth

The long-haired girl stood under the torrential rain in a deserted park, in one corner of Jakarta City. He did not care about the darkening of the night, the strong wind was also the rain that made his body shiver even more. He only wanted to hide his cries that he could not stop because of the weight of the burden he was carrying at the moment.

Her heart was sliced with grief, discovering the fact that she had already lost her honor over a month ago, forcibly taken by someone she did not know. The anniversary night that he was supposed to pass beautifully with his girlfriend who is his class brother on campus, and had been with him for 2 years, turned into a night of disaster for him.

'How did I tell my parents? I also couldn't possibly continue my relationship with Jordan. He must be disappointed and would not accept a dirty woman like me. Especially now that I'm pregnant..' His body collapsed until he sat on the wet ground, making his clothes dirty.

His face slowly looked up, when he felt the rain no longer wet his body which was already soaked. It was not because of the rain that had stopped, but there was a man standing before him holding an umbrella and looking at him with a worried look.

"Jeez.. I finally found you, dear." The cry of the woman whose full name is Jillian Prisa Nararya is increasingly becoming, when she sees the man she loves is right in front of her.

"Jordan.." Lirih Jillian with her own eyes.

Jordan Abraham Smith, a handsome English-Indonesian crossbreed man who has been his lover for 2 years, slowly crouched down and held Jillian's shoulder with one hand. That worried and affectionate gaze was still the same, making Jillian feel a tightness in her chest.

"Darling, let's go to my apartment. You have to dry and change your clothes. I'll take you home." Jillian was still unmoved, reluctant to comply with Jordan's request which actually made her heart uneasy.

"Jordan.. Forget me.. We can't be together anymore, I don't deserve you." Jillian lirih.

Next to Jordan's hand now cupped Jillian's cheeks that were getting wet because of the tears that flowed.

"Explain to me what your reasons are, so I can understand. You've been avoiding me for a few weeks, I don't know what's wrong with me until you ask me to forget you." Jordan replied so gently, making Jillian's heart even more filled and feel guilty.

"There's nothing wrong with you, I'm wrong." Jillian lowered her head, unable to look at the face of Jordan she loved so much.

"Explain to me in my apartment, you can get sick if you keep on wearing wet clothes. Moreover, the wind is quite strong." Finally Jillian nodded obediently to Jordan who then swept him towards Jordan's car parked in front of the park.

Arriving at Jordan's apartment, Jillian immediately cleaned her body and changed her wet clothes with clothes Jordan bought at the mall located not far from her apartment.

Jordan serves a cup of warm jasmine tea and a plate of cheese cake in front of Jillian who sits on her living room couch. Jillian's face looks so pale, increasingly making Jordan feel worried about the state of his lover.

"Eat baby, I'm sure you haven't filled your belly yet, have you? I'm sorry there's only this in my fridge. Do you want any other food, let me order it?" Jillian just shook her head slowly, hearing Jordan's offer. He really has no appetite at this time. But his bellied stomach certainly hinted at the opposite.

Jordan smiled faintly at the sound of Jillian's stomach was quite tight, until finally Jillian chose to feed the pieces of cheese cake into her mouth, after first sipping her jasmine tea.

"Slow Sweetheart.. If you're still not full, the cheese cake is still there." Said Jordan, who was immediately embraced by Jillian.

Only a few minutes later, the cheese cake in front of Jillian was no longer there.

"Jordan, can I ask you again?" Jillian's question, which sounded doubtful, greeted Jordan with a smile on her handsome face.

"Of course, I'll get it again." Jordan moved from his seat to the refrigerator in the pantry. But his steps were off, when he saw Jillian running towards the sink that was outside the bathroom next to the pantry.

"Required?" Jillian just nodded slowly, then followed Jordan's steps which then swept him back towards the sofa. Jordan sat Jillian on the couch, then sat next to Jillian. Jordan offered a cup of jasmine tea that was still half left, and immediately gulped Jillian to the toilet.

"We'd better go to the doctor, yeah, looks like you catch a cold, honey." Jillian shook her head quickly rejecting Jordan's offer. Nausea and vomiting had indeed been felt for several days, and it was not because of the cold, but because of her two-bodied self.

"Jordan.. I have something to talk about." Lirih Jillian stared at the hazel-colored Jordanian netra.

"Say, what do you want to talk about." This time Jordan turned his body towards Jillian with both hands tightly grasping Jillian's hands.

"I want us to break up." Jordan tried to be calm, though again had to hear a sentence he did not want to hear from Jillian's mouth.

"Why?" The calm and gentle voice from Jordan's mouth, made Jillian unbearable. But his decision was unanimous to end his relationship with Jordan.

"You deserve to be happy with another girl, and I can't be with you anymore." Jillian's tears fell through both corners of her eyes.

"I can only be happy with you, baby. Why do you keep pushing me to get away from you? What exactly happened to you? Please give me an explanation!" The originally soft voice, slightly raised up as it impatiently waited for Jillian's explanation.

"I don't deserve you, Jordan.." Lirih Jillian lowered her head avoiding Jordan's intimidating gaze.

"But why, dear?" Jordan asked impatiently.

"Because I'm dirty. I'm raped.." Jordan was so surprised to hear Jillian's words, that he removed his hands from Jillian's hands. His eyes seemed to be staring at Jillian with a look of disbelief, even Jordan's head shook its head several times.

"Say you're just kidding me.." Pinta Jordan with a clear tone.

"I'm probably joking about something this big Jordan." Jillian's high tone of voice made Jordan aware that her lover was indeed telling the truth. But his heart and mind refused to believe. I wish Jillian was just working on it.

"Who did it?" Both of Jillian's shoulders seemed to tremble, as Jordan shook them a little hard.

"I really don't know Jordan.. I was waiting for you to pick me up near campus, to celebrate our anniversary. But you didn't come, even until the night you didn't come. Suddenly a black sports car stopped in front of me, a drunk looking man came out and immediately pulled me into his car. I screamed, kicked his leg and thrashed with all my might, but he smothered me and my strength was not worth his great energy. Until he managed to push me into his car." Isak Jillian sounded louder and louder, before she resumed her story. Jordan was crying without a sound.

"He drove up at high speed, I kept trying to open the car door and told him to stop the car by trying to take over the wheel. The car stopped when it hit a tree on the side of the road. My head hit the car window until my head felt so dizzy. The man took advantage of the opportunity by lowering the backrest of the car seat, then tying and lifting both hands above the head. At that time my head felt more dizzy, my body was weak, until finally he overcame my body.." Jillian's cries broke again, her body shaking violently, with the occasional hand hitting her claustrophobic chest. Jordan, who had been holding back his sobs since then, was now crying as he pleased. Hugged Jillian's body tightly, until her tears spilled on the shoulder of the lover she loved so much.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have been late to pick you up. If I hadn't been late, none of this would have happened." Sesal Jordan tightened his embrace.

"I'll stay with you.." Lirih Jordan then stared at Jillian's blushing netra, without taking off her arms from Jillian's body.

"But I'm pregnant, Jordan.." Jillian's words were like lightning striking, as soon as Jordan's embrace was released, accompanied by tears that flowed more and more.

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