I'm the Abuser

Clara and Citra

Until night Tama kept avoiding seeing Clara. By the time the girl had even gone out of the room and helped with the preparation of the crackers in the kitchen. 

"Here Ra, I want to torture you and sleep together" said Nina. Clara just smiled.

"I help you pray, Ma'am, I'm a good boy if my prayers must be heard" replied Clara sok yes.

"Delicious style," 

"Here Ra help Mom," said Mbah Narti calling Clara closer. Her mother-in-law was peeling seasoning tomorrow would be used. Clara approached Mbah Marni. Both of them sat in the bale bale corner of the kitchen.

"Mother is sorry for Tama's behavior today" Mbah Narti said softly. After a while Clara sat down to help.

"Mom knows you're hurt. I understand your feelings. Forgive Tama, though you may nag her. Fight for Ra's heart. You are a legitimate wife who deserves her affection. I bless you completely as his wife" Mbah Narti said as he stroked Clara's arm. Making the girl shed tears profusely.

"I'm sorry Ra, I made you cry rich gini," said Mbah Narti.

"Clara didn't cry because it was Mom, it's the nuts on the bottom" said Clara, pointing to a basin of onions she had peeled. Mbah Narti could not bear to laugh.

"That's a damn thing, ma'am, tell me to peel the onions," said Clara, grumbling a grunt made. Makes Mbah Narti laugh even more.

"Na, Nina, you can make her a persecuted ghost" said Mbah Narti, laughing. They laugh together too. Make their work easier. Also Clara's tears are back in disguise. Even though on the chest they are the same know the girl is just being tough.

Night crawled up. Get ready to sleep on the living room couch. Tuck the chair cushion on his head. He's still afraid to meet Clara.

"You coward Tam, you were a coward!" nina sebal said. Tama breathed a rough breath. From this afternoon Nina was the one who nagged him the longest.

"I'm sleepy Ma'am. I was tired, too" said Tama, turning her back to Nina.

"At least go to your wife. Apologize properly. Not even dodging like this!!!" nina's voice hardened her irritated crotch. Make her husband call Nina so there is no commotion at the night house. Tama hunchback. Still staring with his sleeping position facing the back of the sofa.

Several times I woke up. And stared uneasily at the door of his own room that was closed. Clara had already entered the room. Huh…. Ja. That's right Nina said…. He's coward. Tama got up to her room. At least he'll be able to scold slowly or throw a pillow. But he can improve his relationship with Clara.

Enter the room with heart. Seeing Clara was sound on the bed. Tama tried to sit on the edge of the bed. Gently caressing Clara's head. There was no response. Clara remained sound in her sleep.

"Ma, Papa apologize yes," whispered Tama slowly. There was still no response even though Tama believed Clara's eyes were moving even though they were still closed. Tama slept while hugging Clara. Smell Clara's hair a lot. Inhaling the aroma of shampoo Tama likes.

"I'm sorry, honey. Excuse me…. I will keep my promise to love you. Sorry, I just can't bear to see Citra grieving," whispered Tama as she slightly kissed Clara's nape. The girl is still silent. Although his body shakes great. It felt very lazy to open your eyes and respond to Tama. His heart went numb. Bodo Lah's…. They are as asleep as hugging.

Morning comes. Tama's house was already in the morning. The bill for the anniversary of Father's death. The goat is ready to be slaughtered. The kitchen was smoking. Signs of cooking have begun.

Unfortunately, Daus did not want to escape from Clara. Makes the girl a hassle herself. The boy kept asking to play. Maybe he misses his coworker friend who was busy with his Papa.

"Yes, take Daus to play Ra. Just play outside" said Mbah Narti, watching his grandson continue to riot in the kitchen.

Clara and Sus Wiwik headed to the front page. With Nina's son, they play. Until Clara's eyes saw Citra watching Daus behind the window of her house. Clara's heart was filled even though it was still bitter. After all, Daus is Citra's son, right? With a heavy heart Clara waved at Citra. The image came out of his house while pointing at his own nose. Clara nodded quickly. Citra immediately ran towards the courtyard of Tama's house. Then hugged Daus in his carrier. I kissed the little man while shedding tears.

"The mother's son is already big, the mother's son.." muttered Citra while still kissing Daus the little man was also silent. As if knowing the woman who hugged it was the mother who gave birth to it. Fortunately the atmosphere was quiet. The rides are centered on the backyard of Tama's house.

"Bo... Can I take Daus home for a while Mmbak? I want to introduce Daus to Masnya," Citra said expectantly. Sus Wiwik shook his head reminding Clara. Allowing the image to come closer is already at risk. Especially bringing Daus to Citra's house. Sus Wiwik knows how fierce the two families debate used to be. When Daus was born. Tama's family threw a pile of money then took Daus with Citra's agreement and his family should not approach. The Citra family was so scared. They are following the threat of the powerful Tama family in this village.

Clara nodded with wet eyes.

"Mom, later scolded by Mas Tama's family," Sus Wiwik reminded. Clara knows the relationship between two families is certainly not good.

"They're shady, nobody knows. Just for a moment and we're coming" Clara said. 

The next incident really contains onions. The image quickly brought Daus to his house. Introducing Ferdi his first child. The two Citra sisters cried during this meeting. Not expecting Tama's wife to allow Daus to meet her mother's family. 

"Thank you Ma'am, thank you very much" Citra said. Clara nodded while accepting Daus. The boy immediately cried loudly. Reaching the body of image again. 

"Bring Daus away, before his cries let everyone know," Clara told Sus Wiwik. Who immediately ran towards the courtyard of Tama's house carrying Daus.

"You can meet Daus at our home. It feels like Daus also has to know his birth mother," said Clara while calling the address of Tama's Japanese home. The image records the address of the house carefully.

"Remember, do it with silence from this family," Clara said. Imagra.

"Thank you Ma'am, thank you very much" Citra said. Clara turned around to leave Citra's courtyard.

"Sorry for yesterday" Citra said. Clara froze in place. This time he was sure of his talk about Tama. Clara refused to respond. I will step again without turning.

"I…. I'll forget Tama Ma'am. I'm happy for your marriage" Citra said. What was said so solemnly even though his heart was sliced bitterly. He was determined to reject Tama after this. Tama's wife proved a good woman. Also a good mother to Daus. The image will bury his love….

Meanwhile Clara silently did not respond. Keep walking towards the courtyard of Tama's house. Big house in the village. In contrast to the Citra house is very very simple. Breathe out violently. Regulates the rhythm of his irregularly beating heart. Clara knew Citra's words had just been spoken with grief. Citra also still loves Tama very much. He feels a barrier to the love of others. Haaa…. I don't know…..