Jealous of Being Autumnous

Chapter 35's

My days are getting worse. I don't want the pleasure of living anymore. All my happiness has been taken away by this engagement. In fact, every day delivered with brother Rahul I feel very uncomfortable. Everyone knew I had been proposed to by a man. The abuse I received made me not want to live any longer.

"Oh, his face is plain but this is how it is. Pregnant first, huh?" The first and most painful one just popped out.

"You want to get married at an early age like this,"

"And his cleverness for what? If it's just the trash of society,"

Some of them keep chiding me. In fact, I was still able to defend it on the 2nd day. But, today the insinuations and insults are becoming more and more. I always cry, want it in class and even in the bathroom. Staring at this wrong face in a glass made me even more useless.

Cring...

The phone that disperse all the sobs at this time. I answered it too. However, what?!

"Ra, you meet me at**** otherwise you'll really feel guilty. Your future husband is in my hands now, if you're not coming you'll know what I did to him."

Tuttts..

The phone connection just died. I can't believe he planned it out. Yeah, I realize a psychopath must be like that. Plan things with a wise strategy. Now I went to the place he sent after I finished calling.

It's dark!

That's what makes the atmosphere even more gripping. Right now I keep searching for Rahul's brother. Yoon Seon's sister has gone crazy. He was not using his wits anymore at this moment. And what's wrong with Rahul's brother? This really freaks me out, even if Rahul's brother gets hurt I won't forgive this very cruel man.

In a dark, stuffy room. Yeah, on the other end there's a guy in all black. There was only one lamp there. This makes the heart rate stronger. I also made a sound, though I was still on the verge of fear.

"I'm already here. Where's Rahul's brother?"

He also turned around. And that made me gasp, there was blood there, but Rahul's brother was not there. I also pulled the collar of the psychopath's shirt, and threw a very meaningful annoyance at this time.

"Why him? What are you doing, Rahul?"

"Haha, I'm satisfied this time Ra. Even if he ran away."

"You're crazy!" I slapped him, and left the place to look for Rahul's own whereabouts.

Passing through the dark streets. In fact, I don't even understand where to look. I don't attach much importance to safety anymore, the most important thing Rahul I found. And I knew he'd survive. This sense of loss makes me weaker. Yes, excessive worry and whether I want to go where it is makes me weaker, not even able to back up.

I sat on the sidewalk, and this time I expected Rahul's brother to be in front of me. Suddenly, and unexpectedly.

"Ra, why are you here?" The question was raised by the voice of a man I knew so well this time.

"Dwi?" I also looked at his face with a sharp look.

"Let's rise!" His word.

"I can't get up any more" Remained weak on the sidewalk. He also bent his body.

"Yuk ride! Let me carry it." What the fuck is he really concerned about me?

"Hm... Alright,"

That night, with a trip far enough away he carried me again. And I can't imagine even today I'm tired of looking for Rahul's brother. But, unlike Dwi who is willing to carry me to the house. I didn't think he was so kind again. They didn't want to look me in the face in class. But in fact, it's just my feeling.

Arriving at my house. He took me down from his carrier, and gave me a signal that I knew what he meant. Yes, he was tired of carrying me from the streets so far away to home. I understood, from the beginning I thought about it. But he didn't say that. After he dropped off to go home. It was already very late. Poor right?

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I just threw away the school bag, and immediately sat on the side of Rahul. Staring fixed on the big wound, and even very sorry for him. And this question always haunts me. Why is Brother Yoon Seon so hearty? Is this the real attitude of a psychopath? And why not Dwi? Does Dwi seem attentive only to me not to others? If that's true then, what has affected him. Same with Brother Yoon Seon too, he did not want me to be harmed, even though that time was once. However, this time I have very often upset he did not hurt me.

After the completion of the Isya prayer'. I usually study in my room. What's more tomorrow the teacher gives a weekly retrial, it should be more to study tonight. Rahul went into the room, with a big wound that had been caught. He also put his body in my bed.

"Ra, how do you think we'll be able to achieve our goals later?" The question immediately pierced my mind.

"There will be no way, brother," I spoke the truth this time but could not quote in more detail.

"But, Ra's big brother promised. Brother will always look after Zahra like his own sister. Brother doesn't want Zahra to be sick, and Zahra can pursue a career in the future. Brother won't forbid Zahra anything,"

"Already brother. Zahra doesn't want any more. Zahra doesn't want to." Barkl.

"Hmmm..."

A moment of silence between us. And I finally broke my body with him. Look at the ceiling of the room. Yes, I am like that, every time I finish learning, I will definitely lay down this body. Suddenly Rahul spoke again.

"Ra, you don't accept this match, do you? Are you any other. Sorry sassy."

"Ti's... Nothing," I looked at him.

"Why don't you want it if it's early? It's not like you said you'd be able to achieve your goals, without brother forbidding. Continues to... What are you thinking about Ra,"

"Dwi," I said unconscious.

"HUH!?"

"Ups... I forgot brother that we had group work with Dwi. Tomorrow is gathered." I deftly left the room area, and sat daydreaming in the kitchen.

Eat a snack in the refrigerator, with a glass of white milk as a friend. This time I can not assume anymore, that the promise of Rahul's brother will be right. And I'm sure that after I'm done, get married, and have kids. I don't want it that fast. Even my age is very young.

Every time I think ahead, my only vision is the darkness of education. Not in accordance with my expectations who want to get a higher level education, even assume can get to Prof. Now that hope has turned very black, and can no longer a paper that was full of meaningful writing, must now be spilled by black paint all over.

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What a beautiful view. A lot of breeze wags this hijab. If I were to appear relaxed at this moment. No more thinking ahead, what about my life. Now I seem to enjoy more the beauty of God's creation, and expand my view to more reality.

On my side was a man who did not seem clearly in sight, blurred and shaded. I also put my head on his shoulder. But we felt very far away and could not be together anymore. He was by my side, but I somehow thought so. He also gave a rose that was in deep black.

"If you miss me. You see this flower, you'll notice." He left the place without any pity to leave a woman alone.

Broken it!

I also woke up. Yes, I'm still in the kitchen. And, I realized that I had been asleep for quite a while. I looked at the clock, still pointing at 01:00. I immediately went to the bathroom to take whudu and pray tahajud. However, there is something that makes me not khusuk with night prayers that are clear including sunnah mua'kad. My faith wavers, there will be a disruption of shethan when praying tahajud.

Friend cause! Yes, they hallucinate a lot about kuntilanak that will find. And it was still imagined by me, even if it was long enough. SMP time is full of puzzles only.

Like footsteps approaching. My heart started beating even more. Now I'm really scared. Maybe, if it were true I would have fainted on the spot. And the more it makes me tremble. In fact, I don't know what verses I'm reading right now. Irregular, and less obvious. Cold sweat keeps it down, as well as wanting to urinate.

Krekka... The door also opened slowly. My heart started beating. And someone hit me on the shoulder. Broken it!

"YESY!!!"I screamed loudly too.