Just an Ordinary Man (Between True Love And Forbidden Love)

I have no regrets

The incident in the canteen made people who cross paths with Roy have another view of the young man. Roy felt a little relieved even though he also felt uncomfortable with the gaze of those people. Because even though they look silent, actually they also feel annoyed at Roy. It was visible from their eyes.

Some of them still do not believe in Roy and Andara's relationship. They assume that Andara only wants to help Roy. But also not a few of them who really believe to gossip them behind the back.

Not even a few who talked about Andara and Roy in front of the young man. To make Roy's ears feel hot because of their words that offend the young man. Not only men who seem to disagree with the relationship Roy and Andara, but women as well.

Although Roy was disturbed, but he could feel relieved. At least for now those people did not dare to disturb him, even though he was sitting alone in the cafeteria. Your existence and status is really influential in the campus environment.

Roy doesn't want to imagine how it will go tomorrow. He could not imagine that he might be in a much more serious situation. He will think about how to live tomorrow so as not to interfere too much with his condition.

Roy was sitting alone in the cafeteria, but he didn't have a schedule today. He just wanted to sit there while waiting for Andara and also he wanted to avoid meeting with Thanit. Though usually Roy always comes to the Dealer owned by Thanit every he no activity. He always spent time with Thanit.

But right now, it feels like Roy really wants to avoid Thanit. He always imagined his grandmother's anger when faced with Thanit. He could not feel relieved yet. Because even though Thanit meant a lot to her, but her grandmother meant a lot more to her life.

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Time shows at three in the afternoon, Roy who waited for Andara some time ago, now can feel relieved because he can be with the girl.

Roy and Andara sat together in the cafeteria before they went home. Their activities did not escape the attention of some people who were there. Those people no longer look upset and don't talk about Roy either. Maybe they are disinclined because of the Andara there.

Roy and Andara rushed home because they also had no activities on campus. They both walked to the hostel. They walked together while chatting.

I don't know why your attitude is so different from the morning. The girl looked more cheerful even though the weather in the afternoon was still fairly hot. Though his activities on campus are also quite draining his energy.

"Why did you say I was your girlfriend? " ask Roy innocently as they walk together.

Andara paused her steps for a moment and looked towards Roy with a strange look, then the girl continued her steps while answering Roy's question. "Our relationship is even more than that."

Roy looked down while walking. His mind wandered because he heard Andara's statement that was true. But the girl's expression as she said it made Roy clueless.

"You mind?" ask Andara who is aware of Roy's silence.

Roy smiled at him. "Ehm...Seems not. Will it have an impact on our lives later? Like the people at college, for example. "

"You scared?" Roy remained silent, confused as to what to answer. That actually what Roy is more worried about is your life later.

"Don't if anyone was disturbed, it should be me? Why are you scared? You'd forgotten? You're the one who got me tied up in this marriage."

Roy lowered his head before staring fixedly at Andara's face. "Are you sorry?"

"No. I have no regrets at all." Andara looked honest when saying that.

"Why? Hasn't this marriage taken away some of your happiness from you? Didn't this marriage also put limits on your relationship with Karin? "

"I know and know all that, but I don't know why I don't feel sorry. Is it because our relationship is not like a couple in general?"

"I don't know. Why ask me that? Don't you know how you feel?"

"Oh. If it could be. But will we be like this forever?"

They stared at each other with the same facial expression. The confused faces of the two people looked funny. "I don't know."

"You said we'd think it through while living it? Do you have a plan?"

Andara turned her eyes away from Roy. The girl suddenly felt sad. "I haven't thought about it, sorry."

Roy smiled and patted gently on the shoulder of the girl beside him. "No problem. The one who should think about it all is me. Sorry if I made you burdened. Don't think about it." Andara nodded.

"Then do you have a plan?"

Roy looked down sadly. Andara who saw it means that Roy felt sad because he did not get the idea to escape their marriage. But Roy was sad for something else.

'Is it wrong that I wish this marriage would go on forever? Is it wrong for me to ask him to be with me like this forever? I want to change. Even though this change has been very difficult for me. Because honestly, my feelings for Thanit still can't be eliminated.' Roy could only ask inwardly. Dare not to tell Andara everything.

"Hey, why dream? Don't think about it too much if you feel it's too heavy. I don't mind this."

Andara smiled as Roy looked at her. "We just go for it, huh? One day if you have a plan, don't hesitate to tell me. You remember right? We're friends now."

Roy is moved by the attitude of Andara who tries to comfort him, although he himself knows that the girl also feels sad and confused because of this.

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Rika who saw the change in attitude Youara felt astonished. Because the girl younger than him looked moody when he had just returned. But now, it doesn't seem like it. Is it true that you feel exhausted, or is there something else that makes Youara look cheerful again?

"You why the hell? From college, how do you feel like you keep smiling?" asked Rika who could not help her curiosity.

"I'm not pa-pa. I'm used to this."

"Yes it's normal like this, but right when you go back to the boarding house, you seem sad to continue. Now how is it different?"

Andara was silent for a moment. "Then anyway? I feel ordinary."

"What habits? It's clearly different. "

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seriate...