Love Zahra

desirability

Tini approached Zahra with a sad face, he sat down near Zahra and clasped Zahra's hand, he looked at everyone there as if giving a code, that this heart only wants to talk to Zahra alone, that there is calm between them, that others understand what Tini meant, and they all know that it is the best, in the end they decided to go outside and let Tini speak four eyes together with Zahra, after they came out Tini held Zahra's hand and kissed Zahra's cheek, he held the hand of the Zahra flower and kissed the hand many times.

"Why mom, Zahra doesn't feel good when you're like this" Zahra said as her mom kissed her hand constantly with tears.

"no, maybe you don't love your mother so Mama did this so that you can still remember your time when you could be happy with your mother" said Tini in a slightly shaking voice, Zahra who heard it was surprised then took her hand off from Tini's hand, and clasped Tini's hand and then looked at Tini's face with clinging.

"mama, I said kayak so big would be sad to hear mama say so, Zahra love Mama, Zahra can not escape mama, Zahra can not miss mama, Zahra loves you so don't talk about it anymore, because Zahra can't hear those words coming out of Mama's mouth," said Zahra who also started crying while kissing Tini's hand.

"if you love Mama, what dengengerin dong said Mama, this is all for your good, mama wants so that you can be wrong Mama even longer, can be with mama, can be with mama, we can play around again, the streets together happily together even though Dad is not in this world," said Tini with his lips, he wiped his tears and tried to strongly look at Zahra's eyes.

"Your father is not in this world, if you also do not have a mother who? mmm? your sister has the same sister you also have, but Mama can not to lose more, Papah you there is no new one, Papah, And help us fight together so that you can also be the same mama, mama temenin go even further mama temenin in old age mama, mama, manjain mama ngurus mama we have fun together yes dear yes, you want yes continue the treatment Mama please be with you," said Tini again sob sobbing Isak cryingnya.

"mama but this is Zahra's decision, Zahra loves you all, but it's useless if Zahra's life is already a little possibility to survive, what if the operation will run unsuccessfully, what if later everything does not work, what if later everything will even be in vain? it will be much worse when Zahra Masih is with you, but it is all in vain, Zahra knows you are fighting for Zahra but I am also trying to fight for you," said Zahra with the lyrics and held Tini's face.

"at least our child has endeavored, it was in the hands of God but what is wrong with us to strive, continue to pray with kunfayakun Then God can do everything, we can pass it together, together, we can pray together, at least we have struggled, because all of it would hurt if we failed first without ever trying it or fighting to get it, didn't you always teach that to you? you can't forget that" said Tini, pleading with Zahra.

"maaa," how to call Tiny softly still with a tone to reject what Tini wants.

"at least! if you want to die! let it die before you!" said this, who could not stand it anymore, early revealed it all in a half-hard tone and also with great emphasis as if she was already not strong with anything.

"you don't talk like that" said Zahra who can't stand the sadness of her mother.

"however you are not like this, you are stubborn when this is all for your good, at least you replace the position of Mama by feeling how to lose someone you love do not just continue mama who must feel what it feels like to lose a dear friend, can?" said Tini put out her words with a little stammering.

"we change positions, Mama first dies a second before you let mama not feel how the pain again after losing you, just your papa not exist again after him before mama," this word then releases Zahra's hand and leaves Zahra slowly with tears and goes outside the room.

after a while later they decided to go home because it was likely that Zahra wanted to feel calm without anyone having to bother her first at this time.

Rahman entered Zahra's room and he found Zahra crying, Zahra crying in a very loud voice and covering her face while bowed and sitting down, it was evident in his current position that he felt the weight of the weight on his shoulders, as if the whole earth was on his shoulders, and Rahman wanted to try to calm Zahra down.

"Ra, may I accompany you" Rahman sat beside Zahra, stroking Zahra's head,

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at that moment Zahra immediately hugged Rahman, her cry grew so that the stronger she hugged Rahman firmly as if she said, "I need someone's shoulder to be where I cry, to be where I cry, I need someone to be the backrest to cry, I need someone to be the place where I share my wounds and sorrows so I can feel a little calmer, too,"... Rahman who understood Zahra's position returned Zahra's embrace tightly, he continued to caress Zahra's shoulder, stroked Zahra's head tightly around Zahra's body, and it felt like he would never let go of Zahra's body.

