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CONFUSED BY LOE

" Dear you wear your own clothes. I'm sorry I don't want to help you but I can't bear to see your body again. I'm afraid I'm losing control and doing it again." Rudi gives Clary clothes and is reciprocated by a nod by Clary. He was still reluctant to speak because he was confused by the attitude of Rudi who suddenly changed and even dared to force him to do that, although all was legitimate because they were husband and wife.

After changing clothes Clary came out of the room to the kitchen was about to take something for her to cook because her stomach was very hungry.

" Dear here eat, I've made you food." Rudi immediately took Clary to the dining table.

Clary quickly ate her food without looking at Rudi at all. He wanted to immediately ask what exactly Rudi was doing to him. When Clary was about to move, she would take care of the dishes she had used to eat, suddenly Rudi forbade him and said that he would do homework today because he did not have the heart with his condition that was still weak.

" Your body still hurts, baby?" ask Rudi while sitting on the sofa with Clary. " I make honey date milk so let's go again" Rudi was about to move from where he was sitting.

" Rudi, we need to talk" said Clary stopped Rudi's steps.

Rudi sat down next to Clary and stared fixedly at the woman's face. " What the hell are you talking about?" asked Rudi gently.

" Pliss don't act like this to me" Clary's tone was full of emphasis.

" You mean what kind of attitude, dear?" Rudi's voice still sounded soft even though his gaze seemed to want to kill everything in front of him.

" You mean what did you say to me?"

" What's wrong with us doing that? We married you. Don't forget that." he said flatly.

" But you know why we married for what? Pliss Rud. please don't make it all up. Our marriage was just a matter of months ago and it's all over. "

" What if our marriage was pretending you would dare to take care of me until I bathe when I'm sick?"

" That's me just doing my job as a wife because you need my help"

" And now I too am in need of your help as a wife to do your duty well" Rudi looked up at Clary.

" Rudi please think twice before you act. You forgot that you have Melisa that you will marry later. Don't you think how she feels?"

" Is it just Melisa's feelings you care about? I understand that you may not have any feelings for me. But you never thought about how I felt for almost half a year every day with you. Worrying about your usual attitude even though I make out the same Melisa."

" I don't know what you mean"

" Clarisa Atmaja look me in the eye!!" Rudi raised his voice. " Whatever reason we're married won't change my status as your legal husband. Can you respect me a little and act like a real wife?"

" I've always kept you up, I always wanted your feelings Rud. You are happy with Melisa and I support that. Why do you want me to behave like what else?"

" What is the reason you sacrifice your happiness for me if not because you also love me?!"

" Rudi, what I've been doing is sincere. I just want to help you be happy with your own choices not with matchmaking."

" And I choose you to be my wife" Rudi's index finger right in front of Clari's face.

" Rudi plisss don't joke anymore"

" Kidding huh?!! You think I'm kidding???!!!!" Rudi threw the ashtray in front of him until it broke into pieces.

" Rudi lu what the fuck??"

" Come with me now" Rudi grabbed Clary's arm and pulled her roughly towards her room. " What was I joking about until our wedding photo was in my room??"

" Please hand me Rud. It hurts!!" Clary grimaced with pain.

Rudi who had been ignited by his emotions threw Clary's body rough into the bed. And then shut him up by beating him. Staring at him again Clary's black bead was full of emotion.

" When has Rud? Since when did you fall in love with me?"

" Since you've faithfully taken me to the hospital. Ever since you used your fingers to touch my body. Since I was comfortable in your arms when Melisa was not there beside me" Rudi put her forehead on Clary's forehead.

" It's wrong !" Clary pushed Rudi's body rough to get away from her. " We're talking good". Clary was sitting on the edge of the bed facing Rudi. " You want me to do my duty as a wife, right?" clary asked and answered a nod by Rudi.

Clary took a deep breath and threw it away.

" Are you sure?" ask Clary again

" I'm sure" Rudi replied without a second thought.

