Jealous of Being Autumnous

Chapter 25's

18 May 2018

Today Rahul wants to go back to his house, and does not want to stay at home. I just looked into those lethargic eyes. She asked him, why did he leave the house? I guessed it because last night, Mother defended Taesoon and praised his good looks. That is the nature of the worst when I have been looking for a boyfriend, and after all the mother of the day had joked about wanting to match me with her. How he was not discouraged from hearing it all. While he had agreed to an arranged marriage between us, both of our parents had agreed.

Pamit with sincerity so that the mother does not want him to leave the house so soon, and besides if he is not a crowd and speech-chattering that is not wise not to return. I stayed hidden in that wall. With guilt now I can't be like before, who jokes every day with her. The memories were still remembered, and these tears were unbearable again.

What have I done? My heart must have been hurt if it was far away from me. But this frustration is still on the verge of I cannot prevent it. He saw me in this blockage, and I ran to the room. Covering your face with a pillow, and screaming so hard that this cry never stops. It's my fault, and I can't forgive this selfishness. Even I don't want to forgive myself, because my dear brother has abandoned me. I couldn't do anything, just cry his departure. No more confiding friends, even if only limited. And that more affection will be destroyed in an instant.

I can't imagine if he's not by my side. Even though we still did not communicate this time. I was very close, even we until it was stated between each other had been glued together by a very potent glue, inseparable. This time it was no more. Yes, this time he has already left me alone, with no friends on his side for this time.

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This time night came. For a moment I was very hungry, but I would not eat if Rahul's brother was not for me this time. If I don't eat, then I don't know what happens. And maybe I'll drown for school tomorrow, even midnight I'll eat again. I'd better have dinner, accompany the mother who's alone. Don't get because of selfishness everything just turns away from me.

I went into the dark kitchen without even a light there. Where's mother? It's not usually a pitch-black kitchen like this. Maybe you went to Rahul's house, drove him home. I became alone. And this must be very gripping. I was afraid to be home alone. I'll eat first, how do you know you prepare food there. Then I'll call mom later.

Klepp's...

"Zahra Happy Birthday!" Shouts of Rahul and mother together. My eyes were puffed out as if this was just a dream. Is this really my birthday? I forgot all about it, and that means they've prepared this all just for me.

"Thank you." You also hugged them very tightly.

"You forgot your own birthday. Why so surprised?" Ask Rahul.

"Yes I forget that," I scratched this non-itchy head.

"Zahra's habit is a lot of school activities so it seems, his own birthday does not remember," Sindir mother with jaimnya.

"Mother..."

I didn't expect, he wasn't angry with me as it turned out. This is for traps only. I deeply disbelieve, that attitude has been wiped out by him. It wouldn't be mad if I had a lot of boyfriends this time, including Dwi and Taesoon. After all, I need sociolitas with others even with the opposite sex, the most important thing is to be good at taking care of myself. I hugged him back tightly.

"Emmm..." Deheman bubda was a surprise between us. Soon we let go of that tight hug, and lost in shame.

Cut my favorite chocolate cake. This time I am very happy to be able to celebrate this with my mother and sister Rahul, although not all families but the sense of warmth is maintained. I want next year to be like this, if God still allows me to stay longer in this world. Yeah, whose death does it know, right?

The next day I found them in the tree house, where we often digest each other's thoughts and sometimes do tasks there as well. They've choked me to come on time. I don't know what makes them like this, forcing even to threaten if I don't come our friendship will be destroyed.

When I got to the place, they hadn't come yet. What are they thinking? Have threatened to come not to be late a minute, now they are slow to come. It had even been 1 hour I waited with warm boredom. And I don't know how many times I've called not picked up. Am I going to wait for them? Because I'm so tired here. Where are they? Is this just a trap, only for meaningless jokes. I'm really upset. I immediately returned with a resignation that made me growl.

In the middle of the road they called me back that they had arrived. I don't care about it back either. It's just a joke I don't like very much. What do they mean like this? Not funny at all to me. And on the way home, there was a rock in front of me. It was me kicking without feeling guilty, as a result of being so upset at those who might be there harassing me.

