HEAVEN LOVE IN BISMILLAH

GUILT

Zahrana came home with shaky steps. Not the pleasure he received that twilight, but the pain of accidentally meeting the young man who once filled his heart.

He also did not expect to meet again, after a long time he did not remember his past again.

Not that he forgot completely, only that the past no longer means as much as Ajis means in his life.

"Sister, home?" Muslim rebukes make themselves flinch. He had forgotten everything other than his guilt towards the Aridiansyah earlier.

"Sister?" The Muslim rebuked himself.

"Oh... Hem.. Mus...? You've gone home to teach, Dek?" Zahrana asked nervously.

"just now. Brother home? Where's Bang Ajis?" Ask Muslim again while wailing behind Zahrana looking for the figure of his sister-in-law.

"Sister came home with Hidayat, Mus... It just so happened that Bang Ajis was traveling out of town for these two days to shop for goods at the stall." Zahrana answered beginning to take full consciousness.

"Owh... Where are the house people, brother? The door is open from the outside."

"Father and mother to the market bring Faiz and Faiza. Rianur brother same bang Edi go find coconuts he said. If it's Hidayat, you'll know for yourself..." Zahrana Papar.

"This is the house key, Deck... You go in first, you still want to be outside." said Zahrana, offering a key to Muslims.

Their relationship is still a little awkward due to their debate some time ago by phone. But they are still sister brothers who appreciate the meaning of a relationship.

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Aridiansyahs.

The young man knocked on the door of a room his parents used to live in when they were at home, with a pounding heart. Guilt rippled, reminiscing how hard he was in the past against his mother who he should have loved.

There was no reply, his hand pulled the doorknob slowly. The door leaf opened slightly, making her mother's body clearly visible as she was crying while hugging a small frame on her chest.

"Mother..." Call him in a hoarse voice stifled by the pain of seeing his mother's tired face.

"Mother..." Her master opened the door wide and continued to walk slowly approaching the figure of her mother who was also staring confused mixed a million yearnings against her.

"Mother..." The emotional feeling in him, made him rush his pace to pursue his mother's position.

"A-riy... Mothers... Mum..." Ari's mother rose from her seat to welcome the arrival of her only child.

"Ssttt..." Ari put her index finger on her lips, then she held her mother tightly.

"I'm sorry... Sorry, Mum... Sorry, Ari has been selfish and stubborn all along... Forgive the Mother's son who has never seen Mother's sorrow all this time. Sorry, Mum..." He said softly while continuing to strengthen his embrace.

Ari's mother forced her to take off their embrace. He clenched Ari's cheeks with both hands, then shook his head quickly, refuting Ari's confession.

"You're not wrong, honey... The wrong mother, son... A mother who can't be a good mother to you all this time..." Speak to his mother with tears growing.

"No, Mother... Stop blaming yourself to Ari, if you do not want to make Ari weaker because of this feeling of sin. If time can be turned back, Ari really wants to make up for Ari's mistakes, and tread on the pain that had been held up by Mother. Ari sinned, Mother... Ari sinned because he had been a disobedient all this time. Forgive Ari Mother... Forgive Ari..." Ari dropped herself and knelt before her mother.

"It's not Ari's fault, son... Don't blame yourself for this. There is nothing wrong, let the situation surrender. I believe, after this everything will be fine." Said Ari's mother while pulling Ari's shoulder up, and brought her to the edge of the bed to sit together.

"If Ari could understand Mom better, maybe I wouldn't be this sick to bear everything myself." Ari said with her guilt.

"already, son... Mother's son wants to hug Mother like this, it's enough for Mother. And the pain all this time seemed to have been treated for it." He smiled a little. A smile that had not appeared on his lips for a long time.

Ari's mother, the woman who already looks middle-aged, is watching Ari's face carefully. Trying to examine the feelings lodged in the chest of his baby. Then he gently pulled Ari's hand and kissed her son's palm for a long time.

"You must be sad... Tell me about it to Mom, son..." Pinta. Hoping to be a whole mother who had not materialized in him.

Ari's feelings intensified when her mother asked her this question. The thing she missed from a mother for so long. Like Zainab's mother, who can see the sorrow in her eyes.

"Mom can see it?" Ask Ari grimly.

"I'm sorry, son... Mom just asked him. You must have had trouble holding all this by yourself." Said his mother while wiping away the still naughty tears slipping out of her eyes.

Ari smiled, then returned the grasp of her mother's hand. He raised both his legs up on the edge of the bed, and then threw his head into his mother's thigh.

"With this alone Ari's feelings can be better, Mom..." Ari. He felt the soft elusan of his mother's hand playing in his head. "Ari dear Mother..." Reveal it while firmly in his mother's thigh. He had shed many tears of guilt and longing since he saw his mother's face the first time.

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