Jealous of Being Autumnous

Chapter 34's

Degs...

"What did you say?"

"I know very well, don't you love Dwi? Yeah, I realize I'm just a friend of yours. Not for a Dwi you consider more Ra. Here I will always hope you can be sensitive to me. But it's not."

"K... You're not A... Origin Bi.. Talk Tae!" I was trembling immediately too.

"I don't just talk. Here's reality. And I want to be honest actually Dwi loves you too. He doesn't want to leave you. Even though he was acting very cold, and had time to decide your expectations. I'm sure you have a sense of loving each other."

"You're just telling lies,"

"No Ra. This is the reality."

Suddenly...

"DON!!!" Call it, call it!

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Dwi is downstairs. Calling the name Taesoon. Perhaps, they had made a pact to meet in this tree house. Taesoon immediately told me to hide in the barrier between the friendship room and the prayer room. Inside that simple tree house, there were two spaces sealed with planks. Yes, the friendship room around him there are shelves that are stacked with novel books even to textbooks. And in the prayer room was attached to the wall of our photo, on the back of the qibla. Not big but enough to remember later.

I sat in the prayer room and listened to what they said. Initially, they discussed each other about the school, and even why Dwi was not too close again this time with us. Yes, this is when everything was revealed, and all my questions were answered by her own mouth.

"I don't want Zahra with the others. I told you that, right? I love her so much. But this is me being too possessive. I love him so much, even the current feeling that I often get sick I just destroy it. I want to protect her always Tae, "His voice was stopped by a deep cry. And for the first time she cried because of me.

"Wi, I know you're jealous. Yeah, well, you're just really mad at him. But, please don't occasionally hurt her with that rising emotion Wi," Taesoon advised of her.

"Hows it? I can't control all Tae." Her crying is getting sobbing.

"That's it,"

Azan magrib also roared. This time I was still stuck with his words. And really it just came out of his mouth. Or that's a guy who has a percis voice like Dwi. And it's possible that Taesoon paid the man to declare falsehood.

"Ra, why are you sitting here daydreaming?"

"Huh, Dwi?" My eyes immediately opened wide to see him unable to even quote anything.

"Hm... Let's pray!" Bring along.

"Emmm... I no longer pray. Well, that means you can't pray."

"Oh, yeah. Yes, I prayed first. We'll go home later."

Whahuh? He changed so much this time. That cold attitude is no more? Where it went. You freak! I also headed forward to sit staring at the sky with Taesoon at this time. He put his head on my shoulder. And my eyes were finally closed. Yeah, I know he's very sleepy right now. Is it true we stayed? Yeah, that's not possible.

Dwi suddenly hit me on the shoulder slowly. And so I shifted a little. With his misery, Taesoon woke up. He surprised Taesoon, by shouting like a citizen who was a victim of a fire. And then they fight back, just like Tom and Jerry. Hm....

We returned to Isha's finished house'. And now they're taking me home. Meet with mom again. They hooted out a crucifix, and this time the mother kept a sincere smile. Yes, this is what I have long wanted to keep smiling at my friends.

I drove them to the fence. Yes, we have to take guests home, it is sunah in receiving guests. Now they go home, with a little pleasantries that make me giggle small.

"Don't sleep at night! Later Dwi worried, "Seloroh Tae, and replied with a small fist with Dwi's arm over his shoulder.

"What the hell," he said very jutek.

They are like that, it seems very pleasant. One is very cold, and one is more active and makes the atmosphere no crisp at all, even though they have to hear each other fighting between opinions with each other. Every day should be like this, facing the boys who are obsessed with their respective arguments. Haha...

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Sekatika sontak mother started a conversation that for me really in terms of seriousness. Yes, about my matchmaking and Rahul's sister.

"Ra, tomorrow you and Rahul will have the engagement. Friday is not a fast school day, is it?" Mother's intention is very lead me to the imagination that ends in death only.

"T... Fiancee?"

"Yes, we've been talking very carefully with uncle and aunt. What do you think?" I also stared intently at Brother Rahul who had just looked down weakly.

"Not that we have to pursue a career first bun, we still want to reach the ideals."

"It's the will between each family."

"Hm... Yes bun," I ducked down. And can't quote anything.

"Yes, invite your friend and that Taesoon and Dwi!" Mother's mouth does not shake to express it.

"Hmmm..."

I'm so tired of reasoning again. Now I accept it with a chest. Yes, this may have been my destiny to be betrothed, even I don't want to be angry about this fact. And tomorrow I will grant it all, yes invite my friends to come to my engagement day with my dear brother who I hope is only a brother and sister only.

Morning came too. I don't want to meet them later in class. I don't want them to be surprised at who I'm going to apply for today. Yeah, I'm still a 17-year-old. This adolescence should not focus on getting married, actually I have to think carefully about my expectations in the future to go to college. But my parents wanted me to marry at an early age.

A step I entered the corridor, instantly startling me. They embraced me, and asked me how I was doing. I was so nervous to invite them. Shame on those who still want to pursue a career. As for me, today will be engaged. This is not fair!

"Friends. I'm sorry if I don't get one day the hope that we put on the embedded paper with you. And I'm sorry if I'm going to get married," I started to shed tears.

"You mean Ra? No, you're the one who declared that we're going to live up to that hope together. And will meet someday with absolute certainty. Yeah, we're gonna be successful Ra!" Dwi's spirit is still burning.

"Yes, but this time my hope is dashed," This stream of tears can no longer be stopped.

"Why are you being like this?" Tanya Dwi was curious.

"I will be engaged after Friday prayers, and this time I invite you to come." Their eyes stare at me.

"You're really Ra?"

"Hmmm..."

I also told him why I could accept it. Yeah, I don't really want this. My marriage goal is at 30 years old. However, destiny is of another will. At the age of 17 years, I have thought about the wedding plan later. I don't like this, but there's no way I'm setting my ego. Because what has become the determination of parents is the best presumably in the later days.

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Finished Friday prayers there I have also been dressed all white this time will my friends come? That's not possible! In front already seen Kak Rahul, who has a formal appearance and his good looks are increasingly radiated like a prince only. However, this cry was unceasingly flowing.

I'm out too. Meet my future husband. I saw a lot of people in the living room. Yes, my family including my best friend is there too. With a full look towards me. This time makes me even more nervous, even I understand I won't be able to accept all this. However, time answered him very sadistically. The ring was already ringing on my finger. Yes, his own mother wrapped the jewel ring around my ring finger.

Finally the show finished very smoothly, but I could not accept it with a clean heart. I don't like it very much today. Right now, I just want to throw away that jewel ring. However, I also cannot resist this passing destiny.

This time I also met friends who always responded to my expectations to get what I want. Yes, their spirit is what makes me continue to rise, even though the chatter that has made me fall again, and can not be excited like before with my friend. This time for me all my hopes are gone. From college to London with Dwi, and the target of marriage at the age of 30 years was no longer in my view. Finished from this High School I will marry, not with the person I love but my own cousin.

"Why don't you refuse? You even ruined your future. It'll be like this, '" said Dwi to myself.

"Mianhae Friends" I sobbed.

"Oh, forget it! And congratulations on choosing the best."

My heart is now back in pain. He came back cold even though he would not care about this. He does not give advice even more make me resigned to all. It felt like he had made me worse off, even if I had no faith for now. I'm going to kill myself!