I'm Without The Womb

Injured Again

Fifteen days had passed after the death of his father, Ralin had already returned to Bandung. Ralin stayed nine days in Lombok until his father's ninth day was completed. The next day, Ralin asked Yaris to take him home to Bandung so as not to continue to dissolve in sadness if he saw the father's belongings in his house. She also realized her husband had to work, although Yaris allowed her to stay longer at his house.

The fact that he is far from his hometown, Ralin still cries if he remembers the memories of his father when he was alive. Once upon a time Ralin wanted to buy a motorcycle matic like the belongings of his college friends. But the father did not want to buy it and was calmer if Ralin just drove the car. Safer according to my father. The stubborn Ralin went on hunger strike and went to college until Tamrin finally let go and bought him the motorbike he wanted.

When recalling the incident regret struck his heart. Maybe because he did not want to hear the words of his parents, finally the motorbike was also the one that made him have an accident with Mr. Sa'id, who became his father-in-law now.

Just like the day before, every morning before, Ralin was still reluctant to get out of bed. The activities that he used to routinely do have never again been done on his return from Lombok. Ralin spent more time in bed, Yaris also understood if the wife was still in the thicket of grief. He sometimes takes over the house chores that Ralin usually does such as washing clothes or making breakfast for them. For lunch and dinner sometimes mama Ayu who deliver food to the apartment Yaris, sometimes Yaris also buy it on the way home from work.

"I made this sandwich, we have breakfast!"

Yaris takes Ralin to the dining table on which there are two dishes containing a sandwich made by Yaris and two glasses of Ralin's favorite chocolate milk.

"Where, how good?" ask Yaris enthusiastically.

Ralin quickly nodded with a smile, "Enak", she said praising the husband's food.

'Finally the smile came out. The smile I missed, Yaris muttered inwardly.

Yaris could not deny, he missed the once fussy Ralin scolding him if he did not finish breakfast, angry if he threw a wet towel over the bed, and he threw a wet towel on the bed, angry if Yaris berahililannya with jokes dimeh he made. He hoped that the grief felt by his wife would quickly pass.

"I'll be at your office later in the day, will we have lunch outside, will you?" ralin asked suddenly.

Yaris was surprised. Because during this week, Ralin always refused if Yaris asked him out just a walk or eat at Ralin's favorite restaurant. Hurriedly Yaris nodded his head.

"Yes, are you coming to the office?!"

"Yes." Yeah." Ralin smiled back. Actually he felt guilty to Yaris because during the mourning period he could not serve Yaris well. In addition, there is a will from the late Father who asked if they want to adopt children, should adopt children from the family, whether from the side of Ralin or Yaris, family far or near, the important thing is that there is still a family blood bond so that later explained his staff.

Wal proceeds they must bury the adoption intention for a while because of the family of Ralin or Yaris no one has yet conceived or given them adopted children.

Yaris responded casually. His father-in-law's will has a point, too. After all, he prefers his current condition which can still be dating after marriage. Both with my wife. But different for Ralin, he was eager to hold a small child, eager to adopt one child from the orphanage where he volunteered.

That morning Ralin tried to fight the sadness that made him lazy to do something. After breakfast, he prepares Yaris' needs for the office, preparing the clothes, shoes, and briefcase that Yaris usually carries. Do not forget the tie matching the color of the shirt that completes the appearance of the husband. Ralin did it with pleasure. He was determined, today he will try to be more cheerful, relieve his sadness, he realized it was not good for him to continue to mourn the departure of the father.

"Let's have lunch together!" Yaris reminded me, I know that Ralin forgot.

"Yes." Yeah."

"Don't forget it!" he said again while putting on his shoes. Yaris was very pleased with Ralin's change today.

"Yes, I forgot."

"You're this abis aja, do not sleep, ntar overslept, can cancel dong lunch."

"Oh my goodness, yes I will not forget, will not sleep, will not deny, really."

"I'm so sad you're not sad anymore, see you're cloudy for days make me soaked you know," said Yaris while hugging Ralin's waist, spoiled.

