Grasping the Only Temporary (Revised)

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Riding his black motorcycle, Refan and Kian wade through a fairly congested highway tonight. Without reducing the usual speed, the motor was speeding away. But did not make Kian tremble and chose to hold on to his waist.

Refan had already rebuked Kian several times to hold on, but he did not heed it at all. Even when Refan plugged the gas impromptu, making Kian slightly staggered to the back until he finally relented and held the seat of the bottom of the motor to hold. Of course it made Refan upset.

Although the wind that passes is very strong and carries a temperature that is so cold does not make Kian look for objects that can warm the hand. Even for the cold it was so cold that he would not touch the back of the man who was piggybacking on him at the moment. It won't! It is better to die of cold than to do so.

Fifteen minutes passed, they finally arrived in front of the alley. Refan dropped it off right at the usual stop waiting for the bus.

"Aren't I anter in front of the house? Ntar lo be scrapped again." He said after receiving the helmet from Kian.

"So. The initial agreement was that. Nobody is going to stop me in this alley. You go home there! Thank you for bringing me." Ketus.

"Hn... Careful Ki."

He turned around after a few steps he took. Facing Refan who still has not advanced the motor, but provide lighting towards the road Kian.

"Lo why so weird! One thing Fan. If you are good to me just for manas-manasin Devan or revenge to him, I emphasize it will not work! Instead of you bothering yourself to do good with me, mending you the affairs of your life. And stop following me!"

After saying that sentence he passed, without listening to the reply of Refan himself. He walked away and ran fast.

Refan who listened and saw his behavior just smiled knot, then immediately stuck the gas after the back was no longer visible.

Sometimes I look back, just in case. Sometimes Refan can act as he pleases like Devan. Tau-tau is in front of him. But his worries did not happen. He can breathe a sigh of relief after making sure the body does not appear when he has entered the rented area.

The contract situation is very quiet. Naturally, who was still awake at the hour like today. Moreover, the residents of the rented area are women. They certainly slept very quickly. Even when he was awake at one night, he would often lurk out the window. He found nothing but solitude. He admitted that this area is no hobby to hang out or just stay up late. Its strategic location allows him to see the state of other contracts. Extinguished contractual conditions, indicating that they are all asleep.

"Poooh..."

He stopped stepping. After entering half the area of contact, suddenly his legs like exposed to glue so that he could not continue his steps. The feeling of relief with her sweet smile instantly dissipated like the wind.

His heartbeat was so loud that it sounded in his own ears. His body felt numb, and his face turned stiff. Now the tense atmosphere is surrounding it. His brain cannot think now.

The man turned around, until he found Kian who was staring in the middle of the rented field. He who was in front of Kian's contract immediately approached the girl when he saw her, leaving only ten steps.

Their eyes met each other. His face could not hide his worries. His breathing was irregular, not knowing what because he had run before, or indeed because of this man in front of him.

"Where from?" The voice broke Kian's daydream.

From now on, looking at him he did not have the courage to open his voice or even just say hello. His mouth is locked.

The man he had been waiting for for almost a month, never gave any news. But now he appeared suddenly making himself a little surprised. That look made his heart beat unbearable.

"Kian?"

The POV

He's comin! What should I do? I haven't seen him in nearly a month. I hope his family business is really done so I can see him every day.

Believe me not believe it, for three weeks more do not see the guy as there is less. But on the other hand, I don't want to bother him anymore.

He looked at me and asked me an ultimatum of questions, for some time I could hear his voice again. He also called my name. I know if he has called his name he is impatient and it is not good for me at all. But I don't know why I feel this way when he calls. Arhg... I'm going crazy this time!Okay, just focus!!

I was a little confused to answer the question for what reason. Should I lie? But honestly, it won't make him happy. Which is more angry.

"G-gue abis from warung. Laper suddenly came out to eat. Oh yeah, you tumben come to the contract. Wh why? Anyone want to say? How is Cafe Kak Arya? It's been over a week, and I haven't heard anything. Oh, you want to go in first? Sorry for the long wait---" I haven't finished talking, he's gone first. I have a lot of talk so he doesn't focus on his questions.

"Not lie! Honest where are you from?"

His voice suddenly made me tremble. A cold voice with great emphasis, "Gue isn't lying. I am a laper."

"Four 11 malems?" Ask probing.

"Yes." Yeah."

"But I've been reporting that you haven't been home all day. Lo where?"

Okay, now I'm deg-degan worse, worse than before. I have to find a reason to believe this guy. "Ih. know where you're from. No need to be sooty." I still want to pesen him before leaving without news yesterday. He told me to study. But... At least I smiled to cover my nervousness.

"Son Nari told me."

Damn it!! I should have asked sister Nari to cooperate so as not to tell this one guy. But I do know if he will come now. "Where does Narinya's foot go?" As if I didn't believe what he said.

"He's sleeping."

"Lo--"

"Gue's been here eight o'clock. Waiting for you who have not yet returned. Now where do I want to be honest?"

I'm resigned. I can't lie anymore if Nari intervenes. He must have told me everything. Huooh... My efforts to be independent and not difficult he will fail again.

"Where?"

"Lo is not the head of RT Devan. Why do you think that's it? That's my business, I want to work where cake is none of your business!" My voice started to rise, make a cover of what happened to me. I hope he doesn't talk about it anymore or talk about it.

