Last Letter to You

Episode 38's

Hope after this long night, you won't change again.

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For the time being, Nathan's common sense is not working well. The entire blood in his body was boiling, his face was crumpled like supporting a burden too heavy. His free hand crashed in all directions, dropping the objects touched by him. Room's destroyed. Can no longer be said to be a place to rest, but it is suitable to be called an unused warehouse.

The black and white shades of the room look even more sinister when the owner growled furiously with both hands clenched tightly, his gaze sharpened, as if in front of him was standing a figure that made him so broad. Nathan turned his memory to one incident a few hours before he chose to go home while his work as a Lecturer, unresolved.

What am I in your eyes, Gra? Stranger or your girlfriend?

From the very beginning, did you consider my presence? Do you think of me as your girlfriend? Even once?

Are you not in love with me at all?

If only, those three sentences were what was troubling his mind. Heaped his life burden. Right, Nathan saw and heard everything, without exception. Nathan wanted to go to one of the food stands in the cafeteria. However, his body's response refused on the way, as the soft voice of a person entered his sense of hearing. Nathan immediately stopped stepping and then half turned his body, he pecked, silent for quite a long time, watching a drama no more than half an hour was right in front of his eyes. It is enough to be sure if his heart is hurt.

Nathan was shocked to learn that the woman he had loved for so long secretly belonged to someone else. Nathan still can't believe what he's hearing. Nathan is not sure if his ear function is still going well. But his faith was strengthened because it was Kinan who said all this. Nathan heard it straight from Kinan's mouth that the man in the canteen was Kinan's lover. Although the reaction of the man was very cold, the point is, Nathan was hurt. He decided to leave without ordering food.

"What's wrong if a brother likes his own sister?" Nathan muttered. There was a sense of regret why he had to be reunited with Kinan as the brother of the woman. Why should Kinan be adopted by her Papa. Wh why?

"What's wrong with me loving you? Are you gonna hate me when you find out I'm putting feelings on you?" Nathan fussed while ruffling his hair in frustration. Nathan longed to express his feelings for a long time, but one thing stuck his mind, would Kinan accept his declaration of love? Or is Kinan going to walk away from his life?

Nathan is afraid that Kinan will drop his decision and choose the second option. Nathan couldn't afford to lose the woman he loved. Nathan loves her. But, if Nathan did not stop saying his heart, he would be sorry because Kinan was happier with the others. Nathan didn't want that to happen. Nathan tried to strengthen his resolve. Yes, he should as soon as possible discuss this matter with Kinan. Closedly. Brown-sang Papa can't know. If he knew, Brown would have foiled his intentions.

After smoothing out his fervent appearance, Nathan got up, walked in holding the door handle and opened it. Before he did, Nathan went to the kitchen, a glass of water. The movement of putting his glass hanging in the air as his manic found Kinan already standing before him. Nathan was fixated for a moment then cleared his throat softly. His throat just choked. Fortunately, Nathan quickly regained consciousness.

Kinan is very beautiful wrapped in a knee-length white dress with long hair. Nathan was amazed in his heart. If Nathan is Kinan's lover, Nathan makes sure he's the luckiest man to have an angel by his side.

"Are you angry with me?" ask Kinan.

Nathan shook his head, "No, baby," he put down his glass, pulled an empty chair nearby and sat down. Nathan looked at Kinan fixedly. Nathan tries to control his emotions in front of Kinan. To be honest, he could not bear to ignore Kinan like that. What power, Nathan's hurt.

"Why do you keep nyuekin me when I get home from work? Have I ever made a mistake with you? Please tell me, let me understand," Kinan took part, sitting in front of Nathan. He demanded an explanation. Really, Kinan was worried.

"I'm just tired. You know me, right?"

Kinan nodded, "I'm sorry I've been thinking macem about you. Yaudah, you're mending a break there in the room. Let me make some tea for more energy. You seem so tired. That's up to your eye bags, that's black. You stayed up last night?"