"Getting on, what the hell is cloudy, soaking wet, already on the way!" Ralin wanted to stop the conversation, if he ledeni could continue Yaris canceled office. Modus bias.

"But I'm still missing."

"Ga exists. Ga road?! Or we'll cancel lunch."

"Yes yes, I walk this way." After kissing Ralin's forehead, Yaris stepped towards the door, but a second later he turned again towards Ralin

"O yeah forget, it's not yet."

Yaris kissed the wife's cheek, then stepped again towards the door, and a second later turned again towards Ralin and

"Forgot, it hasn't"

"What else?"

Yaris kissed a glimpse of Ralin's lips, making Ralin blush.

Yaris' smile expanded, feeling his wife begin to forget his sadness.

Actually Ralin was upset with the husband's installment behavior, but no doubt it made him laugh even though still with his eyes moist.

"Goodbye, laugh again, I'm on my way."

Without him knowing, Ralin's cheeks met red, not expecting if his laughter made Yaris happy. Just because of that little thing their household felt warm and happy.

***

Dddrrr...

The vibration of Ralin's phone on the dresser made him stop doing his ritual after a shower. The name Mega is on the screen.

"Yes, why?"

"Lin how are you?"

"Why answer, but today I can smile and mutusin lunch outside the same Yaris. Does that mean I'm okay?"

"Hhuuuffft gratefully, that means you're close to normal."

"What was normal yesterday?" Ralin started to sniff.

"Now it's normal even, you talk ketus, the tone is back, I bow down first thanks." sloroh Mega.

Ralin and Mega's laughter broke instantly. Mega can breathe a sigh of relief, her best friend has passed her mourning period. Passing the phase of crying, reluctant to eat, lazy motion, minimal smile and various other mourning modes.

"Makasi ya Ega, you've helped me a lot."

"Not me Lin time, Yaris that is nonstop worryin lo, ask this it's my ama, it's all macem about things that can make your mood good. I relax, he's the one who's bothered."

"What time?"

"Yes that. How do you know. Apalagai pas lo fainted many times, worried about not being stooped, briefly nyari me, it's me lo state, it's complicated anyway husband lo tu."

Without feeling the crystal flow through Ralin's smooth face, feeling moved to hear Mega's story, not expecting Yaris very worried about his condition.

"Yes, I want to get ready first."

"OK, ma'am boss. The shop has nothing to worry about. I'm so happy for Yaris, ok!"

"Yes, thank you Ega."

"Anytime beb, by the way."

***

How lucky he is, can be loved by a Yaris Mawwali Sa'id, a young businessman who is now on the rise. Several times Yaris was asked for exclusive interviews with famous business magazines and of course his face became the cover of the magazine. But Yaris did not carelessly accept the interview request, he wanted in the interview as long as he was not asked about his personal life.

Ralin entered the office building with a feeling of flowering, his stomach was filled with butterflies, just like a person who had just fallen in love and indeed that was what Ralin felt. She fell in love with her husband again.

Only a few employees passed by him, probably because it was rush hour. Until he finally arrived in front of Yaris' room.

"Good morning, Mom."

"For Mira, do not call mother dong, call Mba aja well, still young because!"

"Eh, yes ma'am, I mean Mba. Want to go find Dad?"

"Hmmm, don't tell me I'm coming, it's a surprise!" ralin whispered.

"Ooo." Mira understood and raised her thumb at Ralin. But you're still in the meeting room, Mba."

"Ga nothing, it's even good, I want to find a place to hide first, lget ya don't leak!"

"Sip mba, please!"

Ralin immediately entered her husband's room.

In a room that was quite spacious, not much furniture filled it. Her husband's work desk, sofa, display cabinet containing books, trophies and charters that once received Yaris and Yaris' own company, and an art form of curvature shaped human body with a silver-headed robot. I don't know what that means.

Ralin approached her husband's desk. There are two picture frames that attract his attention, a photo of him wearing a wedding dress, and a family photo at their wedding. I don't know when Yaris will set it up. Ralin smiled happily, everything she knew about Yaris today made her love grow bigger for Yaris.

Almost forgetting, Ralin was looking for the right position for him to hide in. He will come out as soon as Yaris enters his room.

