HEAVEN LOVE IN BISMILLAH

GUILT

"Patients have previously been to this hospital. Didn't you deliver it yourself? I had suggested surgery, but he never came again even if it was just for consultation..." The father of a doctor.

Yes, at that time the two of them, Ajis and Hidayat were already in the doctor's room.

"Yes, Doc... And stupidly I was, I couldn't even recognize the look on my sister's face back then, that she had hidden something from me..." Hidayat replied in a voice because he was holding back the pain. While Ajis, he just stayed in his position without knowing anything. He was so confused to hear the conversation between the doctor and his sister-in-law.

"Patients have cancer..."

"What, Doc?" Ajis was agape at the doctor's words. He glanced at Hidayat as if asking for an explanation. His sister-in-law looked not so surprised at that moment.

"Do you know this, Yat?" Tanya Ajis urged. But Hidayat only remained silent while raising his head to the ceiling of the room. His heart was also so painful because it had just learned about his brother's illness.

"How bad is it now, Doc?" Ask Hidayat later. He is still disappointed with Ajis who never knew anything about his brother, even just intend to find out though.

"Currently, the cancer has spread to the nerves of his brain. And it will lead to blindness in patients, even patient's life is also difficult to help because of it." The doctor explained Zahrana's condition.

Hidayat and Ajis were both stunned to hear the doctor's explanation.

"But... My wife can be cured, can't she, doc?" Tanya Ajis was so hopeful. Her tears just flowed from her reddened eyes.

"Gastric cancer is one of the dangerous diseases and is very difficult to cure. But we still have to pray for the patient's recovery. He shouldn't be too depressed, and should rest a lot." Said the doctor without giving relief to the despair felt by Hidayat and Ajis.

After hearing the doctor's explanation, the two of them came out and walked in tandem toward the room where Zahrana was being treated.

Ajis just stared at Zahrana from the outside, behind a translucent glass window inside. His heart ached even more watching his helpless wife at that moment. He sobbed while looking down, then walked towards the long chair beside him.

Hidayat who also saw the condition of his brother from behind Ajis, even more bitter when he saw the pain that emanated on the look of Ajis' face. He followed to sit next to his sister-in-law.

"If you are not a loved one, brother Zahra, perhaps this clenched hand has already floated into your face..." Hidayat said withstanding his anger.

"If it's better, then do it, Yat..." Ajis pasrah.

"What's on your mind, huh? Can't you see Brother Zahra so sincerely loving Brother? Why would anyone else love Zahra, but Brother is angry with Zahra?" Hidayat's growl became more.

"Who does not hurt when he sees his beloved wife alone with another man, who is more perfect than himself, Yat? Try it if you are in the position of brother... Aren't you going to get angry?" The Ajis seem to take no blame.

"Astaghfirullahal'azhiim says..." Hidayat.

"But Abang would be sincere if he was the best man for your brother, as long as your brother is healed and not sick like this, Yat. It's more painful to see your brother lying in there..." Rintih Ajis's.

Hidayat. "It's hard to explain it to my brother. My brother was blinded by jealousy. Brother knows? There is a man who is currently injured for the refusal of brother Zahra for the sake of Abang, but Brother is acting like this." Ketus Hidayat while taking out his phone from the sling bag that was wriggling on his shoulder.

Ajis receives Hidayat's cell phone, then watches what is in the vidio.

Everything that happened between Zahrana and Arya in the Kampoeng Rotan cafe was recorded clearly in the phone.

The chest of Ajis kembis holds tight. He felt guilty for his wife. But, honey, the rice has become porridge. All of his words that had hurt Zahrana and even his own heart were no longer able to pull. Luckily Zahrana held her mouth before the talaq came out of her mouth.

"Sorry, Bang... Hidayat was also wrong to have become a coward by hiding from his previous brother. Hidayat was a step late from Abang coming there, and also heard what you heard. But Hidayat believed that Brother Zahra loved Brother so much that Hidayat chose to stay there and record the continuation of their conversation." Expose Hidayat with a softening voice.

Hidayat took out Zahrana's book and showed it to Ajis.

"This book contains the writings of brother Zahra and also his story since marrying Abang... Hidayat found it time in the village yesterday. Brother Zahra may have accidentally left it at home." The breath of the corpse was stifled, there was pain in his heart at that moment.

"There are many things we do not know about Zahra, Bang... He hides his suffering and shuts it away from us. You never asked me that time? Why did bang Mus and brother Rianur fight?"

Ajis looked at Hidayat. His gaze seemed to wait for the continuation of the story Hidayat.

"Actually they quarreled because Rianur's brother made an online loan, and father had to mortgage the house in the village to make up for the debts, Bang..."

"Astaghfirullahal'azhiim says..." Desir Ajis's. He was shocked to hear Hidayat's confession. He never knew that at all.

"And Brother Zahra got the news just as Brother's stall was burning. And you know? Brother Zahra even hid the calamity that you experienced to us. If it wasn't my brother who told me that time, maybe Hidayat would have just found out from this book..." Add Hidayat again.

"Yes Allah... What man did you give to a servant as a wife? Why is his heart so good as an angel?" Mumbled Ajis with tears that broke many hearing the words of Hidayat.

"Hidayat also just found out about Zahra's disease, Bang... While in the taxi, Hidayat read the continuation of the story of Zahra. Hidayat hopes this is just a spice to make his story more exciting. And when brother Zahra called Hidayat using his cell phone bang Arya, because his cell phone Zahra missed at home he said. Hidayat wanted to question this, but Brother Zahra was worried about Abang instead. Brother Zahra felt he had betrayed Brother. Hidayat got angry by saying when he could think of himself. But brother Zahra even snapped at Hidayat so quickly come there. Brother Zahra feels uncomfortable just alone with the Aryan bang..." Hidayat was at length.

"Because Hidayat was worried about Zahra's brother, after making Arya understand, Hidayat immediately followed Zahra to the house. Sorry, Bang... Hidayat heard it all from behind the door..." Add Hidayat again.

"Have to be punished, Yat... Quick... How can you make up for your mistakes? The useless husband's brother, Yat... Brother can never understand his own wife. The husband's insensitive brother... Though Brother should be able to understand what your brother feels, even though your brother never said it. Oh God..." Ajis's body was shaken violently restraining his sobs. He still remembers how he treated his wife.

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