I'm the Abuser

Tama and Citra

“Citra,” Tama said as she looked at the woman standing on the verge of her home. Clara turned to look at Tama. Seeing her Husband amazed by the image in his home. Even Clara still sees the twinkle of Tama's love. A look Tama never addressed to him. Like a wound plus orange juice. Clara's heart ached for a moment.

“Sorry, I told you to come here Ma'am, but your phone is off. Sister Wiwik has also contacted you and Tama, but your compact phone is not active. Be I meet Daus without your permission,” Citra explanation somehow looks annoying in Clara's ears. The girl just kept quiet. Staring at the henchmen Daus in Citra's decapitation. Usually, the boy immediately whined for a sling when Clara came home. 

“Gak papa, enjoy your time Ma'am,” said Clara soon passed into his room.

"I want to go home now Ma'am," Citra said before Clara reached the room. Clara just held her hands together to form a sign okay.

The rain has fallen hard. Even with a little wind toying. Tama to the front of Citra.

“Log in first, the rain is heavy,” Tama said on Citra.

“This is Tam's night, I want to go home,” Citra said evasive. As promised to Clara, Citra will avoid Tama as much as possible. As long as he was allowed to meet Daus, that was enough for Citra.

“Where are you going to a rainstorm like this Cit?” tama said worriedly.

“Rome, I brought the motor kok,” Citra said as she pointed at the duck motor parked on the page.

“Later on, wait for the rain to subside,” Tama tried to prevent Citra. The image shook slowly. It seems like the residents of this house are not okay. Clara's eyes were all crying. The image does not want to disturb. Citra handed Daus to Sus Wiwik. Smell a lot of daus. Then pamit accompanied by the cry of Daus who did not want to separate from his biological mother.

“I deliver then,” said Tama does not have the heart of Citra rain rain. Pulling the image's hand towards his car.

"I can go home alone Tam," said Citra, but not ignored Tama.

Tama still ushered in Citra even with strong protests. Finally here Citra, sitting side by side with Tama car.

“I'm not good with Ms. Clara this way. She was so nice that I met Daus. I don't want her to think the same way we do Tam. She's a good woman,” Citra said. Tama smiled wryly.

"He thinks we are like that. I made him so angry earlier. And it's all your fault. You have to take responsibility" Tama said while pulling the car over at the boarding house she owned. Guilt haunted him, but his love and longing for Citra was greater.

"Tam, where are we going? Not weird!! Take me home!!" citra said rusar. 

Tama continued to drive her car into the boarding gate and stopped in front of the end boarding room. All I know is Tama is still empty. Taking the key over the windhole of the door and dragging the image inside. Next Tama poured out all the flavors in his chest with Citra. Smell at the image ferociously.

"Tam, already!!! It's a sin" cried Citra trying to evade. Pushing Tama's chest away.

"Why has our love always been Cit's sin? Why is my heart always a victim? I've tried to forget you Cit! Try as hard as I can to forget you!! I tried Cit!!! I tried hard!!" yelled Tama with red eyes. Clear water droplets dripped between her eyes. The image was stunned to see it. 

"I've chosen Clara as my wife. Even twice just look at other people will fall in love with the girl. She's a girl who's easy to love. But I can't love him! I can't because of you!!! You Cit!!! You are always in my heart!!! Why does the world reject our love!!!" tama said emotionally. Hit the plastic cabinet that became the boarding facility then slammed it to the floor.

Image pulled over in the corner of the room. Letting Tama vent her emotions. Imagery understands. I understand how Tama feels. His feelings are more or less like that. Although he could not express as drastic as Tama. The man before him always filled his heart. Even since childhood. This man taught me to miss…. It is also a love that cannot be had. Who broke his heart many times, but the love in his heart also remained intact.

"I understand. I love you too Tam. My love is still intact, too" Citra said as she pleased.

***

The noise in the corner boarding room disturbs the occupants of another boarding house. Including Hani.

"That's not Mr. Kost's car? Bring the girl again" said Hani who has been ngincer since there was a car entering the boarding yard. 

"Yes, I think fighting…. I don't feel bad because of the rain. Come closer yuk," take the same Mita to her. Eventually the two men approached. A little bit of their conversation. 

"God..pity Clara," murmured Hani.

"That's Han, it's none of our business. Back in the room" whispered Mita, holding Hani's hand. Stay away from rooms, towards their own rooms.

Hani is in her room while pacing back and forth. Occasionally check the corner room. There is no sign of the occupants coming out. The screams were also not heard.

"What are they doing in the room?" muttered Hani kepo.

Hani again knocked on Mita's room after an hour passed quietly. The rain has also stopped.

"Mit, they're not out yet" whispered Hani to Mita who was ready for bed.

"Jaudah, don't go to. He's the hostess here. What do you want?" said Mita.

"But pity Clara for gini" said Hani really. He was concerned for his longtime friend.

"I guess what they've been doing for an hour is diem diem bae. Are you busy yelling at each other?" ask Hani.

"Main monopoly times what uler ladder?" answer Mita origin.

"And what two people love each other in the staircase!! There is maen uler gondrong!" said Hani.

"Do you know, why is it still clear? It's none of our business" Mita said. Hani returns the room with a slumber.

Half her heart was pity, half her heart was pity Clara. But isn't the picture good? If she tells Clara what happened, she's not wrong. He's telling the truth.... And... There might be a new hot rumor. Mr. kost in grebek kost with other women. Haaaa.... Maybe exciting. But he still hesitates telling Clara. His friend must have been hurt. Maybe later he can also be expelled from this hostel. Hani confused himself.

Two hours passed. Mr. Kost is still a henchman in the room. Hani could not take it anymore. He took his phone. Ringing a few times and then lifting.

"Don't, I want to tell you......"