Living in the shadow of the past

Deandra's Heart

Anita got up to hug her best friend, rubbed her back gently and wiped away the tears that dripped on her best friend's tapered cheeks that looked thinner.

"" I'm sorry, Dew.., "" whispered Anita.

Deandra felt her chest tight. In his breath the air in - deep and then in hempas kannya slowly, closed his eyes to reduce the pain in the heart.

Deandra spilled her pain by crying in the arms of her best friend.

Anita tries to be wise by leaving her best friend in her close arms.

Some time later after Deandra's irritation came off and her crying subsided. Him

start the story of how He was in the hands of Mr. Edwar. Anita who before her had heard from her boss tried to understand her best friend's feelings.

"" What should I do now...""

The plain face of Deandra looks restless.

"" What.what do you want right now Dew..?! ""

Anita flips her best friend's question, asking to reflect and think about the steps she will take.

Deandra shook her head weakly.

"" I don't know. I haven't been able to think about what I should do in the future "'

The whimpering.

"" Eemmm.. I'm sorry, Dew, may I know what's going on in your heart right now..?!"" Anita asked with a fear of offending her best friend.

Deandra closed her eyes for a moment.

"" People's perception of me An..., you know how our society is..?!, people in our country tend to judge women as guilty of our weakness as women .."" Dew's voice began to look agitated.

"" My life is ruined, my future..?! I don't know.shadow how my reaction when he knows my current situation....,.I'm afraid the asthma in the sewage will recur and more frightening, right what if He had a heart attack..?! "'" Deandra breathed .

"" What about your mother's feelings, how much shame she has to bear.., I myself can't tell you that her two daughters made me this way, I'm not. want to put it on the fruit simalakama.,

I also do not want the enmity between the mother and her two sisters to be tapered and can not forgive each other until the end of life because of the crime of the mother brother to me "' Clear crystal grains back wet Deandra's face.

Anita hugged her best friend again giving her support.

"" Patience Dew.., I hope you can get through all this trouble "" advised Anita sage.

"" You've asked Mr. Edwar how his responsibilities with your life go forward.. "' Search Anita .

Deandra shook her head covering her face with both of her palms.

"" I haven't thought of anything since He locked me in a room in his Villa.. may instincts not die too "'

His whisper is smooth by looking up to the ceiling roof of the room.

"" Eeemmm did Mr. Edwar never speak to his wishes ..?! , eg He would be his young wife or ... "' Anita floated her question because she did not have the right words to draw the wishes of Mr. Edwar without making her best friend feel sad and worse.

"" Yes, who always said it would make me his wife, but I doubt he accepted his wish.. "' Dew bit his lower lip and then closed his eyes .

"" I'm like eating fruit at this time, if I refuse his wishes, can I still live without shame ? my crown has been snatched away is there still a man who wants to accept a girl who is not a virgin like me.?.?,"' In his hela long breath and heavy that makes the tightness back attack his chest.

"" If I obey his will and become his second woman, be his young wife.

people who do not understand

"" Are you afraid to face Mr. Edwar's family. wife..... child... and family ..?! "' Anita looked at her best friend to find out her current best friend's feelings.

Deandra shook her eyes looking at the window.

"" Some time ago when I just realized from my long sleep, his wife and two children came here .. "'

"" Did they scold you.?!, "" asked Anita worriedly.

"" No. Oddly enough, they're actually supporting what the guy's doing and he wants to..""

Deandra grunts annoyed

Anita rounded her eyes, a little did not understand the words of her best friend.

""... IS.Sorry Dew. You mean Mr. Edwar's wife and children are not angry with.. '"

"" Not at all.., her daughter said she wished she could be closer to me, his son looked at me with the same look of his father every time he looked at me even he gripped my hand tightly and long until I felt bored and a little afraid of his gaze while his wife instead of hoping that I can be happy is her husband... crazy is not..?!"'

Deandra spilled his frustration by speaking louder.

Anita rounded her eyes. How powerful is the great Lord until the child even his wife is obedient to his treatment..?! Anita murmured in the heart.

"" Last night, my lady and her other siblings came to see me while she was combing my hair. Strange all her family did not mind her desire to make me her second woman "" Deandra looked at Anita with unrest.

"' Dew .. there must be a reason behind Mr. Edwar's family's approval of his wish "'

Anita tried to calm Deandra's heart.

"' Perhaps what I heard from his wife because she was not able to carry out her duties as a wife on the bed.., his wife was paralyzed half of his body from the waist down due to a stroke in her affliction.."' Deandra leaned down her legs and hugged her knees in motion - moving her body slowly.

Anita was astonished to hear the words of her best friend .

"" Came out.... ?! how long has his wife been suffering from paralysis ?!! "' Ask him to know.

"" These three years... And all this time he never once took a woman to bed... Then why should I..."" Deandra sobbed poignant.

Anita stroked her best friend's hair gently.

"" The stoic Dew.., if I see from him the way Mr. Edwar loves you.. there was a ray of love emanating on his face "'

Deandra sighed, breathing heavily.

"" If love why should it hurt me.. ?! what love must have to have even if it must hurt the loved one.. ?! what is such selfish love.. ?! "" asked her raucously with a pushy look in Anita's eyes.

Anita shook her head slowly.

"" People's perceptions of love are different, and the way they look is not the same..., Is Mr Edwar being nice to you only when in front of others.. ?! ""

Deandra shook her head and looked out the window.

"" Since locking me up in her room in the Villa, she's always been like that. Treating me like I'm her little girl, feeding me and bathing me even though I refuse she'll impose her own desires, always talk soft and sweet "'

"" Dew. That means he loves you very much,.. "' Whisper Anita in Deandra's ear.

"" If he loves me why would he hurt me in this way.?!, why should he buy me from someone who is hostile to my mother..?!!"' Deandra spilled his misery.

""That's what Dew is. There might be something that makes him do that.., sorry instead I defended him. This is just my presumption "'

Anita looked at her gentle companion, afraid that her remarks would offend her best friend..