Holy Love Alina

Chapter 24

Heru awoke in surprise when he heard the sound of baby crying nearby. Heru opened his eyes and found Gazhi in front of him. In Alina's arms the little baby was flailing, as if her little hand was looking for something. Alina is seen trying to pet her, but Ghazi does not stop crying. Actually Alina was upset, because Gazhi was a bit fussy all day and made her tired. Only if Gazhi is sleeping well, Alina can take a little breath, and Gazhi often woke up asking for asi, even after that sleep again. Alina had not even had time to sleep, because just now when Gazhi slept well enough, Alina even took advantage of her time to bathe and dress up.

Heru then rubbed his eyes, the remaining drowsiness trying on the edge. Heru immediately got up and walked over to Alina.

"Let me carry..."

With hesitation Alina handed the baby to Heru. Heru then carried and fondled Gazhi while walking here and there. Slowly the baby's cries subsided and Gazhi fell back into a deep sleep.

"Alina, you look tired, rest or do things that make you more relaxed.Care a baby needs excellent energy and a happy heart, because the baby will also be able to feel your emotions, if you're sad your baby will be more easily fussy..."

"Yes, thank you very much.It turns out being a mother is not as easy as I thought..."

Alina intends to take Gazhi from Heru's carrier, but Heru prevents her.

"You can leave it with me, I still want to carry it, usually the baby will sleep more comfortably in the sling.oh yes, I stopped by to buy chocolate ice cream and pudding when I came home, take it in the refrigerator, take it, eat while relaxing for a moment..."

Alina felt awkward, but did not mind Alina to follow Heru's advice. Alina took the chocolate pudding and ice cream in a small bowl and sat back down next to Heru.

"Thank you so much, I'd like to get it too?"

"No, I'll eat it first..."

Heru stared at the goal towards Gazhi who was sleeping on his lap. Then his gaze turned to Alina who was sitting next to him while enjoying the ice cream.

In his mind, Heru was split, if this was real and they were his little family. But Heru immediately dismissed the thought because Heru realized, his presence here is nothing more than a play actor.

Heru then looked back at Gazhi who looked comfortable in his lap. Suddenly he remembered his past. Who used to hold and hold her when she was a red baby as small as Ghazi? Sometimes he gets a little question, even though Heru knows he won't find the answer.

Gazhi looks very small, handsome, and adorable. How could this sweet baby not be wanted by her father? The feeling of fate made Heru so sympathetic to Gazhi. Heru is not willing if there are babies fate as well as his past. Heru knew very well how the inner wounds experienced by children like himself. Feelings of being wasted and unwanted are often approaching. And his self-confidence must be cultivated with difficulty until he succeeds in achieving success. Even today, Heru still feels a small hole in his heart that may never be closed. He is like an incomplete human being. And Heru really didn't want Ghazi to experience and feel what had happened to him.

Alina ended up eating melted chocolate ice cream in her mouth and delicious chocolate pudding. And then his mood got better.

Alina turned her head to the side and found Heru holding Gazhi with his eyes closed. Alina's heart warms. But the guilt is still dominant. And Alina is really sorry to have been the cause of all this mess.

In the days that followed Alina already felt better and calmer while nurturing Ghazi. Maybe because of his improved health condition and also because he was used to it. But in addition, Heru's presence is always there for Ghazi and encourage him to make Alina have more motivation to be a better mother. Before leaving for work Heru always approached and carried Ghazi. He invited Ghazi to play around for a while in the front garden, before then Heru said goodbye and advised Alina to take care of Ghazi well. Though Alina felt Ghazi r is her responsibility. Unsolicited was also his duty to look after Ghazi.

After work, Heru always immediately took a shower and changed clean clothes. Heru then sought Ghazi and fondled him. If Ghazi was not sleeping, Heru would invite him to talk as if the baby could understand. Sometimes Heru also invites Gazhi to sing or read fairy tale books. It is not uncommon for Heru to bathe Gazhi while on holiday. Alina feels Heru's presence is exactly what a father would be for Ghazi. But on the other hand there are concerns that Alina felt.

"Mas Heru, you don't need to treat Ghazi this excessively, pursue your happiness and your own future, we've weighed you too much..."

One day Alina chose to reveal her grief to Heru.

"I just want Ghazi to get the affection that he should, after all I'm happy to be able to do it and spend time with Ghazi, he's an adorable child.", Heru answered Alina honestly, saying, because he did everything sincerely without coercion.

"But what you can give is only temporary, one day he will feel lost and it may be difficult for him to adapt without your presence..."

Alina tried to explain. Heru also realized, where exactly the direction of Alina's conversation.

Without answering Alina's words again, Heru chose to go into his room.

In his room Heru tried to ponder the meaning of Alina's words. Heru does realize his meaning to Alina is only temporary, but it seems Heru forgot to realize that for Ghazi even he was only temporary. Maybe because of sympathy or indeed the charm of the tiny baby is so strong that it makes itself complacent. Heru kept thinking about her until then there was a knock on the door from outside. Heru lazily moved to open the door. It was Alshad standing behind the door.

"What's the matter?", asked Heru not to mince words.

"Not sleeping bro? You want to talk to me now, can you?"

"I'll change my clothes first..."

"Ok, Papa's been waiting for you in the study..."

"Ok, tar me there..."

In Heru's heart wondered if his father-in-law called him to talk these nights. Heru immediately changed his clothes with a more appropriate one, then rushed to meet his Father-in-law who had been waiting for him.