Jealous of Being Autumnous

Chapter 17's

Seuol, Jan 14, 2018

Today I returned to this very densely populated city. The city of idols has a lot of fans all over the world. My eyes are not inexhaustible to withstand this heavy drowsiness. I can't sleep tonight. Usually, my mother is by my side. He still has business in Indonesia. I also came back with a happy little family, Rahul.

For a few weeks I stayed at his house. Looking at the cruel flow, what else if you do not miss the state of the beloved school. Friends, although there are still people who are not happy with my presence I miss them all very much.

Every day I was taken by Rahul to school. How close we are you will understand. This time Dwi's attitude has not changed, he only attach importance to his own feelings, easily angry about everything that happened. I don't like that attitude, it's cold and instantly it's very social. This time, stay quiet and act very cold. I guess from the beginning it must have been like that. Yes, I do not want to avoid it, the feeling of Dwi's girlfriend if I am here very close like it has been stuck by glue, of course she is there to consider Dwi here not playing fun, not playing fun, because her boyfriend is a very jealous person.

I make sure if he doesn't say a word I'm the same with him cold. This is to keep the heart of his courtship that is in Indonesia. Women's feelings are very soft, and easily carried away by their emotions. Maybe this is the best thing for us, and this time I'm sure I can avoid you being so cold.

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Right now I want to go to the bathroom, because I can't stand urinating. And handpone like I usually keep well in the drawer. When I was finished and relieved, I went back to class. Dwi! He's holding the handpone? Without my permission. What's with that handpone. And aren't we not interacting with each other this time? Why these? Something is strange!

"Why did you touch my stuff?" I said ketus.

"So, did someone tell you to hold it?"

"M... Mianhae," His eyes immediately rounded and glazed over.

"R... Ra, where did you get this number?" He showed me his girlfriend's handpone number.

"IT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS!!" I took it very roughly.

"Ra, mianhae is actually..."

"What's? Your boyfriend. I already knew it was Wi. Don't you talk much anymore!"

"It's not so!"

"Not so, so how?"

"He was my friend Ra, whom we met. At the time, I said I liked myself. I just got what? He's not a special person to me. However, he considered it more than a friendship. Mianhae's..."

"Forgot it!" I also left the class, because at this time I was very discouraged by him who seemed to say the heat.

Just friends? That past one. Why is it like that? Girlfriend right? Why the woman, if it is true that Dwi is not dating Alhamdullilah. Please say this is a good start to a friendship without any problems. Like yesterday it seems. If it's true that she's dating, I can assure you that I can leave this friendship with a small heart. However, I still have a sense of displeasure with her who is close to the woman confessed her boyfriend. He apologized for the mistake of his friend, maybe he also had a more taste, not just a friend, even though not to status. I wish I could be close to that girl friend.

For a few minutes I sat outside staring at the birds flying there. Blue sky, decorate the top of the sky beautiful gem. Beautiful neighborhood this time. I also looked for selected fiction. Yep! Especially if you do not fill this time.

Cring...

That's not fun! Should we just get here?I still want to enjoy this beautiful tapestry. Scribble away with a pen containing black ink. Come in, and very lazy I'm right behind me still him. Staring at me with those sharp eyes. I just face forward, let him look at me. I don't care this time.

From the look in those eyes I know he feels very guilty right now. Staying with this cold attitude, it is very difficult for me. I can't be like that. Only he can be cold without being concerned about the people around. Huh! Because it's her nature, which is cold.

"This time for 2 groups!" What group? This is called cooperation for me!

"Mother for ya!"

"Seok Moon and Chanteon."

"Teoyeon and See Yoon."

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"Last Zahra and Dwi."

"WHAT?!" We synchronously.

"Why? You guys don't like it?"

"S... I love mom, "Why always be with that cold one.

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At my house, we do it. Without making a sound. I just keep making my own skeleton, exactly this is my own work. He looked at me occasionally, and then just played the pen he was holding. I'm so sick of it. When he helps me, it's the same with me. And he should have opened up a conversation about this task.

"Ra, what do you want to help?" I asked him that shortly after I expected it.