" Have I spoken to Mel?"

" Why is Mel the one?"Rudi was angry again

" Rudi shines on me.. Later that will be your wife Melisa is not Clarisa. Now I'm just while you're the same. I don't care if you want to admit anything to me. But you want a heart you have to take care of." Clary is still trying to resuscitate Rudi.

" Is it only Melisa's compassion that you think?"

" I also think about your feelings going forward. I want your natinya confused if you have to choose me or Melisa. Because what you're doing to me will have consequences. You know that clearly."

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FLASHBACKS

" A damn shit today boss told me to replace Niko. Where the place is far away" Rudi walked into the parking lot with his face bent.

" Woy Rud.. mo where are you ?" ask Clary who accidentally ran into him.

" To the green palace replace Niko" Rudi replied with a lame face.

" Hwahahahaha.rasain lu" Clary laughed mockingly at Rudi. " Happy to enjoy your journey Mr. "mockful again

Rudi hit the shoulder of the happy Clary on top of her suffering. Surely Rudi was very irritated because the place he would observe was in a village whose road access was still not touched by asphalt at all.

Rudipun soon left his legitimate best friend to be his wife. He drove his motorbike slowly even though the road was quiet. Perhaps it was because he was also lazy to go where he was going. Rudi stopped for a moment because the traffic red light was on. 30 seconds passed the lights began to green. Rudi immediately put forward his motorbike again. But unexpectedly a mini bus was speeding from the right direction which should have been the traffic light on red.

BRAKKKK

Collisions are inevitable. The wheel bounced off the top of the bike. Some of his body was injured and he was bleeding a lot. With energy and awareness still left he grabbed his phone and called someone. Who else if it wasn't Melisa he called.

" I was in an accident at the intersection of Batu Bar.." Rudi could not finish his sentence when he suddenly fainted.

" Hello. yang.. yang. hello" the voice was still heard from Rudi's phonecell.

" Hello . yes mbak. Sorry the owner of this phone was in an accident and passed out." someone who helped Rudi explain where the accident occurred.

On the other hand Melisa who was busy preparing a presentation for the meeting arrived - suddenly ran out of her bills to look for Clarisa.

" Cair Rudi accident." very clearly visible face Melisa so anxious.

" What?!! Where is she now, brother?!" Clary and some other employees were shocked to hear the incident that happened to Rudi.

Tell me what was heard on the phone. " How is Clair back and forth again I have the same presentation Boss?" Melisa is confused to leave immediately because she is worried about Rudi or continue her presentation.

" Kak Mel continue to let me relocate. I want the leadership's permission first. Brother Mel is calm."

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Rudi opened his eyes slowly. The pain in his head and body was still very pronounced. His hands moved slowly as he felt something. His eyes blinked again because it was still a little blurred. He looked at the direction of something. Clari fell asleep in a sitting position while her head rested on the bed where Rudi was treated.

" Clair, Clarisa.." Her voice was weak.

" Summer. ah.. Rudy.. Thank goodness you were aware. I'll call a doctor"

After that the doctor came and examined Rudi. The doctor explained that Rudi had a fracture in his hand so he had to use a buffer for a while. There was an aura of sadness on his face. But he felt very lucky because his best friend was with him.

The doctor left Rudi's room. Rudi was still lamenting his misfortune today. He continued to struggle with his own thoughts without him noticing that a pair of eyes were looking at him with pity. The warmth suddenly he felt as the skinny body of his best friend hugged him.

" Hey pukund. Are you sad just because of your broken hand? The doctor said it could heal but it took time. The part of the fracture is not severe and has been in the operation also was "Clary trying to calm his best friend/husband.

Rud simply fell silent in the arms of Clary who was still faithfully standing beside the bed. Rudi further buried his head in Clary's chest. There was a feeling he did not understand appearing in his heart. He feels peaceful and comfortable. She hugged Clary's waist with one of her arms still healthy despite having an infur needle attached.

