Living in the shadow of the past

Pras Renews himself

There was no intention in Deandra's heart to hurt her Mother's feelings, it's just that the word honey other women with the emphasis of intonation that is said Mother as if judging herself for the mistakes in the past is not absolute fault but rather because of revenge brother Mother on the drum of war that was timed by her Mother and her self who became her true victim but as if Mother judges all because of her mistakes, as if all the wishes of Deandra. Suppose that someone else who said that word maybe Deandra could understand.

Is there a woman who wants to be honey for other women.?, is there a woman who deliberately wants to be a young wife...?. The answer must not be, right..?. Deandra's whispers held the sting. A drop of warm feathers ran down her cheeks.

Deandra regrets because her Mother is still angkub and selfish by feeling the most righteous herself, placing bitterness in her past over herself and her grandmother who is considered always defending her. though He himself similar to eating simalakama first, he said, He defected the man who sold him to Mr. Edwar but he did not dare report to the authorities because he did not want his family's infamy to look real in front of the audience, pity grandmother who has been taking care of her all this time, will be considered as a mother who failed to educate her children until the siblings attacked each other and fell right, right, Deandra is different from her mother who is without feeling uncomfortable showing to the public her own depraved behavior with her husband but still wants to accept her husband still living with her despite having to suppress the shadow pain . Deandra prefers to keep the reality that actually happened to her in order to maintain the family name and keep the feelings of the person who took care of her from childhood after both parents released her without responsibility even for school beaya He had to be willing to lose self-esteem even though the person who bought it and also his family treated himself very well even until Edwar died He was still often in touch with family nya.

This morning Deandra chose leave by sending her sick license to her place of dedication as an educator .

Pras who that day came to school Deandra delivered a letter from his service to the school where Deandra taught, looking for the figure of the girl who had stolen his heart. some days but not in his meet, end without shame He asked the neighboring Bu Mitha Pras who taught together with Deandra .

" Mum Mitha.., Bu Dew where rich gk looks from earlier "Search Pras with eyes in circulation right around the school environment.

" Cie.cie.cie. . the smell is there being mired in the fire of romance nh..." Mitha glanced at the pras with seeingai flirting .

Pras smiled, holding the knot in shame, putting his right forefinger in his mouth.

' Sssttt .. his talk is not loud loud, your baritone voice is already equal to the microphone, sadatr no " Reply Praas by glaring at his eyes .

Mitha laughed even harder to make other teachers shift their gaze towards them by keeping tanya .

Pras shut Mitha's mouth to stop her laughter.

" Mit.. .this is still in the school environment aware that you are "sharply to hold back the anger and embarrassment of being the center of attention of other teachers in the place where Deandra teaches.

" I miss. miss ..how long my heart is unstoppable.., holding that long hurts you... Hahahaha "Mitha was still also laughing teasing Pras without seeing Pras' reddened face holding back the embarrassment.

" Mister Sahirin Bu Dew where ..ya.., today did not enter, here is a nyariin "Tanya Mitha with a seductive tone while holding back laughter. Pras squeezes his sweaty hands holding in shame by the behavior of Mitha's neighbor and playmate since childhood.

" Mum Dew permits feverish pain from the description of his license "An innocent Mr. Sahirin replied.

" Tu .. have heard, right..? " Tempta Mitha again.

Pras left after saying goodbye to the vice principal after his business was done holding shame with Mitha's clumsiness, all the way across the school hallway in his mounds of face .While Mitha was still smiling herself looking at the cuteness of her little friend's behavior.

After thinking for a long time he chose to ask Irwan Om his Deandra who was his upperclassman when he was still in school in Junior High School first.

Pras forwarded his motor to Irwan's workplace after a brief stale Pras directly asked for Deandra's address. Irwan wrote the address of his nephew to the paper and then handed it to Pras.

In the afternoon during the break Pras came to. kos Deandra brought fruit and soto tauco made by his mother who sold in front of his house. Warung soto his mother Pras quite famous and always crowded visitors every day.

Arriving in front of the room Kos Deandra on tap his door slowly by saying hello.

tock.tok..

" Asalamallaikum's chat.." The bear repeated. After waiting for five minutes there was a reply from inside the room.

Deandra moved to the front to open the door after before her clean her face with water, Deandra just woke up that afternoon after a night she stayed up because she could not sleep imagined with her Mother's words repeated.

" Outdoor.." Answer it from within.

Cekrek ..cekrek.., the sound of the key opened and then the door handle turned down for a second then a figure of a tangled face appeared in front of Pras, although still visible beauty at least in the eyes of Pras.

" I'm sorry to find who Mas is. " Tanya Deandra with a confused look does not know the figure in front of nyan but her feeling of knowing the man in front of her is only where she met Deandra still does not remember her.

Pras smiles as warmly as he can to give a good impression in front of the girl he likes.

" Good day, Miss Dew.., I know Prastyawan Wibowo.., I went to school said Mr. Sahirin Bu Dew did not go to school because of illness so I came here to eat anterin from my mother to make Miss Dew.." His words were full of confidence with a smile that could not be separated from his face.

Deandra was still dumbstruck with a confused look of not knowing the mother man in front of her who smiled like a clown.

" Can I come in..? " Pinta Pras's.

" Eeehhh sorry do not enter bad with other residents later thought I used to enter men. sorry here aja yes ..! " Stuttered Deandra invited guests to sit in the guest chair in front of her boarding room.

Pras sat on a chair near the parapet his face continued to stare at her with a highlight like the look in Johan's eyes as he stared at her. Deandra felt uncomfortable in the view like that by a man who claimed to know her long ago even from the time He was in school in Junior High but He himself did not know her and just remembered the Pras officer of the Department of Education who often comes to his school .