High School Autobiography

CHAPTER 3: ARENY'S AUTOBIOGRAPHY

I am Areny Zatimah, commonly called Areny, born in the town of Artana in an orphanage, March 02, 1999, I am an orphan, my name was given by an orphanage manager, Sity's mother, Sity, I don't know what it means, which is clear I'm always happy.

Since I was a child I never thought about who my parents were, maybe because there were many friends here, so no matter who my parents really were, I was a cheerful and chatty girl, even very ambitious, she said, I'm always punished for cleaning the bedroom, because I'm an active girl, the problem is I always steal donuts belonging to my friends, even though all have got their rations, but one thing is important! Actually we exchanged!

I offered my friends fantasy stories, in exchange for them giving me their donut cake, and they wanted to! But, Sity's mother was angry, even always returning my donut cake to my friends back.

The caretakers of the orphanage said I was a smart girl, but very naughty, not without reason I was naughty! I just want to be given more love! And always want to be noticed!

I don't know what a mother's love is like! I don't know what a father's love is!

So, if I don't get what I'm asking for, I'm gonna cry out loud and sound like I'm yelling, I can cry all day to get what I want, even if it's, in fact, no one cares about me, so, if that were the case, I would sleep where I cried, even if it was the bathroom!

When I was 6 years old, it usually started to be adopted, and when I did, I always hoped that no one would adopt me, because, I heard that old man is evil! Dad is cruel! And mother is vicious! Then I will spit on those who want to adopt me.

Obviously my actions were immediately repaid with punishment, not allowed to leave the room for a full day, I was happy, of course I was happy, because I would not meet the monster, that is, the old man!

However, as time went on, I was lonely, because, my friends had moved, even said they lived happily, now my friend who was my age only lived, Etenia, she was a quiet girl, shy and obedient, she said, I'm not even familiar with it, I just saw it, it's like a stale cake that doesn't know it's stale, because it's been stored in the fridge for a long time, it's neglected!

That's how Etenia the stale cake, though she was stingy to speak, even to make her smile was hard to die, but she was very obedient to me, what I asked, what I asked, he must have rushed to carry it out!

So, she I consider my servant.

One day, at nightfall, I told him to burn Sity's mother's clothes, I intend revenge, because Sity's mother always called me a child thief, and I don't like that!

Etenia managed to take the pride dress of Sity's mother, even she managed to burn the dress!

I could only see through the glass window of my room, for fear of being discovered, but, something terrible happened!

The gasoline that Etenia flushed into the dress, accidentally spilled onto Etenia's feet, and at once Etenia's feet burned so violently, that Etenia cried out in heat!

I'm afraid! And lying down on my bed, pulling my blanket down trembling, and having to sweat coldly, I pretended to be asleep, so that people would know that I was not telling Etenia, but, I can't sleep! Even being closed is hard!

“AAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH...!”

Etenia's screams, screams and moans kept ringing in my head, and it was horrible, I was afraid to tell everyone, that there was a girl burning alive! Even I was afraid to help Etenia!

I'm really scared, what if I get kicked out of the orphanage? What if I get tortured?

Everyone was fast asleep, I covered all my limbs with a blanket! Trying to go to sleep and wake up in the morning with an innocent attitude of not knowing anything.

Then the scream slowly subsided, dimmed, until it finally disappeared, but, I did not dare to go out yet, I still shuddered in horror.

Suddenly, outside the room so noisy, there was panic, everyone just realized that Etenia was burning alive, I was forced to get out of bed, pretending to know nothing, and yet, I was forced to get up, my body is still shaking in fear.

I saw from the glass window that the people had surrounded Etenia, and even the ambulance was ready to take Etenia to the place of healing.

Two days after that incident, I visited Etenia with the other orphaned teenage children, I am the youngest child at the moment, and I am grateful that Etenia still survives.

At that time, I had the opportunity to talk to Etenia, intending to ask for forgiveness full of regrets, she was like a mummy, her body bandaged to leave only her eyes closed, even to move unable to.

However, before I apologized to Etenia, she was already ahead of my words.

“Ma-sorry yes, I failed. I also so ngerepotin you.”.

My eyes widened when Etenia apologized to me, her voice sounded soft, her confession sounded plain, she was a good child and easy to trust people.

I kept silent not to speak, instead, I was embarrassed to admit my mistake, especially Etenia again spoke.

“Later... if I recover, I promise you... I burned Sity's mother's dress carefully..”.

Why did Etenia get that far? Why did he just blame himself? Is he stupid? Or is it plain?

I could only lower my gaze regretfully, I was still afraid, and ashamed, I was already claustrophobic with all the people who always blamed me.

So, I didn't admit anything to Etenia, I let her live a lifetime of disability, in fact, I also didn't admit anything to everyone, one important thing, one, Etenia admits that her reason burned Sity's mother's dress, because she hated Sity's mother's fierce attitude.

One more important thing! I had promised myself that one day, if I found someone with high concern, I would match him up, hoping Etenia would accept him, until they have a happy family, yes, I promise!

A week after that terrible incident, to the point that I couldn't fall asleep, but my life was still safe, came a married couple who wanted to adopt me, I was about to spit, but, because I was still sleepy, came a couple who wanted to adopt me, so I'm just a beard.

I've been adopted by them, I live happily with my parents, even I'm so good, I think the parents are monsters, but in fact they are like angels, I'm always spoiled by them.