"No need! You've been sitting there!" The word of the man was actually a satire for him.

"Oh, then you're the one doing it, right? I'm going home, it's this afternoon!" What he thought it was, base did not have the slightest attention.

"Yes, go home!"

"I'm home, right?" He left the place slowly.

"Let's not finish, the guy won't help me. You snow doll!" I said slowly.

"So I offered to help, didn't want to" He heard?

"...." - ".I too was embarrassed

Wait to say first, can't he realize that in satirical only? Sensitivity is very less. Am I next like this. Hm... God hasten to complete this task. I'm so tired of all this. And already very fed up with people who are less sensitive. How did he know I had more feelings for him? Ah... I'm not going to plant this back. Pity his friend who has for years harbored the same feelings, but not responded in the slightest by him. I won't be too this time, sure that he's just an ordinary friend. Ok!

From there he continued to attach what he thought to the frame of his story. I can just write it down, and hope it's over soon. There was one skeleton that made me gasp to hear it.

"Look, after that you became my girlfriend. Since you don't want to date, I propose to you immediately, but the wedding is later, afraid that if you don't do this you'll go with the others."

"Surely, because we're not supposed to introduce real religion?"

"Truly!"

"If we were to act like that, surely..." He seems unconscious.

"What-like?"

"Aha, forget it. Continue with our work!" I just blushed.

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Read next! If you already know whose work is the best, after it is dramatized! O Allah not for our only cheap work. Please, this is a work that is really lacking, let alone be made into a real drama later. Still heard they certainly don't want to. It's cooled me down for a second.

When reading in front of what this is, it should be practiced. It's what happened to me. My face is getting red. He also looked timid. This made me even more embarrassed, and stiff in friendship. I don't know what my heart is, it's ticking more and more. And what if it becomes a true drama, it is inconceivable!

Everyone applauded, was this good? I think this is just a lowly story. Unlike the work they all make with their partners. Oops... Meaning, aa... I'm starting to become unconscious. The teacher also announced whose work is the best for this time. And please, don't belong to us! I don't want this on the scene. When I was in the art scene, it was what I was singing about. This time it won't happen, trust me!

"The best work is..." The heart is beating very fast.

"The work of Zahra and Dwi!" All in cheerful cheer.

What are they thinking? I was so weak to hear it, they were like that. It's good to see people suffer! Until, without feeling guilty at all, congratulations anyway. And keep crucifying us both if we get a meaningful victory. Think they I'm happy with everything? I'm not so tired. Let alone being told to memorize every verse of dialogue, make the short story half dead. I can't say that later I can maximize the show. And it's only 1 week how is this. Not to mention thinking about the exam that the next week held. Ouch... Want to break this brain, it seems this time can not re-maximize the value presumably.

The next week.

The heart almost went out. Tawakkal only, the effort has been implemented. Maybe it ends in failure, for sure. I can only give all of this to Him. Still stammering again, already this head is getting dizzy, and limp plus trembling. The hands started to cool, somewhat like undead, stiff and lacking oxygen. I truly do not live today in my own will. My mind was only on the show later maybe this is what he rationally said, I will become the undead.

Very quickly the time goes by, this time the drama will be lacking everything, including with the preparation between us will be started. My eyes began to reveal an incompetence for all. I will maximize it but this is what makes the doubts above average. At least I've apologized to Dwi if something goes wrong even though it's not fatal, I still declare this is the end that is not awaited by me. Mianhae... Wi.

He looks ordinary. He gave me confidence, this was just a normal drama, and if I get too tense that's what I call all my statements today. I looked at that face lethargicly, I looked at his face, ordinary without any problems. It's very different from me being tense. I also said 'Bismillahirahmanirrahim' with that I was not tense once this time.

Enter the beginner, still in peace. This time it was a stressful part. Falling off the bike, which makes this leg and elbow hurt. He peed at the injured elbow. It feels comfortable, not like drama. I also enjoy not tense and stiff back. From there, it looks like that attitude of attention. It was real and made me forget all that scared me. Please like this next. Suddenly...

Prrookk... Prrookk...

The clap of the hand blew it all away. Whatisthis?