I'm the Abuser

Boby's Grief

The next three days are a stressful day for the Boby family. Tony is not improving either. They continue to suffer setbacks. Clara and Boby no longer sleep at home. I went to the hospital with Dito and Santi. The wisdom of Boby's suspension was that he could wait for Tono all day. Clara followed when she was done with college and work.

At 10 p.m., the Tono family was called. Boby, Dito and Santi come in. Clara's waiting outside. The three men returned with puffy eyes.

"Papa's heart stopped beating. The doctor told us to sign a statement agreeing to take medical action. Now it's ticking again.I'm afraid Poc. Shivering cold. The weather is not that cool. Clara hugged Boby. Holding Boby's body in his arms. 

Morning comes. There was no change from Tony. Clara left for college lazily. If there was not one last test he chose to accompany Boby. After the test was over, Clara saw her phone.

'Papa's gone Poc, ' Boby's short message made Clara's blood rustle. Call Boby right away.

"Where is his brother?" clara asked while crying.

"Home, Papa has come home" Boby said in a trembling tone. Clara could not continue the conversation. Cuss headed for the parking lot. Because Clara rushed to hit Rama, making some documents that Rama brought flying.

"Sorry Brother, I'm so sorry" said Clara passed. It doesn't matter if it's considered rude. Let Rama pick up the paper himself.

Rama looked up for a moment. Seeing Clara up close made her heart ache again. Ah, why hasn't her love for Clara been extinguished as well???

Clara arrives at Boby's house. See rows of white chairs and chests. Boby came crashing into his body while shaking. Boby's cry broke out in Clara's arms. Boby was silent. Without expression without words. Santi saw everything. His heart collapsed as Boby cried.

"My father went Poc…. My dad's gone..," Boby said heartwarmingly. Clara could not say. Can only pat Boby on the back with a pity.

Revan and his team came to the service. Also Mr. Sidiq. Boby wiped his tears. Hugged one of his friends. Revan was silent while hugging the old Boby. They long ago shed in tears.

"It feels sad.it will never be the same, it will never be the same" Revan said. I don't know why fate brought them like this. It is the same as losing someone they care about in the near future. 

The funeral took place that day. Boby was sitting next to Tono's grave.

“Come home Brother,” take Clara. It's late afternoon. The clouds are already hanging in the sky. Ready to pour out the water. Boby was silent. It was like hearing nothing. Clara kept him company. The rain drops with a rush. Boby leads Clara out of the cemetery. Covering Pocik's head with his hands. I hope the rain doesn't wet her body. They're until the car's soaked. Dito, Santi, and Jesi were also wet. The family left Tono alone. Fall asleep in peace…

***

Tono's three-day event tonight. Boby got a notice that his code of conduct hearing was postponed until next week. Because of Boby's mourning. 

"Sister, let's take a shower. I'm done," cried Clara. Boby moved without much noise. They're ready to go. Sweet Clara with her robe and veil. 

"You are beautiful Poc" said Boby, caressing his wife's cheek.

"I am the most beautiful woman in the world" said Clara Pede. Boby smile. The smile that Clara missed.

"You're pretty Poc" Boby repeated as they were both in the car. Clara looked at Boby really.

"It's up to you, but you're beautiful with that hijab" replied Boby.

Boby followed all of his papa's memorial processions. Dito asked to talk for a while as they were going back home. As usual, I talked about cost.

"Sell what you can sell. I don't have anything either" Boby said.

"How many accounts number are you? I still have a little bit of money" said Clara, who is the financial holder of the Boby family. It was with pleasure that Dito mentioned his account.

"Could we join together to commemorate Papa's impeachment (death memorial)?" ask Dito. Clara agreed to do it. Then go back to their homes. 

Who would have thought on the porch of their house there was Pak Sidiq and a fat man with sharp eyes.

"Briptu Boby, we want to talk for a minute" said Mr. Sidiq. The three men left Clara. Walk somewhere. Clara was really curious, but could not do what. It must be related to Boby's work. Clara wanted the best for her husband.

Boby came home with his face bent. Mr. Sidiq and the man were gone.

"Big brother why?" clara asked, getting curious. Boby hugged Clara for a moment. Kissing the top of his wife's head. 

"I told you in the room. I want to change clothes first" replied Boby.

The couple lay comfortably. As usual, Boby nyungsep on Clara's chest.

"The guy from BIN. Offered me to join there," Boby told me about his meeting. BIN is a State Intelligence Agency that is very secretive of its duties. The graduation was kept secret. With a lot of special training and equipped with high espionage science.

"They're looking for someone like me. He said I got into their initial criteria. This is also the way Mr. Sidiq and Revan have kept me from being sanctioned" Boby said.

"Just do what they want. As long as you avoid sanctions," said Clara eagerly. The woman did not fully understand the world of BIN. Boby smile.

"Are you ready to disappear with me?" ask Boby to Clara.

"Disappeared?" ask Clara wonder. Boby told me about the world of espionage. He will have many masks to do his job. A task that can be long. It's not a surveillance disguise like he used to do. They may not come home often either. Deleting all the data about her and Clara of course. 

"Maybe I got fired from the police. Then get a new identity as a civilian. Since I already have you, then you are also affected. You will leave Bhayangkari. Your data is also erased if you're married to a cop. We may not live in this city. Disappear from people who already know us" explained Boby at length. Clara's a little creepy. What's it like living like that?

"We're going to live as unknown and nothing people" Boby said. Clara is getting creepy again. 

"I was given three days to think. After that if I accept, then I will be in the STIN dormitory. Probably about four years. It's also a quick way to move up the ranks. Let's just say I got a promotion. If I were still the cop I am today, I would need at least 9 more years to become an officer. It has to be school again, it has to be college again. At BIN I can become an officer by taking 4 years. Well, even if later not a police officer…. Just equal to the officers. BIN people will be listed as civilians" Boby said. The two men took a deep breath.

"Accept, but had to part ways long ago…. Or it could be sanctions" Clara concluded. Boby nodded while smiling wryly.