I'm Without The Womb

Awaiting

Along the way to the villa, Ralin was incessantly crying. Influenced by Selly's words, Ralin cursed himself as if his marriage to Yaris was a mistake. His new marriage of corn, the marriage he hoped would give him true happiness, should end because he realized that his shortcomings made a family without successors.

It is wrong if he is selfish, accepting Yaris' proposal first, without thinking long, without thinking about the risks that the Yaris family must accept, which at that time Ralin may only think of his happiness. Yes, he wants to be happy. She wanted to be like any other woman, to have a small family, to be a wife, to be a mother even though she could not bear a child. Are they planning on adopting a child?

But somehow Selly's words so stuck in his mind. Adoption children will be adopted children. She did not come from her husband's seed. Given that all of Ralin was getting worse, his cries were getting more and more unwilling. 'Stupid, stupid, you stupid Ralin.'

Repeatedly in her heart she apologized to Yaris, sorry for not being able to be a perfect wife. Can't give him a family successor. He should have realized it a long time ago, before he stepped foot into the pelaminan.

"Sir, please stop at the pharmacy for a moment!" ralin said as he pleased. He tried so hard to stop his crying.

"Yes mba, in front there is a pharmacy really" said the taxi driver online while pulling over the car. "What drugs do you want to buy? Let me get down." Look at Ralin who's still crying maybe the driver feels sorry.

Ralin took a deep breath so that his crying subsided, "thank you sir, please buy me an ulcer medicine." Ralin said as he handed the driver a piece of money. "There's a pulse counter next to the pharmacy, ask me to buy you a disposable cell phone number, sir."

The taxi driver nodded with his head.

Ralin felt uncomfortable in his stomach. Maybe because it has not eaten anything since last afternoon and the influence of stress, ulcer disease feels crumpled.

It was evening when the car Ralin was riding in front of the gate of his family's villa. After paying for the taxi service, Ralin rushed into a place that could hopefully give him a little peace of mind.

Entering the courtyard of the villa, Ralin was greeted by a middle-aged woman who was sweeping the terrace, Mbok Mirah, the guardian of the villa that he already considered family.

"Non Anin!!!"

Ralinpun approached the mbok who immediately took off the broom in his hand.

"Non, why don't you tell me if you want to come?"

Ralin did not answer Mirah's question, he just lowered his head while holding back a cry. Actually he was embarrassed, this is the second time he came to the villa with eyes moist after three years.

"Don't tell anyone Anin is here mbok, including Mamak and Arya's sister. Mbok knows, right?"

As if to know what happened to her master's daughter, Mbok Mirah nodded slowly and immediately embraced Ralin into the villa.

Three years ago, with almost similar conditions, Mbok Mirah also welcomed the teary-eyed Ralin. Every time there was a severe problem he faced, Ralin always went to the villa, without telling anyone. There he pondered and thought while enjoying the natural beauty under the foot of Mount Rinjani and made a decision. He hopes his decision will be good for himself and those around him.

"The room is ready non, Mbok make dinner was reluctant."

"Think need to mbok, Anin asked for water, just want to take medicine, after that Anin want to immediately rest."

"Well, if so, take it first."

After taking the ulcer medicine that he had bought, Ralin stepped foot into the room he used to use if staying overnight. The one-story villa has three rooms. One for Ralin, Arya's room, and one for her parents. The villa was not too big, deliberately designed slick and minimalist because Ralin asked for it, he also asked to make a swimming pool at the back of the villa. What makes Ralin happy, the location of the pool connects it directly with his strawberry garden and the garden owned by local farmers.

Ralin immediately broke down, feeling tired of what he experienced today. He wanted to rest his mind for a moment from the problems he created himself. Maybe because of tired of crying, Ralin fell asleep just like that after his head touched the pillow. He made peace with a dream with a puffy eye that still drains water.

***

At 10:30 p.m

The Yaris plane landed smoothly on the airport runway. A minibus was waiting for him with two men. One employee, another guide who will lead them to the villa that Ralin occupied. The trip will probably take 3 hours, meaning Yaris will arrive at the villa in the middle of the night. To meet Ralin, Yaris did not want to waste any more time by staying at the hotel even though he had booked a room. He wanted to immediately ensure the existence of the wife even though later had to pass through the hills.

'May he really be here.'

Three hours passed, Yaris arrived in front of the villa gerbag which was opened by a middle-aged man. Yaris got out of the car immediately.

