High School Autobiography

DEPENDS ON THE ROOT

       At 12:34 pm, the 12th grade was forced to be disbanded from study hours, all students came home with hearts stuck due to the events at the school were very shocking, Farka and Areny were walking home together. They walk down residential streets that have the feel of Japanese state housing. The air is very cool, the blue sky is bright.

“Do you think I failed as class president?” Farka asked in doubt.

“No! You are a great class leader, no student is very attentive to others except you ..” Areny argued convincingly.

“.... when Zeni was sick and no one wanted to visit you was the first to look, when the underclassmen could not pay the debt, you paid it off, even many more, he said,” he added while looking at Farka cheering.

Farka was still worried. Suddenly Areny stood before Farka, her hands holding onto Farka's shoulders, forcing Farka to stop, and their black gaze met, staring meaningfully, areny's black eyes glistened like a shooting star in space that confirmed hope was always there. Areny had to slightly raise her face because of Areny's height under Farka's nose.

“Farka! I believe you can serve as class president! Yep! I believe!” Areny cried out loud and straightforward.

A gust of wind blew slowly, caressing the two human faces, Farka's heart was touched by the words of Areny, his soul again felt raised, whipping him so as not to be discouraged, and so he was not discouraged, of course Farka was happy to realize there was still someone who always cared for him, since his step-grandmother disappeared, he never again felt the glowing affection of life embracing her. Farka's thin lips began to expand, forming a most meaningful smile, an expression of her feelings that rose again to stay uplifted, leaving her down. So, there on Areny's sweet face, a smile also expands expressing her happy feelings that always live cheerfully. Until Areny's two hands are slowly lowered again, but his amazed look at the class leader did not make him able to turn away for a second, Farka also still looked at Areny with pleasure. Ridiculous from embarrassment, Areny hurriedly turned her body back, turning her face away, turning her back on the man she admired.

“Well, this is what I like about you,” flatter Farka seriously.

Suddenly, Areny was astonished by Farka's statement, she took it very seriously, thinking Areny might be more than just like Farka. Farka stepped across to Areny's left with both hands tucked into her pockets, acting like a cool guy. Farka was a tall but not as tall as Sazan, his face was brightly smooth, his eyebrows were firm black, his skin was bright white, his jaw was firm, plus his nose was sharp, with short, black hair drizzly combed back, he's pretty handsome but not as handsome as Fihan. Areny hurriedly ran over cheerfully trying to keep pace with Farka's steps. They step back together.

       In front of a simple, natural house overgrown with bamboo trees in the narrow courtyard of his house, with a forest green fence, in the same residential complex as Farka, the, a black sedan stopped in front of the gate of the house, a blonde woman, coming down from the front door of the car.

“Zeni, what per ..” greeting Guru Sukada cut.

“No need sir, thank you,” interrupted Zeni while bowing respect to Master Sukada.

Sukada nodded then closed the door and the car sped away. Zeni's face was still haggard, but, he was forced to survive just because he did not want to bother the surrounding people. When the wooden door of the house was opened.

“I'm home!” Seru Zeni's.

Zeni was stunned to see his house was a mess, the house was shades of brown teak, with house decorations scattered on the wooden floor, as if the earthquake disaster had made the objects able to move dirtying the floor, he hastily took off his rope shoes, put the backpack on the floor.

When Zeni has been in the family room that looks seedy, with the position of the sofa upside down, the wooden table is upside down, plus the fragments of the plate that also adds to the impression of seedy, right to his left, right next to him, as his head turned to the left in a worried look full of despair, he saw, a 37-year-old woman with long black hair in a negligent suit and a 40-year-old man with black hair, thin mustachioed, the one wearing a black t-shirt suit, had been sitting on the floor folding both legs. Zeni was fixated on staring at her parents who had a haggard look, both of them were sitting staring at Zeni desperately, as if there had just been a deep sorrow.

“Zeni, come sit with us,” pinta mama Zeni full of hope and resignation.

Zeni stepped over worriedly in the mind that had not recovered due to his incident at school, then he sat down by folding his legs right in front of his parents.

“Mother has been fired from the store, and your father has also been fired,” Zeni's mother said seriously and sadly.

When Zeni looked at his stepfather, the father seemed to change, he no longer displayed his harsh impression, no longer showed his hateful expression, no longer displayed his fierce aura, he said, now that the man was calmer and remorseful, like a fool who was caught stealing a neighbor's chicken, Zeni's father looked down grimly as if there was a secret that he had long since, long ago, Zeni had no idea what was really going on, why her parents looked so grim.

“What happened mom?” Usut Zeni's.

The mother stared fixedly at Zeni, looking at the child lovingly, but implied despair.

“Let's kill ourselves together,” take Zeni's mother seriously.

Suddenly Zeni was flabbergasted, very surprised to hear the mother's words, but, Zeni just wanted to forget the stupid decision, she had just stepped up to survive, but, now, now, the feeling returned from within, the feeling began to freeze his brain, feeling that all his life was in vain. Zeni bowed, both hands were stacked on her thighs, while gripping the fingers to her head full of anxiety. With a tormented heart, his eyes were forced to recoil the cries of the pain of life, and his breath felt tight, perhaps no human would be able to understand the suffering of others, Fihan was right, he said, a person's feelings are only to be played with for the sake of a joke.

“A-I ... I .. should be dead,” isak Zeni bowed in tears.

His father and mother looked at each other, as if wondering why Zeni spoke so.

“Hiks hiks.”

“IN SCHOOL I ALMOST KILLED MYSELF!” Jerky Zeni still lowered her head.

