I don't know

bitter memories

" i'm going to let go just like I did before to different people" Clary's reply made Carlos turn his eyes to Mike.

The expression of Mr. Carlos also changed heartily as if implying regret in his heart.

" Come on honey" Mr. Carlos opened his arms wide and asked Clary to come closer and embrace the girl's body affectionately.

Clary buried her head in Carlos' chest. Slowly began to sound a sobbing - a little sobbing from Clary. His body trembled withstanding the cry that had broken. Carlos let his clothes get wet from Clary's tears. It's been a long time since Carlos hasn't seen Clary cry so much in his arms.

First it happened when Clary began his initial mission to finish off a mobster who was involved in a dispute with Carlos. Carlos always hugged him giving peace and strength to Clary every time he cried after carrying out his mission to kill people. And the last time Clary cried in her arms was when the girl got into a big fight and showdown with Mike.

FLASH BACK ON

Clary ran hastily while carrying a long barrel firearm on her side. His breath hunted irregularly. He kept running as fast as he could towards an empty warehouse in an abandoned factory.

BRAKKS

Clary kicked a door and ran into the old building. His eyes were immediately poignant watching the painful scene before him.

BUGS

Clary punched the standing man's cheek with multiple bruises and blood from his body until he fell to the floor. Then Clary swiftly grabbed and hugged the body of the other man who was limp on the floor. Clary hugged him and tried to wake him up. The girl's tears came out without excuse.

" Suit... Jason wake up's. Please wake up.. It's me. Im here Jas.." Clary unceasingly patted the cheek of the weak man in his arms.

" ye.. Clarissa.. Am I looking bad?" ask Jason weakly.

" Yes "Clarysa is crying again.

" ye.. Don't cry dear. I love you. Can you kiss me for the last time?" Jason tried to smile with his remaining energy.

" It ist'n the last time Jass. I'll bring you to the hospital" Clary still hugged him tightly.

" No..Can't. Please just kiss me once more." Jason smiled gently at Clary.

Clary looked at Jason for a moment and kissed his pale lips with bloodstains still attached. Jason returned the kiss gently until he finally breathed his last in the arms of the girl he loved.

Clary cried regretting her delay in learning about Jason and Mike's dueling plans. At that time Clary was preparing himself to carry out the mission of Mr. Carlos. Before he left for the execution site he got a vidio recording from his HP. The video features a debate between Mike and Jason. Until the phrase from Mike "Only the living are entitled to have C ".

Clary knew very well what Mike meant was a duel until one of them died. Clary immediately called Mr. Carlos to abort her mission today. He didn't want anything bad to happen to his two colleagues just because of him.

Clary was so laughed at the incident that killed Jason that she finally no longer wanted to see anything else to talk to Mike. Clary decides to quit and quit all of Mr. Carlos' missions. Not only that, his deep disappointment made him close his heart to the thing called love. Because according to him love always makes people forget the logic and sane sense of someone.

FLASH BACK OFF.

Clary is still crying in the arms of Mr. Carlos. He regretted why he had to open his heart again to something called love. This time it was not death but dishonesty that made him have to let go of someone who started filling his heart.

Mr. Carlos patted Clary's back gently. As a father he knew very well what kind of heart Clary was in right now. " You may not continue on this mission" said Mr. Carlos softly.

" I never should have brought you here in the first place" Mr. Carlos's line came to a halt at the beginning of his encounter with Clary until he ordered Mike to recruit and train the girl as a killing machine. Because he saw there was pent-up talent and courage in Clary.

" You should have lived a normal life without trauma if I hadn't brought you here."

Clary who was feeling mentally tired ended up falling asleep in the arms of master Carlos with the occasional soft sobbing still heard from his mouth.

Mr. Carlos put Clary to sleep on the sofa he turned into a soft bed with a single push of a button. Mike was still loyal in the room accompanied Mr. Carlos.

" Do you still love her?" asked Mr. Carlos flatly who answered a nod by Mike.

" Why don't you go after him again ? I think he must still love you" added Mr. Carlos.

" I don't have enough courage to even fantasize about having it" Mike rubbed his face roughly. " I've seen how much she's suffered with trauma from me and Jason"

" I'm not sure that you are a MAN" Carlos pursed his lips as if mocking Mike. " Do you not want to take responsibility for his trauma and injuries" Mr. Carlos turned to look at the sleeping Clary.

Mike just went silent trying to digest the word for word Carlos said. Carlos is the only person who understands Mike the most inside out. The hardships and alliances they went through together from nothing made them like brothers who understood each other. Carlos always considered Mike as his favorite little brother. So did Mike who was very loyal because he felt very indebted to Carlos.

" Take care of him for me. To make amends for bringing her into our world and to replace the man I was forced to take from her for my daughter. Stay with him here at least for tonight. Maybe he'll need you" Mr. Carlos left Clary and Mike in the reading room.

......

The sun begins to show the warmth of its rays. Clary opened her eyes slowly as she felt thirsty. He felt something different. He opened his eyes gathering his life and consciousness back.

Clary is shocked to find herself sleeping in a hugging position with Mike. He immediately let go of his embrace and rose from his sleep. Mike, who felt a movement, opened his eyes and found that Clary was sitting next to him.

" Are you awake?" mike asked in a typical sound of people waking up. Clary just kept quiet and didn't answer Mike's question. " Oh shit, im late" grumbled Mike as he looked at the clock still coiled in his hand. He immediately got up and called ART to clean the reading room because Clary had already left.