"aaaaaaaa, why is everything like this, I am so strong that God gave all of this to me, will not God give trials not beyond the limits of my ability, but it's really hard when I have to see some tears from my dear family, when I have to think about how and what will happen to the people I love, when I have to think about what will happen someday after one of the actions and decisions I will take, I am confused I am tired I am dizzy, I don't know what this is all about? I don't understand it at all" Zahra said, screaming in Rahman's arms.

"already, cry tirelessly, I'm here" said Rahman who tried to calm Zahra.

"it's hard to make a decision that doesn't fit my feelings, and it's all forced behavior because I think it's best for you," zahraa said as she squeezed Rahman's clothes.

"and what hurts the most is that I don't know if this decision I'm going to make is right or not, I was afraid when I did this then I was wrong but I was also afraid when I did that it turns out that I would also make mistakes I was afraid, that's how I feel now afraid of being afraid of being afraid of being so scared" Sahara said in a voice that was not powerful.

"now you rest first yes, you are tired, you rest first sleep well then let your mind clear, so you can think healthy and can decide what you really want," rahman said softly and Zahra began to let go of his embrace.

"i want us to get divorced, there is no rejection of tolerance, which I want us to divorce," said Zahra who at that time immediately made Rahman surprised at once like a lightning bolt that immediately came, without black clouds or rain.

"Zahra I said you rest first you think clearly, you're screwed and you can't decide all that right now, okay," said Rahman who is still trying to control himself from emotions that immediately churned when he heard the words divorce from the mouth of his wife.

"or not at least I want my sister to marry someone else, be a better person than me who can understand brother who can take care of brother who can fulfill his obligations as a wife the same, he said, huh! find the perfect wife more perfect than me" said Zahra clenched her hands and lowered her head.

"Zahra!," Rahman slightly raised his voice to make Zahra raise her head.

"i said you take a break, you have to think clearly and you talk, you can't talk like that, and yes, divorce I'll never divorce you, want you to say divorce a thousand times if I say not to remain ignorant, and in the eyes of religion as long as the husband does not want to divorce then you can not divorce me, you can not divorce me, moreover, I am still able to support you born and inner, if I have not been able to new you are up to say divorce or whatever I wish you," rahman said because he could not stand what Zahra said.

"whatever you say now you're not thinking clearly, I say you rest so please rest, don't test my patience lest I decide something without your permission," said Rahman then moved from his seat next to Zahra and moved to the sofa.

"okay I'm not going to ask for a divorce from my sister, but I'm asking for another sister, I just want to ask for something as simple as that, and yes brother is still able to support me, but my mind is no longer there for my brother is not strong," said Zahra stubbornly and decided to fall asleep with his back to Rahman's body.

"haaiihh," was clearly heard the voice of Rahman who was wasting his deep breath while continuing to beristighfar dhikr and trying to calm himself, he said, then he took his own water and decided to pray and to calm himself by raising his hands high to his Lord Almighty.

while Zahra was quietly crying and hugging her blanket, she tried to close her eyes and repeatedly rubbed her tears, feeling so tight in Zahra's chest hearing the words coming out of her own mouth, and even more sad because he heard the words of Rahman who wanted to continue to maintain his marriage. not to mention when he heard the words of his mother who had thought he did not love her anymore because his behavior was very stubborn with his desire to part with Rahman, had been to Rahman, and do not want to do the treatment or in other words have given up with his own life.

I also want to be happy like you guys, I also really want to do treatment but I'm afraid that if it will all fail and not according to plan it will make you more hurt, even more hurt, and I was also very hurt when I had to put out my words that hurt you, I was selfish I was stubborn that made you guys miserable, I was the one that made you miserable, and I'm the one who's been so troublesome to you and troubled you, I'm sorry I did it all because I was forced to and it's also really hurt me, combined? actually it's not yes I want, I feel pain when I myself say that I want a honey, I can't imagine a time one day you will be with another woman, because to be honest with the truth, my heart is now yours. Zahra quietly cried with a turbulent chest she was confused by what she had decided was actually all right or wrong she was worried about and she hoped everything to be right.

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hi guys I hope I do not help anymore for the upp episode, soon already want the end of the month, and now it's the month of Muharram already the Islamic new year I forgot to say happy Islamic new year part, I love you all bye bye and see you next episode.

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