Until, when I entered 7th grade Junior High, my parents changed attitudes, they changed attitudes after the birth of their biological children, all attention is now only on my sister, my sister, and there's one sentence that makes me hurt.

“Shut! Collect boy!”

Surely I'm back to being my naughty self, I always bother my sister, always ruin my parents' stuff, until almost every day I get angry, I get angry, even I was always hit by a broomstick until my head was bleeding, I was also always hit by a plate until my nose was broken, and if I cried, I would be slapped many times until I stopped whining.

For three years, until I reached 9th grade I was subjected to physical and mental torture by my parents.

”The old man is indeed a monster! That father is a symbol of the devil! That mother is the symbol of Satan!”

I wrote that sentence in my daily book, writing it down to over a hundred sentences.

However, while I was sitting alone on the grass of the complex garden, cursing at my parents, a boy my age came up to me and sat down beside me, so I closed my diary.

He's Farka, just moved into this house, with the same school as me, his house is also close to me.

“Your face bonyok why?”

Farka turned out to see my bonyok face from the slap and kick of my parents who were still visible and sick.

“HAHAHAHA..”

“...I practice karate in school, hehehe..”.

I spoke confidently, trying to make sure that I wasn't tortured by my parents.

Farka nodded with a knotty smile, she believed my confession.

From then on, Farka and I became friends, wherever he went, I was always by his side, and no matter what happened, I was always cheerful.

Until one twilight, there were 3 students from Pekerti High School coming to me, they were bothering me, trying to take me forcibly somewhere, even they took my diary.

They pulled me into the back garden of Pekerti High School.

I was really scared to death, I couldn't do anything, because, in the afternoon, my stomach was kicked by my father because I asked to eat, so besides my body was limp from being kicked, I was hungry too.

I don't know what they're going to do to me, for sure, I've resigned, after all, I've been used to living a tormented life and being able to stay cheerful.

But just getting to the back of Pekerti High School, like the Superhero in the movie, a boy yells, for them to stop, as well as to release me.

He was Farka, he stood firmly, looking at the three disciples of Pekerti High School not fearing in the least.

“Lo want what? Ha?”

The three High School disciples looked at Farka with intimidating gazes.

“Areny! Here, you want to achieve the same?”

When I came to him, my hands were pulled and I was taken hostage by them.

Suddenly, Farka ran over trying to save me, beat up these three High School kids alone?

So, there was a fistfight in this garden, Farka who had a small body, was unable to keep up with the two high school students, which in fact they were faster and stronger.

Farka was sprawled, with a bonyok face, red eyes and gasping breath, but he managed to get up again, although his body looked hollow, the three high school students just fell silent while looking at each other, they seemed fed up, had lost the momentum of being able to bother me, but, one of them came forward, then grabbed Farka by the hair, thrusting Farka's face into the sky.

Farka could not fight, he was exhausted and could only give up.

It was unexpected that Farka's face was spat on three times.

“Lo don't pretend to be a hero, loser.”.

The high school student rebuked Farka, but Farka was silent with her bony face.

The high school boy grabbed a bottle of his mineral water which he slipped in the back pocket of his pants, threw away the rest of his drinking water, and had two of his friends fill the void with their urine, they responded.

The bottle was filled with yellowish urine, even in the bottle there was an earthworm.

“Drink demons, drink! Let me free the girl lo!”

Urge the High School student still grabbed Farka's hair.

I really couldn't bear to see Farka, she was already helpless, her nose was bleeding, her face was red and her lips were bleeding.

But, without the slightest refusal, Farka grabbed the bottle, and without hesitation he drank the urine containing earthworms, he drank it to the end without remaining a little, even, earthworms were chewed with pleasure, like sweet gum, the taste of wine, so that everyone who saw it felt disgusted.

And so, in disgust the three high school students began to rush away, luckily the man who held me to throw my diary to the ground, until I managed to have my book back.

“Ayo unplug! The devil is disturbed.”.

And when all those High School students are gone.

I looked at the chaotic Farka, she stood a bit on her side, she was really badly injured, but, there on her battered face, she could still sing a charming knot smile, it was as if he had made it through the storm and now he was enjoying the results.

I stepped closer to Farka and for some reason as she turned her body back, when I saw her figure from behind, my eyes suddenly shed tears, to the point of wetting my cheeks.

I was so full, because, this was my first experience, that someone cared about me, that he was willing to sacrifice himself to save me.

Farka, was a foolish and lazy man, but, since that incident, I started to admire him half-dead.

If anyone asks what is a father like?

I will answer, he is like Farka, who always helps with pleasure.

If anyone asks, what does a mother look like?

I will answer, he is like Farka, who always helps selflessly.

If anyone asks what a sibling looks like?

I will answer, he is like Farka, who is willing to forgive people even if they are murderers.

And if anyone asks, what does a friend look like?

I will answer, like Farka, who always helps, both in joy and sorrow.

My swearing at the old man disappeared instantly, as Farka became a part of my life, her unique figure, changing my way of thinking.

I saw the father figure of Farka, I saw the figure of a mother of Farka, I saw the figure of a friend, and the figure of an older brother, until all forms of maturity and family forms exist in Farka, to the extent that my feelings develop into feelings of love.

However, before that feeling of love fused with her, I would prepare myself to be a special woman for Farka, to be a perfect woman, a beautiful and elegant woman, someday, I am a mature woman, she said, even she would find the motherly figure on me.

I'm sure! It can make Farka have me, and I can bite her ears that are soft like a cloud.