I'm Not a Backup Womb

Fear of Sharing Love

"Oh yeah, what did you make breakfast this morning?" Asked Mas Doni who seemed to be trying to divert the conversation.

"I made toast for you and Debby, oh yeah Debby where is Mas?" I asked who was curious about the answer that my husband gave me, whether it was lying or being honest.

"Debby seems to be still getting ready, today he's getting the morning shift." He said he was going to put the toast in his mouth.

And sure enough, before long Debby looked down the stairs, looked neat wearing a blouse suit and carrying her bag. I observed her hair did not look wet, marked last night nothing happened between Mas Doni and Debby, because as I recall, I did not prepare a hairdryer in Debby's room, she said, I breathed my longs set my heart in pain and acted as if everything was fine, even though my current feelings of fear of divided love enveloped my heart at this moment. Honestly I just want a baby, and hypocritical if I want Mas Doni to share his love for Debby.

"Have you woken up?, let's have some breakfast first Deb, I've made you some toast!" I cried to Debby, who was approaching.

"Gee... It's delicious!"

"Deb, you'll be leaving with me!" The rose of Doni's mas makes me sicker and scarier.

"Emmm" Debby seemed to be thinking, and they glanced at each other.

"Mas, I'm going to see a doctor today, can you anther me?" As long as.

"Isn't it not time for you to control y?"

"But I don't feel well." My answer.

"Anter mbak Linda aja mas, anyways I shift in the morning can bring my own motor. If so I leave first yes, later I have breakfast at the hospital, it's too late." Rejecting Debby later, he put the toast into the lunchbox. Debby is a good boy I know she always tries to do good and gives in to me, I don't know why to do this to Debby.

"Assalamualaikum" Pamit Debby later

"Waalaikumsalam" answered me and Mas Doni.

Today I failed again to go to work with Mas Doni, I know that Linda needed it more, but why do I feel like Linda has changed so much now from her original goal of making Mas Doni love me, to her apparent desires that keep me and Mas Doni from getting closer.

"Ah is what you think Debby, mbak Linda is good, like an angel, cook anyway have the intention like that?" I muttered, I also remembered Linda's pregnancy "it must be all because of the influence of her pregnancy, why could I forget to meet with doctor Yudi?"

Doctor Yudi is a cancer specialist at the hospital where I work, he is also the one who handles Linda.

I immediately rushed to the hospital, riding my motorcycle at high speed, I had to see doctor Yudi, and asked about Linda's pregnancy which was delayed because of my busy life yesterday.

before long I had arrived at my parking lot to park my vehicle and immediately headed for the dressing room.

"Mr..." Call someone surprise me as I run towards the locker room.

"Who is he?" I asked while looking at a man in a wheelchair and an aged woman pushing the wheelchair.

"The boy who helped me out at the airport yesterday, right?" He said he was the one who broke a bone yesterday.

"Know this is my wife." He said while introducing his wife who was now beside him.

"We want to say thank you very much for helping my husband at that time" said the woman, smiling.

"Oh yes mbak, this mbak, I want to return the clothes that were used yesterday for my wound ballet, have been washed and ironed with my wife." Said the man gave a white shirt that would have belonged to Dr. Tedi.

"But, this is not mine sir, have you taken it." I said refuse, I don't want to see the doctor Tedi who I think saw the + fierce.

"No way this looks like expensive clothes, already bring it yes, we want to go in first!" He answered while leaving me.

"T.but sir."

"there is a" my grumble, my,

I put that expensive shirt in my bag, the problem will be defused think about it later.

I immediately changed my clothes to the uniform, and there are still a few minutes left for the shift change. happened to call in on my phone, the home phone number listed on my phone screen.

then I picked it up immediately, worried that something might happen there.

"Assalammualaikum mother!," said I

"Walaikumsallam son!, replied the gentle mother there

"Mother.mom is okay there?" ask me with worry.

"Mother is fine, son, how are you there? , and your relationship with son Doni is good?".

"i'm fine here, Doni and Linda are fine!, they've treated me well, and I feel very happy too." I replied covering up, because I don't want to make my mother think about my household problems.Bunda's burden is quite a lot, taking care of the sisters in the home is not an easy thing, it's not easy, not to mention if anyone is sick or fighting over toys, you have to work extra because I now can not help anymore.

"Alhamdulillah if you are happy son, mother was also happy to hear it.

"Mother, Debby work first yes, then debby phone again if you finish work, assalamualaikum!" then I hung up the phone.

"Lied again?" it was Lydia who without me knowing she was standing looking at me behind.

"Eh.mbak lidia, kok suddenly behind, uda kayak ghost just came without permission", I answered while putting my phone in my pants pocket.

"Deb, you're a nabgis again, aren't you?" ask her while approaching my face

"Crying?, how could this not be just a flickering before".

"Oh yeah!, cook?" said Lydia who was looking into my eyes as if looking for a lie in the corner of my eyes.

"Yes mbak, yes I cry like a child just pack a cry I am uda gede mbak, already ah let's work!" I cried while running away from Lydia's mother

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