Nathan smiled faintly, "You don't think about my situation. Just think about your situation. Because to me, everything about you is the most important thing for me to know."

"You don't fight, Kinan grunted. Kinan was relieved by seeing the smile imprinted on the man's face.

"Of right there to the room. I made some tea first," Kinan began to raise his buttocks, Nathan prevented by grabbing his wrist.

"No need. I've been drinking water" Nathan refused.

"Seriously? Is water enough?" Kinan asked.

Nathan nodded, "Where are you going these nights?"

"Oh, that. I'm going with someone. Not long, Nath. Can, right?"

"Do what you want. Remember, don't come home late. Understood?" Nathan reminded. Inwardly wondering who the figure who would later go with Kinan.

"Ready! If so I say yes. There he came," Kinan hurried after hearing the horn coming from outside.

After Kinan left, Nathan's highlight turned sharp. His fingers clenched until his knuckles turned white. If Kinan had not intervened in delivering his heart, there would have been no other choice for Nathan than to go to Kinan's lover.

......

Kinan's heart was pounding. He ceaselessly twisted his springy fingers, restraining his nervousness. How not, Agra was beside him. Be with him. Sitting behind the wheel with a straight look, staring at the street in front of him.

Strongly, Kinan held back his happy overflow. The air supply is almost exhausted. In the car, the silence was long enough. Fortunately siding with Kinan because without him starting the conversation, Agra first made a sound.

"Well eat?" Agra asked. His view remains on the streets.

Kinan glanced at Agra, "Not yet. Agra himself, have you?"

Agra replied with a headband. A few seconds later they were back together. Kinan gathered his courage to turn to the side, observing Agra's face. The man's expression was flat. It was quite intense, until Kinan hurriedly turned his face the other way when Agra caught him.

Whether Kinan was hallucinating or his eyes were clouding, Agra smiled faintly at him. Ahh, Kinan's heart beats twice as fast. It feels like being stared at by someone we love is indeed different effect. Directly wrong behavior.

"Why waste your face?"

Kinan gurgled, "Ah, that, that's okay," he refused to look at Agra's bead.

"Look at me," pinta Agra.

Slowly, Kinan's head twisted, his condition bowed. Jemari Agra touched Kinan's chin and raised it slightly to the point of not wanting their eyes to meet. His sturdy fingers moved, down his face, stroking the area of his cheeks with gentle movements. Kinan closed both his eyes, feeling a warm sigh all over his body. Agra's touch made her lulled. Full softness plan.

Kinan's forehead puckered looking at the tall building right in front of him. What are they here for? Kinan.

"Save your question. I know the contents of your pretty head are filled with dozens of questions. There was a time when you asked why we were in this place," Agra said as if he could read Kinan's thoughts, "Follow me. I want to let you see something" Agra clasped her hand. Her happiness increased.

They're getting into the building. Riding elevator. Agra pressed the 30 button, heading towards the roof of the building. Both Agra and Kinan stood stiffly while waiting for the door to open. Their hands are still touching.

Ting!

The door is wide open. Agra came out followed Kinan. Kinan stood glued. He was fascinated by something on the floor. Unaware that Agra was a few meters away from him. Observing behavior. With gontai, Kinan approached Agra. His smile was full of. Her sweet face looked brighter than before.

"Do you remember my wish?" Kinan asked a little in disbelief.

Because, Kinan had written a letter to Agra which contained his one wish. A glittering view of Jakarta City from the roof of the tallest building. As it is now. Kinan thought, Agra and will never obey his will. Kinan thought, Agra doesn't care at all. In fact, Kinan was made haru by him. Agra. Kinan was completely unexpected. Kinan did not stop smiling. She's happy. Because his happiness is that simple.

"Yes, I remember."

"I thought you had forgotten," Kinan lowered his head for a moment then looked up again, looking at the handsome figure in front of him.