"Excuse me sir."

"Well, who is it?"

"I'm Yaris," Yaris introduced himself while shaking the old man's hand.

"Can I help you?"

"I'm here to find Ralin, my wife. Is he inside?"

The old man looked surprised, he looked doubtful of the words from Yaris' mouth. To convince the father, Yaris pulled out his cell phone.

"This is Ralin, my wife." while showing a picture of Ralin and himself who became a wallpapaer on his phone.

The man has not yet opened his voice.

"Then let me call Mama Rani so you can be sure" Yaris said while looking for contact with the in-laws.

Seeing the earnestness on Yaris' face, the man believed

"You're really her husband non Anin?"

"I.iya." Yaris is still confused because it turns out that in villa Ralin is better known as Anin.

"Non Anin is inside, she's sick again, suddenly she's hot. Here I'll find the mantri puskesmas."

Hearing Ralin in a state of pain, worry enveloped Yaris's soul and mind. His face looked riled up as it started to get anxious.

"Let me drive it inside."

The father opened the gate wider so that Yaris and his entourage could enter. After closing the gate again, the father led Yaris into the villa where some of the lights had been extinguished.

"Non Anin is in the room, taken care of by my wife" he explained. The father also opened the door of the room there was Ralin who was asleep with a wet towel on his forehead, next to him sat the faithful mbok Mirah changing the towel to compress Ralin.

Mbok Mirah also stood to see the arrival of her husband with a man she did not know.

"Who is this sir?"

"It's her husband non Anin, she's here cariin Non."

Yaris shook the hand of Mirah but with a view that could not be separated from Ralin.

"I'm Mbok Mirah, this is my husband, Diman. We guard the villa of the non-Anin family" explained mbok Mirah.

Yaris responded with just a nod of his head.

"Ralin's...My wife Anin why?" ask Yaris a little stammering.

"So afternoon was fine, but by evening, when I woke up for dinner, it was hot. Last afternoon right up to here have not eaten anything, just take this medicine." mbok Mirah showed the ulcer medicine taken by Ralin.

Yaris also understood that Ralin's heartburn relapsed.

"Then we excuse you first, I find a mantri so that non Anin is examined" said Mr. Diman.

"No need sir, I'm just taking a break! Ralin let me take care of you."

The couple looked at each other at Yaris' orders.

"Ga anything, Anin let me take care, do not need to call mantri, mbok same kake rest!"

The couple nodded their heads.

"Master want to eat first?" mbok Mirah.

"No, I've eaten, if I may ask for coffee."

The couple left Ralin's room.

A few minutes later Mirah came with a cup of black coffee.

"Thank you mbok."

"Sama-sama Sir, do not hesitate. We live next door. If there's anything call me!"

Mbok Mirah left Yaris who was endlessly staring at the weakly asleep Ralin. Yaris took a sitting position beside Ralin and held his wife's hand which still felt warm.

With painstakingly Yaris rubbed the temple of Ralin who continued to sweat coldly, occasionally he waited for a wet towel that compresses Ralin's forehead.

Several times Ralin's forehead shriveled and deliriously called out his name and several times also said 'sorry' with his faithful eyes closed.

Now Yaris could feel how much mental burden his wife felt. Reyhan was right, Ralin desperately needed his support. Once enough of this, he promised himself that the incident that his wife experienced should not be repeated again.

'Didn't you ever tell me you can't go back to Lombok alone, why is it still stubborn, even if you run to the end of the world I will find you, please get well!'

When Yaris finished replacing the Ralin compress, his phone vibrated bringing up a call.

"Tumben, what are the gini nights?"

Yarispun shifted the green sign to receive the call.

"Hallo, brother Ren, what's the night-night gini?"

"Ralin there, rest again, say hello to call the morning blind."

"Udah said no sister can not wait so belain calling now, fortunately you want to lift."

"What's wrong?"

"Gini Ris, ...."

***

The time shows at 04:30, Yaris is still faithfully taking care of Ralin who has not been aware of his sleep. Despite being attacked by severe drowsiness several times, Yaris did not want to fall asleep. He wanted to be the first person Ralin saw after opening his eyes. Fortunately, Ralin's body temperature returned to normal.

Shortly thereafter, Ralin began to wake up. He felt his hands in someone's hands. Yaris smiled in relief, kissed the back of Ralin's hand and placed it on his left cheek.

Ralin wanted to let go of Yaris' hand but Yaris further tightened his grip.