"Why the hell, do you have to lie? Back to work until 11 o'clock, where's your study time? There are scholarships to pursue."

"Gue knows and it's none of your business anymore."

I'm angry, I'm sprained! And I don't want to talk about this anymore. I took a step forward hoping to get past him and enter the house immediately. Honestly, my body is tired of working and now it must be a Devan ladenin who is already a journalist.

Instantly, my sense of seneng suddenly faded and drifted to where because of his own actions. I actually wanted to invite him in and talk. And I'll also tell myself what I'm doing as long as there's no one. I was a little disappointed with his attitude. Like I was ready? Does he not believe in my abilities?

"You should still be living in your house. Not work and spend time on the road kayak gini. I'm sure if you say it well, your parents will give you a chance and you don't bother working to pay for this tough life."

I was shocked after the sentence just now. I turned around to squirm him down. "You mean?"

"Mending lo go home Ki. You can continue to live without having to cape work. You can say the same both your parents. Life is not good. Just focus on learning and proof to your parents if you can."

Suddenly my eyes were hot with what I said. If only my parents could persuade me and want to hear what I said, there's no way I'm standing here right now.

"Lo doesn't know anything about my family! Stop acting like you know everything, what's good or not for me!"

"Lo get out of the house because he doesn't want to be married? But you shouldn't be that selfish until your parents get sick!"

I step up, let's add deket same him. Until two steps are taken. "Where are you from?!"

"Jerry. He's the one who told me. Why lie to him? Lo says you were kicked out because you wanted to pursue your goals. Butwhat? Even if it's true, you should be working now. Not a waste of time."

I smiled cynically. Why the more source of Jerry I never touched let alone believe. I know his obsession is the same as me, but it makes me not like even always suspicious of him. And let me guess this could be another way he's gonna pull me home. "Wasted time?"

"Please, you shouldn't be that selfish. You should be grateful for still having parents who love you the same."

"Ck, laugh off Van. Do you talk about the love of parents, while you yourself? Is your business with your family finished? You always avoid from your loving father."

"Our story is different Ki."

"Yes, because every human being will never be the same, either their nature, circumstances, or even their destiny. And if they really loved me, they wouldn't do that!"

"Only matchmaking. You don't want to, you can say it in a good way. What makes you this selfish? I'm not the one I know."

"Only arranged? How well do you know me? Let's say I'm selfish and selfish. You do not understand how every day see your parents fight, your parents are rude to their own children, and you exist but never considered. I said Daren was a good father, but you never want to forgive him. So who's selfish now?"

"Kians...." Sluggishly.

All the shadows when I was at home seemed to re-run. Violent scenes that are not only aired to me taoi also to the mother. Not to mention about the woman who became a thorn in the household of father and mother. "And you know why I got out of that house? Because I think life is more fun to live alone. Where you don't have to marry a madman like him. And don't see the annoying scenes every day. Is it hard to live outside without parents? But I was wrong! Life was hard, and I met you. Lo nolongin me even with free. Lo Van's kindness, your kindness makes me like you!"

"Ki...." I'm sure I'm crazy for this shameful thing. Plus his surprised face. "Gue's told you how many times my life is dark, even--"

"Stop! I understand. I feel sorry for nothing, not because there is anything. And when I was at the rooftop, I realized you had no feelings for me. I even make people like you the same. I don't have a problem with any of that. So I asked you to no longer help me. So that I'm self-conscious and stop hoping for the same, Devan. You left a few weeks ago, and at least I'm grateful. With the departure of lo I can be independent and can really lupain lo. But I was wrong again. My life feels less because you don't exist. I'm sorry I didn't know Devan. But please, run out of this you far away me. I don't think my likes are bigger. Stop caring about me! Stop making any pretentious about my life." I paused a little bit of the sentence. Because my chest is getting sick. I don't want to fall in front of Devan! He can't know!

"Urusin aja lo life. Thanks because as long as I get out of the house you always help me. And the debt problem, you calm down. I learned how to replace all the costs. Even though it has not been collected all, I promise if it is enough I will meet you once again for the money. Thanks Van again. At least I'm glad I told you everything I know. And one more thing, don't trust Jerry too much if you don't want to get lost."

I turned around with sobs that continued. I don't even know when I'll stop. I am determined that I will not go back until I close the door.

I don't hate him, but always be next to him with a sense of like without reciprocity also I think it will not be good for me. Okay, I pull the sentence I hope his family business is really done so I can see him again every day. I don't think it's going to end happy ending.

Clack

I closed the rented door, and I got stuck behind the door with my legs bent, and my face hid in between. He hands me also curled my dry pour. I cry without making the slightest sound. I know that crying in the hold will hurt, but for others disturbed malem-malem also will not be better.

Not long I heard the sound of rain, even it seemed like the rain wanted me to cry fast so as not to be surprised by others.

I remember Devan. Until I get behind the side window of the door. The rain outside was quite sagging, just like when he nganter I came home to rain. And I saw he was no longer there. Thank goodness at least he would not be rained at that time.

I staggered into my room, it felt like my brain, mentally, was just as physically tired. Tired of the circumstances that keep coming and slaughter me without being able to ask anyone for help.

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