Agra was perfect in his eyes. Although not perfect his attitude that sometimes cold delay, indifference to boredom, Kinan berklumannya. Kinan knows, it takes a long time to open your heart to someone we don't know very well. One day, Agra must have fallen in love with her, liked her, reciprocated her feelings. Kinan. What Kinan needed to do, be patient until everything went as expected.

His heart rippled as Agra let out a faint smile. Kinan saw sincerity there. The man's eyes are the answer. Agra's different. Kinan was happy. That means Agra gradually began to accept it.

"Likes?" asked Agra with a gentle look.

Kinan nodded in spirit, "Banget, Agra."

"happy?"

Once again Kinan nodded his head. Obviously if that's what he feels.

"Good."

Not wasting a chance, Kinan took his steps, closing in on the iron fringe. He held the barrier with his eyes closed. His head was turned up, enjoying the night breeze, stroking the side of his face and his hair. Kinan did it for a few minutes.

Is that what it's like to be on the roof of the tallest building? Really, Kinan is at home up here. The wind slowly rushed at him, making Kinan forget for a moment his life problems. Yeah, for a second.

In the next minute, Kinan froze, his manic slowly opened and gnawed slowly, feeling someone's sturdy hands encircling his stomach from behind. Agra hugged. Kinan's heart raced, beating twice as fast. It gets tighter as his back body attaches to Agra's body. Kinan clenched tightly, restraining the screams that were about to come out by biting his lower lip. Kinan felt the air around him vanish instantly. Really, this is very surprising.

"Relax aja," pinta Agra, understand why Kinan stiffened as he is today.

Agra's request was immediately followed, Kinan began to cross his joints, his breathing returned to normal, not kayak earlier, holding his breath and almost choking. One more thing that made him speechless, Agra grabbed his hands and clasped them tightly, carrying them on his stomach with Agra's hands to become a protector when the wind hit his hand shell.

"This is what you want? Leaning on my chest with me hugging you from behind and fingers clasped tightly together?" agra whispered right in Kinan's ear. Kinan goosebumps as Agra's breath sweeps across his skin. He was silent, not replying. The fragrance emanating from the man's body made him fall asleep. The pain that Agra created for her was not worth the happiness that Kinan was feeling right now.

Agra let out a long sigh, "I'm sorry for all my attitude that hurt you."

"As easy as the wound you inflicted on my heart, as easy as that I forgive you. To me, you're not wrong, Agra. I was wrong for forcing love from you. Though I clearly knew you would never be able to open your heart to me," unbeknownst to Agra, Kinan smiled grievously as he closed his eyes.

Agra unraveled the embrace and then took a step back after removing their hands. Agra grabbed her fingers for her kiss long enough then said, "Would you give me a chance to change? I promise to be a good and caring lover."

Is this the time?

Kinan fluttered, his highlight straightly staring at Agra. The umpteenth time Kinan fell silent. Kinan felt tonight Agra was really strange. His attitude turned sweet on her. Could there be a specific meaning? Ah, naw. Kinan did not want to be so bad. Kinan was sure Agra was starting to accept his presence. It was a pretty big opportunity for him, to get the man's love.

"Yes, I want to."

"thank you. I love you," Agra hugged Kinan tightly with warmth.

Hoping that after this long night is over, Agra remains as sweet as he is now.

......

After driving Kinan home safely, Agra drove his car to the Abyan housing complex. Agra promised his two friends to stay overnight and do group tasks that were not touched at all.

"Where's the date? Success?" if that question were to welcome Agra's arrival there. Afka with Abyan next to her, waiting for her mouth to open.

Agra hissed then sat on the sofa. The jacket attached to his body he took off and put it on his thighs "Not drinking nawarin, even cold in sambet lo both equally me!"

Afka scowled, "Gue is impatient ****. Understandably, the news about your relationship is more important than water that has no sweetness."

"Bas on the king of gossip!"

Abyan positioned himself sitting beside Agra, his eyebrows raised next to him, looking at Agra meaningfully, "So?"

As if knowing the meaning of the word 'so' that Abyan uttered, Agra smiled as she nodded.

"Successful."