Friend, Only You.

65. Love Not Together.

"Love if you're not with the person you love is very painful." Juna said he was now beside Ivan who stood dumbstruck considering the affection shown by the couple. In the past, he and Ega had hopes of gaining happiness. Knitting household sakinah, mawaddah and warahmah. Together to His Jannah. Happy hope may still be desired only with different people. Now, the girl of his dreams is struggling to be happy with others not him. It was so wonderful to live that Ivan felt right now. He hopes to be happy with Ega to age or until the breath can no longer be sighed. In reality, the two of them were not destined to be together. Ivan, inevitably had to accept even though it was very painful.

Ivan turned his attention to the man beside him. He didn't know the man who greeted him but he knew that this man was one of Ega and Beni's best friends. Ivan smiled in response to this man.

"I'm Juna." Juna extended his hand to meet Ivan. They had not been able to get acquainted because they were too engrossed in their chat so they ignored each other.

"I'm Ivan, you must have known that?" Ivan welcomed Juna's hand.

"Yes I know it. Ega was so close to me that he was more open to me than Beni himself. He told me about the failure of your marriage. It was also very difficult to convince Ega to want to share. He chose to endure his own pain. For a long time he fell and closed the door of his heart. All this time he chose to be alone and was afraid to open his heart again. Not because he didn't move on but the trauma was imprinted in his memory. He's insecure of himself." Juna recounts what happened to Ega since their marriage failed.

"You still love him? I clearly saw the twinkle of love in those eyes when I looked at him." Juna immediately said straightforwardly as if confirming what was emanating from the net Male named Ivan Alkaeri.

"If I can be honest, I admit it. I had hope to return to our dreams. Meeting him is a wishful thinking but it turns out our meeting is not at the right time. I was late, she owned someone else and I was alone. What a joy this life is. That's not what I'm going to achieve." Ivan confirmed what Juna had said about his feelings for Ega. Ivan still keeps that flavor. If he later reunited with his Girl, Ivan would ask the Girl back. It was too late for the meeting to happen. He should not delay after deciding to part with his wife.

Juna was of course surprised by the honesty conveyed by Ivan. Not because Ivan still loves Ega but rather because of the word aloof spoken from him.

"What does that mean?" ask Juna curiously.

"At this time I'm alone no longer being the Husband of my ex-Wife. I am still the father of both my children. I've separated from the mother of my two children." Ivan answers a question from Juna who seems very curious.

"It's not because of Ega, is it?" ask Juna to investigate.

"No, Ega had nothing to do with our separation. There are problems in our household that I can not explain," replied Ivan sad to remember his household. He was trying to defend his home. Receiving his wife and giving her love still the separation happened.

"So so. Patience with Ivan. It is hard that Mas Ivan is facing but accept it all with our faith. Sorry I don't mean smartass but that's all we can do to calm ourselves down" Juna said, patting Ivan on the shoulder to encourage the man.

"Thank you" said Ivan, smiling.

Juna nodded in response to what was said from the man.

For a moment they were silent, enjoying the gurgling waterfall that seemed to try to comfort the heart of Ivan who was struck by heartbreak.

"You never know what it's like to love but not be together." Ivan took out what was in his mind as if challenging Juna to feel what was being felt at the moment. He was sure Juna didn't know that because the man had never experienced it. Ivan assumed that.

Juna smiled bitterly. This man had no idea what his heart was like now. He knows enough to know even more what it's like to not be together. He can no longer deny the fact that love shows his own face. I like a girl but that girl is not capable of reaching her. The girl is his best friend, Ega. I admit it too late. Why after the girl was possessed the new taste was bursting into the surface of her heart. From the beginning, he realized that. It was just that fear could not make him happy making him choose to let go. Long enough Juna was silent looking at the waterfall with a gurgling sound that resuscitated him from daydreams.