" Rudi your hand do not gini later the needle is off." Clary's voice sounded softer than usual in Rudi's ear.

" Clair, don't stay with me." Rudi's back shook violently as it held back his cries.

"Yes, I'm not going anywhere. Then you are very cryful wound gini aja nangis" Cletuk Clary who realized that Rudi died - mataian held back his crying.

Why am I this? Why would I want to cry in the arms of this attached mak. Hahhh so get down on my degrees. Why the one who came by this attachments is not Melisa. Why this cuddle is different from Melisa huh. I feel calm with him. Rudi muttered inwardly as she felt another sensation in her heart.

" Rudi ?!" melisa shouted as she entered Rudi's nursing room and found the scene full of drama.

" Tuh yayangmu da dateng, jagan cry again" Clary took off her embrace while mocking Rudi. But Rudi was very unwilling for Clary to let go. Melisa's boyfriend is already there.

" Clair I brought food. You must have not eaten." Melisa gives rice wrap to Clary and then immediately approached Rudi.

I don't know why this time Rudi was not happy about the arrival of his love. He threw himself down again and closed his eyes.

" Sorry, I just arrived. I had a presentation. Actually I was going to come straight but I'm happy because there is Clarisa who gave up the time to go change me" Melisa tried to express her regret. Rudi only replied with fake smile.

The next morning Clary immediately roused Rudi because she also had to go to the office immediately. Clary did not contact the family because of the request of Rudi who was worried about the health of her papi if she knew the situation now. While Melisa last night returned home also at Rudi's request.

" Here I help you wipe your body so as not to smell "Clary put a basin containing a washcloth and warm water that he got from the nurse earlier.

" No need. I can do it myself " replied Rudi who felt uncomfortable imagining Clary touching parts of his body.

Clary did not care about Rudi's words. He painstakingly and very gently undressed Rudi and then wiped his entire body.

Rudi felt a strange vibration as Clary's fingers touched her skin. The same feeling he felt when he was making out with Melisa.

Aisshhh. Why come my mind is this dirty ama you. Rudi's mind was uncontrollably chaotic.

It was time for Clary to take off Rudi's pants and leave only boxerna. Rudi was confused as to what to do. It crossed his mind - a dirty thought in his brain to make his own wake up and harden.

" Heh, you're dying still after perverted thinking!!!" clary snapped when she realized Rudi's property was ready for war.

Rudi was shocked to hear Clary's scream. But somehow he still couldn't control his own to fall asleep again.

Shit caught. Boy wants to sleep again. My self-esteem fell this time. But Clary is ordinary. He was not surprised and not nervous either. Even with his leisure in continuing to menggelapnya.

" It's sorted out my part. Nih take. that part you lap yourself but gk use ngayal." Clary gave her lap to Rudi. " Oh yes, you also use yourself. If I've been making your clothes." Clary put the 'CD' next to Rudi.

If you ask how Clary feels. Of course he was very embarrassed and his heart seemed to jump up and down in his chest. What else when looking at Rudi's property that suddenly stood out behind his boxer. But he tried as calmly as possible so as not to create an awkward atmosphere there. Actually, he was very reluctant to do all that. But she remembered her duty as a wife even though it was only a temple. Because their agreement used to be just not allowed to do husband and wife relations.

Every day during the hospital Clarisa always accompany Rudi and just leave him when he goes to the office. Every day Clary painstakingly took care of Rudi from eating to helping him clean up.

Clair... Do you really not have any feelings for me? You are so good with me. Lu willingly sacrifice your happiness for the sake of healing papi.Now you also nurse me like a wife. Do you know that I seem to be starting to fall in love with you? But I'm scared. I don't know what you're doing if you know I'm starting to love you. But maybe you love me if you never get angry when I'm the same Melisa and accidentally smash it in front of you even you always keep our space and time.

Rudi kept asking questions in his heart. She is also confused about her feelings and Clarisa's. Because her love for Melisa is also very deep.

FLASH BACK OFF.