As the two Zeni parents were stunned unexpectedly, they seemed to have been pierced by Zeni's statement, making the brains and hearts of both Zeni parents touched, felt slapped, that as parents, the, they fail to make the child happy, especially the mother who feels very hit, feels failed in her motherhood. However, they remained desperate, they had indeed failed.

“Padahan ... earlier .. I've wanted to forget it.. hiks hiks,” murmured Zeni senguk-cock.

“Life, it is meaningless, we have lost hope, we are just the trash of society ..” said Zeni's father who has not finished talking.

Zeni's face was flushed, her eyes were red, her cheeks were still wet with tears, her chest was tight, Zeni was looking at her parents in turn, implying that message, Zeni was, Zeni suffered more than her parents.

“I am your hope! I will make hope, and you must survive for your hope!” Zeni said seriously with full of confidence.

Zeni's father and mother looked at Zeni with pity.

“Zeni, we do not want to burden you,” said Zeni's mother resigned.

“You should not despair! Dad is healthy! Mom too!” Firmly Zeni cheered.

“Daddy betrayed dad's friend, and dad already killed him, so ... in a moment, the police will arrest dad,” Zeni's father said bluntly.

Zeni again made a shock, his heart seemed to stop, even the feeling of despair had regained control of Zeni's body, he was downcast, crying sobbing, his mind felt frozen, only despair continued to overshadow him, making his slump unable to be eliminated, he gripped his thigh firmly as if he was about to explode.

“Mom was also caught stealing, so mom was fired,” Zeni's mother said without further ado.

Once again, Zeni's eardrum was given a sentence she did not want to hear, Zeni's pain deepened, and she began to follow the suicidal curiosity. The atmosphere began to feel gripping, inappropriate sentences heard or even expressions displayed inappropriately, it might trigger the greatest ending, but Zeni did not want it to be so.

“WE MUST ENDURE!” Zeni snapped her despair.

Both of his parents were stunned.

“There is no more reason for us to survive, we are the trash of society, people want us to die, then we have to die,” Zeni's father gave up.

“I don't want to die as trash! I want to stay alive and prove that I'm not trash! Hiks hiks,” reply Zeni looked down stingy.

“There is no point in surviving, for the community, the bad is remembered more than the good,” refuted Zeni's father resigned.

“What's the point of killing yourself, if in the end you are still viewed as trash?” Sindir Zeni's.

Zeni's mother bowed in contemplation, making her weigh her decision, the father was bowed in contemplation. Zeni's words managed to give a touch to their hot brain, but, somehow they were able to understand Zeni's feelings.

“I ... very grateful, that earlier ... someone saved me from my stupid actions, I also had time to think that life is seen as a trash is very painful, and want to end it with suicide, he said, but ...” said Zeni by facing her face to her parents giving the impression that despair was still there.

“... There are still people who care about me, and mom's dad, if you guys can't afford to make a beautiful wish, then let me make it, we go through together because we're family, we're, we prove that we are not trash!” The next expectantly.

It should be enough Zeni who is desperate, do not need his mother and father who feel the suffering like Zeni, Zeni no longer knows what to do, because he is also in a position to give up, Zeni said, no one motivates his life, he seems to live alone, and as if holding all the burdens of human life, working alone just for the sake of despair.

“Mother, tida ..” Zeni's mother's greeting cut.

“No! Mom and Dad don't burden me! Don't we live in a family to achieve happiness together!” Sela Zeni while wiping her tears with the back of her hand gave the impression she was ready with a new life.

“But, dad already ..”

“Nothing! Every human being has done something wrong!” Zeni's rebut began to calm down.

Zeni took a deep breath, breathed it with the spirit of life that rose again, as a child, he would not let his parents die as the trash of society, he said, he began to put together again the fragments of his dreams and the fragments of spirit that he had laid in the deepest recesses of his heart. Zeni knew, it was very hard to get back up and survive with the garbage stamp that had been imprinted in his small family, but, he had to be able to, so that his family really died in happiness. Zeni blinked her eyes, even trying to develop a loving smile on her beautiful face, her black eyes radiating second hope had arrived, the upright position of his body gave the impression that life in the future would be fine, and his two smooth hands were piled on his thighs as he was prepared to bear all the burdens of his family's life. He took a long breath again.

“Mother dad! Let's eat together, and we start a new life,” invite him with a cheerful expression.

Somehow Zeni attitude changed from the loser now he is like a hero, although all this he did was to keep his family intact and still be able to see his beloved mother happy, he said, but Zeni did not care about this strange change, he was well aware that he could not always trouble those around him. Zeni's mother looked at her husband, and they looked at each other, as if they were at a loss as to what to do, three seconds later, they looked at Zeni with a hint of relief, like the rainbow that appeared after the storm, the aura of beauty came back to life with the atmosphere that also turned peaceful. Zeni's parents developed a satisfied smile, they were satisfied with Zeni's statement that seemed to make them aware of the importance of life.

“Let's eat,” take Zeni's mother while standing up.

Zeni's father also stood up, they put on a happy face, accompanied by a knotty smile. Both Zeni netra sparkle like a person who is in love, he feels proud to have made his parents not give up, he also did not expect that he could bring others to the path of kindness, he also did not expect that he could bring others to the path of kindness, because all this time she was just a j-a-l-a-n-g woman who sold her pride for a bite of rice, plus she had never been able to bring people to a better life.

Zeni immediately stood up quickly with pleasure, suddenly both Zeni's parents embraced Zeni full of love, Zeni was very shocked, he did not expect to get a hug from his father and mother, he said, even this was the first hug of his life that his parents had ever done, he had never felt the warmth of his parents' embrace, they usually always fought and stayed away from each other no matter, no matter what, Zeni again felt her heart touched, but this time she was moved, and without a doubt she enjoyed the affectionate embrace of her father and mother.