"You challenged me to feel it. Wh-wh-what for? to understand what your heart is like now" Juna said later. He took a deep breath and then breathed it out. For a moment Juna was silent, giving pause to the heart to organize himself.

"I was once loved by a woman. But the stupidity of this self, love that I do not know. I thought, that I am insensitive? or maybe it's the woman who didn't show her love clearly. The shame! that's the answer to why she chose to keep her feelings until she left me." Juna finally told me after a few minutes of self-relief in silence.

Ivan who was beside him chose to listen to the story of the man he had just known. He felt he had a different story but it ended the same that he was not together. He was curious about the continuation of this story because Juna suddenly fell silent.

"Is he tired of loving you?"

"Maybe that's what happened? She chose to give up and not fight for her love to sit together," Juna replied sadly. He looked at the drop as if looking for shade there. There is pain hiding behind a smile. The smile that managed to trick the person who was looking at him.

"What happened to him?" asked Ivan curiously. He looked at the man who looked strong on the outside and was hurt in his heart.

"He left this world and brought love for me with him" replied Juna steadfastly.

"I'm sorry, I reminded you of him." Ivan hurriedly apologized for his empathy for the Man beside him.

"No problem. Maybe that's our way of understanding each other. Share a story." After saying Juna smiled as if his smile was as an advice that whatever happens, whatever the burden of life and as difficult as anything we are living then smile. Make that smile the first step that we can move forward with happiness. Is not gratitude able to ease the weight of life we face.

"We turned out to be the same, had an impressive past" Ivan said.

Juna nodded in response to Ivan's words. That smile did not fade from his handsome face. Even so with Ivan, he displayed his best smile, saying it would be fine.

***

Relieved. Beni unraveled her embrace. He cupped the face, occasionally stroking the lips that looked swollen. There were thin cuts on the corners and bruises on the part. Beni was surprised by the results he did. He did not expect that what he was doing left a sense of pain there.

"I'm sorry, honey. I didn't do that intentionally. I don't understand why I'm jealous. I'm just too in love and afraid of losing you" Beni said sadly.

Ega returned elusan to Beni's face that looked guilty. She shook her head in disarray that she had no problem with what her husband was doing.

"Isn't that beautiful, I like it. Beni's sister didn't do violence to me. Beni just kissed me rough. Maybe for people who are not used to it, the actions that Beni Brother did could be categorized as physical and verbal violence. Beni sister could get hit on that? KDRT in the household." Ega greeted her husband by scaring him. Success, what he said was able to make the man before him speechless. There was regret on his face. Seemed Beni felt guilty and berated himself for hurting the woman he loved the most.

"I'm sorry" she said.

"Maha."

"Maha." Again, the sound of laughter echoed making the originally regretful face turn into a frown.

"Hem, it seems that you are happy to make your husband pout. Now it's my turn," said Beni immediately carry out the action. He tickled the slender waist of his wife. It's not enough there, Beni tickled the other sensitive parts. Of course Ega spontaneously screams out of foresight.

"Hahahaha, ticklish Brother."

"Not satisfied." Beni again attacked that slender waist.

"So Brother, amused. I can't stand it."

"Still want! I'm not gonna let you go. Who told me to tease me." Beni did not pull his hand which continued to tickle his wife's waist.

"Beniiiii, geliiiiii. I can't stand it. cukuuuup. Can you rest? I'm exhausted." Ega tried to escape from the clutches of her husband's hand. Seeing that, Beni let go of his wife and no longer judged her.

Beni invites Ega to sit while hugging his wife's body from behind. The sound of water adds to the romantic atmosphere that is very pronounced.

"Wife, please forgive your husband who may have hurt you. I'm just afraid of losing you, baby. Now not facing Nina anymore but increasing one that is Ivan Alkaeri. Men of your past and men are your first love. She still loves you, not ruling out the possibility of her taking a crack in my inattention. It's not just Ivan that I'm dealing with, there's Abang Juna who can take you from my grasp at any moment. Not to forget, Lexi who occasionally comes to snatch you. Why are these handsome men so interested in my wife. You know why?" Beni revealed the unease that was in her mind. Not that he was making or thinking but the fact that the three men loved his wife.