Ralin slipped his body between the wall and the display cabinet that was next to the Yaris desk.His tiny body made it easy to enter the narrow gap, which was quite narrow, not to forget he covered the front with a robot-headed human mannequin, so he was completely invisible if not careful.

Five minutes after he hid the sound of the door of Yaris' room was heard in the open. Ralin thought it must be Yaris. But wait, there are two steps of people entering the room, the inner Ralin.

"What else do you want, wasn't it clear what we were talking about at the restaurant the other day?" yaris Voice.

Prak

The sound of something being thrown on the table.

"This is the result of my investigation of your wife."

'That voice...'

"Whether you investigate my wife, lack of work, your daddy's office is deserted, huh?"

"I'm a prankster, there's nothing interesting about your wife, she's too ordinary for you."

'Selly, that's Selly's voice.'

"Unless one thing interested me, very interested, Yaris darling."

Fucking spoiled voice

"What do you mean?"

"Of all that stuff about your wife, what's interesting is that she can't give you kids, can she? I know you know that. You can't be careless until you know the problem, but why?"

"Let me still be polite you should leave, you know where the exit is!"

"Chill Yaris! I just want to talk, we haven't talked about four eyes like this."

"I don't have time to talk nonsense with you."

"It's not nonsense, come on, what do you expect from your barren wife. Until the apocalypse you will have no children. No matter how advanced the technology is now. You want to have a successor later? Unfortunately the company and the wealth of your family no one inherits. The Mawwali gene breed stopped until you? What does the world say, baby?"

"Listen this all right, first he's barren, second about my successor, you don't bother thinking, now get out!"

"I'm not done yet baby, I also want to say I'm willing to be your second wife, give birth to your children who will be the successors of your family, or you want to divorce her, he said, that's even better. I can wait till any time."

"Don't dream of you!"

"You have to think about this, we'll both be won, you can be heirs, I can develop daddy company, we cooperate."

"ISEL!!! I said get out!"

"If your wife is sane, she shouldn't take it when you apply for her, you should realize she's not a good woman, she can't give you a son, Yaris!"

Yaris' anger was inevitable, as Selly's arm forcibly pulled towards the door.

"Never show up in front of me, or your daddy company wants me to go broke, remember that!"

Mira who watched Selly being pushed out became confused, what was really going on inside. What about the boss' wife?

***

Ralin who heard the whole conversation just stared, holding back the sound of his crying so as not to come out by smothering his mouth. The words Selly spoke kept spinning in her head. He should have gotten angry and hit Selly while talking about it, but somehow he just confirmed everything Selly said. One hundred percent of Selly was right about her, she was not a good woman who accepted Yaris when proposing to her, when clearly she could not give any offspring.

Ralin was at war with his mind. What's he gonna do now? Can he face the world? Ralin said he shouldn't be Yaris' companion. 'He's going. It should be that. Long time ago. Why is he only now aware of it?

Ralin who was still in hiding could not see what Yaris was doing right now, he did not dare to come out even as deep as a peek at Yaris who sounded snapping the file on his desk.

'Is it possible that Yaris now also realized that marrying me was a mistake? maybe he's angry now, but surely he won't show me for feeling bad, maybe he actually wants to part with me, but I'm not ready. Oh my God, what am I supposed to do? I will not be strong if Yaris asks us to part later, I will leave before Yaris says those words.'

Ralin's tears continued to flow, he cried without a sound, with all his strength he held back from falling because now his whole body was shaking.

There was a sound of Yaris walking towards the door somewhere and plaques.

The sound of the door closing violently indicates that Yaris is indeed angry, further strengthening Ralin to leave Yaris, because he could not bear to hear her husband say goodbye.

Feeling that Yaris was no longer in his room, Ralin immediately came out of hiding. He waited two minutes before leaving Yaris' room, making sure not to meet Yaris later outside.

Ralin who was still in tears immediately ran from the room. While wiping her eyes she headed for the elevator and wanted to get out of the building that belonged to her husband.

Mira who watched the three people who came out from inside the boss room was confused. What stunned him the most was seeing the boss' wife come out crying.

How'this?