I Love You Pilot's

part 31's. Feeling Very Guilty

Tonight the weather is very bright, I sit on the porch of the house while enjoying the night breeze.

I smiled at the small star that was twinkling in the bright sky due to the moonlight.

"Mas Arnav, how is he?"

"Until now he hasn't picked me up, which means he really doesn't think of me, it's Audia, he's got a life of his own!"

Miris once my relationship with him, only a few months to establish a halal relationship with him, but it ended just like that.

I have to make a decision as soon as possible, I probably won't go back there.

"Audia, what's up here?" said dad holding my shoulder, I looked up at my face.

"Enjoy a bright night huh!" I said lowering my head, actually I was thinking about the decision I was going to make.

Dad sitting next to me, I look at the face of my father who has started to wrinkle at eating age, I am very lucky to have a father ember, a father who always loved me from childhood to the present.

Dad was pensive while looking straight, I know you must be thinking about my problem too.

From the past until now I was just a burden on my family, I never happy my parents.

It's just a continuous matter that I give to my parents.

"Father does not forbid you to make a decision, this is your life, I can only support her, if you want to come back again with son Arnav, I just support you!"

"If you want to separate or divorce, you also support him, this is your decision, your father will not interfere in your affairs!"

"If you are tired and can no longer survive, you better step back and live a new life without him!"

I just silently heard the words of my father, actually I am not ready to make a decision, I am afraid that if I take a unilateral decision, there will be regrets.

"Audia hasn't thought of her yet!" say me.

"Audia is also not willing to take decisions unilaterally and in a hurry, which there is one of us will regret later, I want to take a decision together with her well!' say me.

Yes, I want to make a decision together with him, I also have to know what he will take.

"When?"

"Not knowing, maybe Arnav's still working, he rarely comes home!"

"Take your time to meet!" father says

"God willing, father!"

Dad went back inside, I still want to sit outside.

It turns out that getting married at a young age is a lot of challenges that we have to overcome, the problems we face are also very difficult, there may be some young married people making their lives happy, he said, but arriving at me was not that happy.

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The road is quite jammed tonight, the estimated time is likely to reach Audia village at two in the morning

What reason would I give to Audia's parents, would I just admit my mistake all along.

"Audia, I'm sorry all this time I was wrong!"

The road tonight is very crowded, so I am not too worried if there is a restriction.

I stopped first at a mosque, because I had not performed Isya prayers.

I take ablution first, then I perform the prayer isya four rakaat.

I pray to Allah that I may be made easy when I meet the woman whom I have wasted the past few months.

"O Allah, I know your servant is a sinner, but I ask Allah to let him meet his wife, the servant was very sinful with the wife of the servant at that time, O Allah, meet the servant with the lover of the servant's heart again, O Allah!"

Now I just realized that Audia is very important and valuable to me.

I wipe away the tears in my eyes, my mistakes are so many.

"Assalamualaikum son!"

I looked up at my head, I bowed it down.

"Wa'alaikumussalam!

It turns out that the Ustadz mosque is here that greets me.

"Like you're not here, where are you and where are you going?"

"I'm not here Mr. Ustadz, I'm from Jakarta going to village B!"

"The journey from here to village B is still very far away!"

I nodded small and now I lowered my head down.

"Oustadz can I ask you?

"By, please!" said Mr. ustadz while letting me talk.

"What if a husband doesn't appreciate his wife's feelings?"

Mr. ustadz nodded lightly with a smile.

"In the face of domestic problems, our focus is on solutions that unite, not solve. Do not always orientasi ask for divorce, even if asking for divorce, if the reason is strongly’i is not prohibited.

This problem is not simply solved fiqhnya: may or may not. However, try first as hard as you can to survive in the situation, and as much as possible through it well.

In a household, sometimes the exam comes through a spouse himself, or a child, or an orthua/parent, or an economy, or a relative, even a neighbor. If one repair attempt has not been successful, try another. Keep it that way.

Understand the culture that makes a wife, then understand, and forgive if something goes wrong. Marriage to anyone if there is no mutual understanding of the spouse or his family, understanding, and forgiving, will find problems.

As long as the husband and his family are still in the heart, and the heart is controlled by God, then do not despair to keep hoping to God may guide him to be better in caring for his wife.

Wallahu a’lam!"

I nodded in understanding, so all this time I never understood my own wife's feelings, I was more engrossed in my own world of work, now I just understand, I just understand, all this time I was always yelling and never indifferent to my wife.

"Is it sinful if the husband does not appreciate his wife's feelings or often makes her cry?" ask me

"It has been described in the Qur'an and the hadith, It is unlawful for a husband to make his wife cry without right and to hurt his wife. It is mentioned in the Quran and the Hadith Yes, When the husband wrongs his wife, he has committed a great sin and his body is no longer forbidden from the fires of hell!"

I feel so guilty for what I did to my wife.

After airing and getting advice from ustadz earlier, now I again continue my journey to village B.

I arrived in front of the modest house at 02:30 in the morning.

"That's one piece, everyone's asleep, there's no way I'm seeing you this early!"

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