"Why?" ask Ega curiously. Because Beni does not continue the sentence which is the answer "why".

"For me because you're special" Beni replied sincerely.

Ega listened to her husband's answer. She was very special in her husband's heart. Unaware he shed his tears.

"Darling, why are you crying? did my words hurt you?" beni hastily wiped away Ega's tears. He looked at his wife's face very warm. He was very worried to see his wife crying for no reason.

Ega shook his head. She unintentionally made her Husband worry about her crying. She smiled beautifully affirming that she was happy.

"Thank you for choosing me. Thank you for loving me and making me a very special woman in Beni's heart. I was so moved that I couldn't hold my cry." Ega finally spoke up, explaining why his tears were spilling.

Beni grabbed the body and then brought on a warm embrace.

"I think I hurt you, I don't want to hurt you let alone make you cry out of disappointment. I just want to prick you to feel the freshness of our togetherness," said Beni stroking the head of Ega covered with hijab.

"Sir Beni don't worry about Mas Ivan. He's just the past and Beni's brother is my future. About Abang Juna's feelings, I know he loves me very much but the affection I know is only limited to the affection as a friend. Brother Juna thought I was his sister so he gave his attention to me. Everybody knows that, right? not just to me, to Nina as well. So you can't be jealous of Abang Juna, he's not a bad guy. Keep talking about Lexi, she's just suave." Ega tried to convince her husband there was only her in his heart.

"Also, Mas Ivan was not my first love but a handsome young man who was impossible to reach in wishful thinking was impossible" continued Ega while looking at the face of Beni who was sticking a chin on his shoulder.

"Who?"

"His name was Adha, at that time I had a chance to look at his face which I thought was very handsome. At that time he fell asleep unconscious with a deathly pale face but his pale face did not cover his handsome face. I enjoyed it so much that I finally realized that I shouldn't be caught. I was scared back then, because my fear made me run away from her." Ega tells who the man who first touched his heart.

Beni frowned. His brows fused in disbelief with what he heard. His wife's story leads him back in time.

"Why should you be afraid?"

"Because my face is so thick. Every day I enjoy the sun. For three years during Junior High I went back and forth to school on foot. Even so at High School, sometimes I walk home. My face was adorned with acne that worsened the look of my face. Plus striped, some of which are covered in bright colors while those exposed to the sun are very dark black. Who is not afraid, if suddenly Kak Adha wakes up and finds a ugly girl next to him. Not conscious, uh fainted again." Ega answered why at the time of the incident the man he helped did not find any trace of him.

"Hem, so is that it?" Beni tightened her embrace. He kissed the head of his friendly wife.

"Assuming you're wrong, the truth is I'm in love with that girl. Before I was unconscious, I had a chance to see beautiful eyes that looked so worried about me. When I woke up, I looked for those beautiful eyes on everyone who met me but in fact did not find the same neutrality as the girl's. Until I finally met you and found the beautiful Netra I was looking for." Beni revealed what had happened to her heart at that moment.

"Sir Beni, I did not expect that the man named Adha became my destiny" said Ega sparkling with love.

"I can't believe more, the beautiful girl I'm looking for is my own best friend and also the Mama of Anisa, our adopted daughter. I've guessed it's just that I haven't found any clues and evidence to justify it. You don't remind me anyway. Do you intentionally not remember me?" Beni also expressed her gratitude because God had reunited with her Girl.

"Where's Beni's hand" pinta Ega.

Beni extended her hand which greeted her hand link.

"Look, our colors are different. My skin is brown and my sister Beni's skin is very white. What does Beni think? I'm not going to be a minder" said Ega.

"Beautiful Kok, beautiful more colorful," said Beni tightened her finger link that seemed not to be missed.

Seriate.