"Is it better?"

Ralin nodded slowly. His eyes were watering again without asking. Now the guilt is squeezing his chest.

"Where do you know I'm here?" ralin asked in a weak voice, and to divert his tightness.

"You want to run until the hole antpun I'll look for, I once said can't be far from you, you forget?"

Ralin's tears began to flow more and more, Selly's words reverberated in his ears.

"Sorry."

Without Ralin even revealing Yaris knew what his wife was thinking. He now moved to sleep next to Ralin, pulled the body of the wife into his arms. Ralin drowned his head in the chest of the Yaris field with his crying voice.

"He's got a point, am I evil?"

"Him? She who? Who's the bad guy?"

"I was wrong to accept your proposal."

"Do you like to hear people talk?"

"You can have the perfect woman."

"Who seeks perfection? No one deserves that word."

"Mas, I'm serious."

"Wedding ain't that joking."

Ralin was silent, then realized his mistake. What he did greatly underestimated the bond of their relationship.

"The name I call the time of the ijab qabul is Ralin Aninta Wahyu, not Selly or any other woman's name. Whatever her flaws and advantages, her vices and her kindness I accepted her unconditionally, and after that promise there would be no other woman, no separation other than death."

"Whatever you hear from Selly has no effect on me. I hope you are too. Your job is just to stand by me. Forever. Like these. And don't go again, honey!"

Hearing Yaris words, Ralin's feelings began to calm down and his heart warmed.

"Sorry."

"Sshht, you've apologized too often, as long as you sleep you've apologized more than twenty times."

"Kok know I'm sorry to sleep, did Mas not sleep?" ralin asked while raising his head.

Yarispun. "I dare not sleep, afraid you go again when I do not realize, so now change, I sleep you are guard!"

Ralin chuckled at Yaris' reply, but he also nodded as he watched Yaris's face twitch and my eyes.

"You're missing a few hours successfully make me messed up. I don't know what it would be like if I couldn't find you."

"When did you get here?"

"Midnight yesterday, fortunately to meet Mr. Diman in front, he wants to nyariin you mantri."

The atmosphere that had been stiff, now began to melt. Ralin realized that they needed each other. This man who became her husband turned out to be very extraordinary, having a heart of money so wide.

"Oooh, see the spell?"

"I said no, you're sick and the cure must be me."

"Hm ge er."

"You don't have to argue, there's a lot of evidence!" Yaris.

They both finally laughed. Ralin could not deny indeed every time he was sick, Yaris must have been by his side.

"Yes, I've been sleeping, I want to compress this eye, like it's really swollen."

"Ga nahlsh, so justin, I look at it, you're like a local Chinese."

"Wicked, I'm talking about you."

"Well, that's why I told you I'd look at it."

"Yariii!!!"

"O, I almost forgot, I wanted to say something, but I promise you can't scream!"

"It depends, what do you want to say?"

"Promise not to scream, don't be surprised!"

"Yes, what's that?" Ralin was getting curious.

"Four months we'll have kids."

Ralin almost pecked, his eyes looking for the truth in Yaris' eyes because he did not believe what he heard, his mouth was still gaping, fortunately not too wide. What does it mean in four months they will have children while she is not pregnant.

And yes, Ralin found no evidence that Yaris was just ticking him.

Yaris only smiled seeing the reaction of the wife.

"What did you say just now?" ask her with a tense face.

Yaris then framed Ralin's face with both hands.

"Four months, you'll be carrying our son." Ralin went back silent, he did not know what to say.

Ralin immediately hugged Yaris, wanting to make sure what he heard wasn't nonsense and he was afraid Yaris was just messing around. Yarispunn returned Ralin's embrace even tighter.

"Sir Renata last night called, he was going to tell you straight away but you're still sleeping. She's pregnant again, yesterday the fifth month's ultrasound was just discovered twins."

Ralin immediately let go of his embrace and looked at Yaris face.

"Keep!"

"She's telling us to adopt one of her twins, you want to?"

Ralin nodded quickly, he hugged Yaris again. The feeling of haru and happy compact attacked his heart accompanied by crying that came out without him pinta.

"But we're far away from getting him to Palembang."

"I have no problem even if I have to go to Papua" replied Ralin who was still filled with pleasure.

"So we're off to Aceh."

Yaris started prank.

"Ga problem."

"England is not so."

"Ga nothing."

"Know it?"

"Jahilin just keep going, mumpungku seneng, I won't be angry."