"Huh?! hit by a madman!" I ran for a while, because he was chasing me.

I couldn't stand it anymore, this time I hid in the restaurant. Waiting for the crazy to leave the place. I accidentally kicked him so that it hit his head. I better be here first. Suddenly...

"YOUR!!! BULU CATERPILLARS!!!" I also came out of hiding. The caterpillar freaked me out, instantly...

"Here you seem to be, baby" He chased me back.

"I have to run where else!" My scream.

Thank goodness there's a city bus there. Deftly I climbed up without any hesitation back. The bus was traveling very quickly leaving the madman chasing me. I'm safe right now, from chasing that lunatic. Broken it!

"I don't have any money with me right now, how do I pay for it?" I thought very carefully too, not thinking to that madman again.

"Pay!" Said someone there.

"If you don't have money don't ride dong! Poor bastard! You're out there!" With that firmness he drove me away, and was stopped in the middle of the road.

"Where's this street?" I was also forced to be demoted.

Huh!? I'm lost right now!

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I finally got home with a road full of twists and turns there. I just didn't expect to get home. My mind didn't get there, I think tonight I'm going to stay outside. I was home by now. I am also very tired, this is about those who betray will meet in their usual place.

What else is this? Mother anywhere! I'm so tired of having to cook. While the lights alone are still all dead, and strangely the door is not locked. This is the habit of the mother, when traveling for shopping that is rather close she forgets to lock. After he had been shopping, certainly not for long, even until the night I don't know what is being talked about there. Ordinary, mothers mostly gossip when it has got community.

PREETT....

The sound of the trumpet affects the life of the lamp. Surprise came back. This time there was Dwi and Taesoon there. Even though it was too late, it didn't matter to me, they appreciated me very much.

"What did you mean when you called me to the tree house?"

"Trap you,"

"Bas with you!" I was so upset about the two of them, and hit them on the chest slowly.

"Awu... Tait" Ringis Taesoon.

"You don't? I just got chased by a lunatic, 'cause you guys,"

"Haha... He likes you on deck." Ejek kak Rahul's.

"This is because they, I kept hiding in the clover, there were caterpillars."

"Mianhae..." They said in unison, smiling manyun, and even giggling as a result of me being chased by a madman.

Fuck up! Don't know if I was so scared back then? They can only mock me. I'm not very strong right now, and worse there's a caterpillar there. That's what makes my heart beat faster than usual, because I'm so amused by the little furry animal.

Walk from the lobby, and want to enter the classroom. My hand was pulled back very deftly by her. Who else if not Yoon Seon's sister. He was endlessly interrupting my life for this time. I'm so sick of that face. He gave a gift that was arranged very beautiful presumably from the outside.

"Later notya, when you're sitting on your bench, baby!" His orders, and with those disgusting words I'm so sick of it.

"Yes," I answered very loudly.

"Kok so anyway, don't be fierce dong!"

"You're silent! Go there no! Otherwise I'll throw this in your face." I also want to hit the gift of his gift to the ground.

" Ok!" With quick steps he left the place.

I am very curious about this gift. Still remember correctly he was with me even though it was too late, it was okay with this gift but my curiosity was very strong. I opened it when I was sitting in the chair. Whatisthis? White clothes have blood spots, I don't know what this all means? Is it written there Dwi? What's up with him?

And a piece of paper with the words "I've done it all, can drain blood. Yeah, he's at the Biolgi Lab, get him right away! Or you'll regret it forever." She guessed me, and I'll find her, otherwise she'll be reckless with Dwi.

Towards the Biology Lab. These tears are already flowing down my cheeks. I opened it so firmly that it looked like a great break. I can't imagine, and I close my eyes, not to be seen. I can't help it, if it's true he's hurt Dwi. I've been negatively thinking about all this and lest it be gone. It could be because Yoon Seon's brother is a really reckless person. I can't hold everything back, he's the one who can kill anyone.

Will I open these eyes? I was so scared, and I was still stiff in this door leaf, with my eyes closed. I have to be strong to see this all! Brother Yoon Seon I will reply if I have anything to do with Dwi this time, just look!

"Hah Dwi!" My eyes are puffed up by everything.