I'm the Abuser

Explanation of Tama

Clara tried to be reasonable. He still casually eats chicken noodles even though his throat is choked. Plongak Leni looks shocked.

"Already Ma'am, don't gossip the most influential people in this village. Later we will also be expelled," said the mother's son reminded. The mother asks Clara and Leni to keep the secret. The two girls took him in.

They were only a short while in that stall. The chicken noodles they ordered no one could afford to spend.

"Let's just go home, Len," Clara asked. Downplays his intention to serve. The girl was able to endure her surprised expression and tears inside the stall. Not outside the shop. Her tears were leaking profusely. Leni hurriedly runs her motorbike away from the stall. Before the shop owner's mother realizes Clara's tears.

Leni stopped her motorbike at the edge of a rather quiet road. He was concerned about what his friend was going through.

"Aren't you papa Ra? Can I get you a drink to calm down a little?" leni asked as Clara continued to cry as she pleased. The girl shook her head. 

"I'm good, please keep this fact a secret. Let me finish" Clara told Leni. Their eyes met for a moment.

"OK, if that's what you want. I'll keep my mouth shut very closely" Leni said confidently. Clara tried to smile.

"Thank you Len" said Clara.

***

Until the house turns out Clara's parents also just arrived home. They set it up at brother's place. It means that all his brothers already know about his marriage to Tama. The girl can only breathe out rough….. The possibility of canceling this marriage is getting smaller. He couldn't possibly put his parents to shame..... But is he really capable?

His phone also reads. Message from Mbak Galih and Mbak Diah. They sent me some photos of the kebaya akad that matched Clara's body. Everyone is busy preparing for this wedding. Can he cancel it??? I obviously lied to him. That man is not a nice guy who looks like him. He has a child out of wedlock. And ask her son to come home with Clara later? Ha…. It's laughable. I don't know…. Clara is confused. Obviously he has to talk to Tama first, but tomorrow he's off course. Tomorrow is a long weekend for everyone. Red date on friday. It means Friday, Saturday, Sunday he's off course.

***

Clara has taken a shower. She saw her mother watching a talk show.

"Let's change ma'am, eat dinner," whined Clara.

"But, this is my mother's favorite old singer again being interviewed," Mother replied as she hugged the remote.

"Heisss," Clara could only hiss and sneer. He got late on that talk show.

The talk show discusses the artist who is harmonious despite having children continued from her husband.

"If the money is good. Don't take care of your child if you don't want to. Hiring a baby sitter takes care of the child's affairs. Try to tell momong yourself. Your own child is dizzy, especially the children of others. Money makes it easy to not be happy if there is money can make a smile. Well…. Although not all can be made of art," said Mother commented. Clara smiled wryly. He remembered his own problem. Is correct…. Even Tama said that she hired a baby sitter for Daus later.

"Tama is also a rich man Nduk, mother is grateful for that. You do not need to worry about not having rice at the beginning of marriage or a lot of debt after marriage. He's a good boy too. May this marriage bring good to you," said Mother so a little melow. Clara can only have mangosteen. For him there is no chance to retreat with a party held about a month away.

"Hi" Tama said as she picked up Clara that morning. Clara smiled and got in the car. Today they plan to find offerings and some other marriage prints. Clara searches for him uninspiredly, and Tama realizes Clara's change in attitude.

“This time can we talk Mas?” ask Clara. Tama nodded.

Here they are. A fishing themed fish restaurant that is quite famous in the area here.

“What message Is It?” ask Tama while looking at the menu list.

“I want chocolate ice cream that size jumbo,” said Clara then closed the food menu. Directly recorded by the waiters who were waiting for them.

“Feed?” tanya Tama wonder. Clara just shook her head.

“I ordered two servings of rice and grilled gurame and two iced sweet tea Mas,” Tama said. 

“You should eat the. This is past lunch hour, you know.” continued Tama. Clara just smiled. Waiting for the wautres to go away.

“You have a child? Is Daus your son?” ask Clara to the point. Tama's surprised expression could not be hidden. 

“You know where?” is from ask Tama.

“Important, I want your explanation to be honest,” Clara said fixedly looking at Tama. The one who looked down breathed deeply.

“Okay, I'd like to be honest. Listen to my story until it's over,” said Tama started the story.

Tama and Citra are lovers since the days of Junior High. Their closeness occurred because Citra's mother worked as a housekeeper in Tama's house.

“But of course our love story was opposed by my family. Father said why you should date babu's son. I know it was very painful for Citra and her mother. There is nothing wrong with our love. The image of that sweet girl,” Tama's story while her gaze was fixed on the fish pond below them. He seemed to be sucked in his own daydream. Clara silently listened. His side of his heart was so painful and painful. Tama obviously still loves Citra.

“I was still in a relationship with Citra when I was in college in town. Citra graduated SMP and worked as a freelance day laborer in a cake factory. We often met even though silent,” recalls Tama. She smiled to herself remembering the sweet moment of her relationship with Citra. First love is hard to forget, especially with a backstreet relationship. It feels more thrilling and challenging.

“Then?” clara asked because Tama was long silent. Drowning in his daydream. The man slightly flinched and turned his head towards Clara.

“Then our relationship was discovered by my Father. I had just graduated from college. Directly registered to Japan. I was dumped out of the country to be away from Citra,” Tama said. Jaw hardens. In fact, his relationship with his father was always not harmonious.

“Four years still does not change my feelings on Citra. But I came home disappointed. Citra is married to an unemployed man from the next village,” Tama said with a long sigh. 

Tama saw Citra being wasted by her husband. The morning of the day after Tama returned from Japan, Tama saw for herself the image of her husband being beaten in front of her eyes. Tama's blood was boiling, the woman who had always fulfilled her dreams and was in fact persecuted as such. With Tama's encouragement, Citra dared to sue her husband. They separate.

“And the fire of love that once had shrunk between us back smoldering. The fight with my father continued. I was reckless that time. I impregnated Citra in order to get the blessing to marry her,” Tama's story. 

Seriate....