Friend, Only You.
Chapter 36. Hearts Through.
*You accidentally nodded. Looking at your smile, stealing your laugh.
Your behavior, your candlestick can not be patted, I can not also cling.
Can you imagine my feelings, fill this heart.
Unexpressible and unspoken.
Time holds back my dreams, dampens my thoughts.
I fell and felt faint.
May this dream return, heal this deep wound of the heart.
Is there anything that can replace this feeling? Is there anyone who can?
(Lun Note )
*I kept quiet stealing your smile.
I'm silent enjoying your candle.
And I kept silent the first crack I felt.
Was I wrong to always remember him and why miss it there when I don't want to remember who.
Meet you like dew in the morning. It's cool but it's so stifling when it's gone by the afternoon because of course there's no dew anymore just like you there's nothing I see. Same, just stop for a while and then disappear*.
Finished Apple morning Ega returned to the Work Desk then continued his work. Last night he had stayed up only to finish his report until this morning his report was sent through WA to Admin in BPKAD.
" Thank God be finished too, in vain I stay up late." Ega said with a smile. He immediately tidied up his work and then continued the other work. When he was engrossed in his activities arrived - the Boss immediately called him.
" Mr Ega."
" Yes, ma'am." Ega answered while approaching his Live Boss was a young woman.
" Today Mbak Ega with Mbak Ana was assigned to visit Ketak SMEs in Darmaji Village. This is his Letter of Duty, sorry I just informed you because his Acc just came out." Said his Live Boss named Erika to Ega who was sitting in front of him.
" Good Mom, I also happened to have sent a Reconciliation report to the Asset Admin so I am not too busy." Said Ega ready to carry out the task given to him. He can walk around and rarely does he do fieldwork.
" Thank God, wait for Ana. I asked Ana to check the proposal that would be brought. All of you are both doing Verification of Equipment assistance to one of the recipients there. Oh yes one more invite Mr. Andi who will be your Driver using Operational Service Car." Erika's Mother.
" Good ma'am, then excuse me." Pamit Ega immediately carries out her Boss' orders then searches for Ana who is ready with her proposal.
Ega and Ana leave their Office for Darmaji Village with Andi Sang Driver. Kira - about 53 minutes they arrived at the village with a distance of about 43.3 km from Mandaram to the Village.
Once until Ega and Ana are greeted by one of Ketak Art Shop Employees. They are welcome to sit in the reception room while waiting for the presence of Craftsman Owner Ketak named Pak Kadri. From the explanation of his employee Pak Kadri was attending the wedding reception of his neighbor's son.
" Let's not see - just look at it while selfi, when else can we come here and take the background Ketak." Take Ana while getting up from her seat. Ana occasionally saw, occasionally Selfi and of course photographing products made from Ketak such as Bags, chairs and tables, tissue and various types of handicrafts made from other Ketak.
(Crafts from Tight ).
When Ana was engrossed in Selfi accidentally Ega saw the invitation lying just like that on a table made of Ketak. Ega took it does not mean kepo only the name listed there made him called to reach it.
" Athaghfirullah, did I misspell? What is the name on this invitation is the same as his name or maybe his name is the same but not him. In this world many have the same name but why do I feel if this name is him because this address is very clearly stated. He's the one I'm expecting his presence from and he's stuck with memories of being with him for even a moment." Inner Ega. Ega felt so claustrophobic but the girl tried to calm her mind. Maybe the name is the same as him, not necessarily him. To ensure that Ega immediately approached the place of celebration that is not too far from the Art Shop owned by Mr. Kadri.
It wasn't too long for Ega to arrive at the reception. Surely the man who gave her hope and offered her love was sitting with another woman instead of her. The man looks happy. Ega was instantly unsteady, like being struck by lightning.
Jedaaaaa
His heart was completely broken for the second time but this hurt more than Ivan ever did. At least Ivan never betrayed himself only Ivan was trapped by circumstances and customs that demanded he have to marry the girl. Unlike Ivan, Ega did not see him while Ega saw him with both eyes. Ega really got down. His legs seemed unable to support his limp body anymore almost he fell so surprised but again - again the shame was realized, He did not want to fall in front of the Man. Ega braced himself then chose to attend it and then walked with a sham towards pelaminan. Fortunately today was Thursday so it did not become the center of attention of those who were there when it arrived - he arrived who used stray service uniforms to reception people. Ega uses Weaving Fabric patterned Komak Flower black and yellow clothes so it is not visible if it is indeed his official clothes.
As he walked along, there was someone who saved him from something he might not have expected.
" No, you're invited too." Ask someone to pat her shoulder from behind.
Ega seemed to recognize the sound of a cry from someone who reprimanded him.
" Evan, thank God my friend doesn't look like a stray in the underworld." Said Ega pura - pura happy even though the heart feels pain. Ega tried to dispel his tears that were ready to slide then make a swift river flow.
" Who are you?" Evan asked, looking to the right and left, hoping to find something he knew, but found no one.
" Search who?" Ega asked confused by Evan's behavior.
" Find your partner but still alone and feel very comfortable. My best friend turned out not to sell - the same behavior as Group Band Wali, hehehehe." Ledek Evan.
" Who are you? Alone too?" Ega back to mingle his petty friend.
" Who said I'm not alone! just make it up to you!" Evan doesn't want to lose either.
" Where, I see you alone. Or maybe you're with an imaginary boyfriend. Halu huh? Ih Evan halu, just say alone too, that's how embarrassed I am." Ledek Ega tried to hide his broken heart. The wound was again in the same place and he had not had time to recover it and now it was back as if he did not want Ega to heal from his pain.
Evan turned his face back as if he was looking for someone. " Now that's it." Welcome him happy as soon as he saw the figure he was waiting for showing his nose was walking towards them.
" Born Juna, Brother Juna is coming too?" Guman Ega seemed to not believe what he saw.
" Hehehe, forgot."
" Loh Ga, are you here too? same who?" Juna asked was so aware of Ega's presence by Evan's side when his steps were in front of the two of them.
" Same Evan anyway now, if I had myself continue to come here my own as well but if the road from Mandaram to here my same friend, the three of us." The light of Ega that sounded noisy in the ears of the two friends.
" It's been a little complicated with her. meningan us directly to the Bride because I laper has not eaten this." Take Juna while herding his two friends to the pelaminan.
Arriving at Pelaminan Ega trying to hold himself which began to tight. Ega tried to take a deep breath and exhale slowly to calm himself. " O God strengthen my heart and calm my mind. Please allow my heart to accept this fate if the man in this house is not a servant soul mate and replace him better than himself." Ega prayer in the heart, only he and God know how broken his heart witnessed the wedding reception of a man who had asked him to accompany his life. But without cause and without breaking their relationship arrived - suddenly he was officially married to another girl who is now his Wife. If only he had not been assigned to visit Ketak SMEs today then he would never have known that the men he expected were married. Will he always wait for her and hope without knowing that hope is fake.
The groom welcomes Evan with happiness and he is not yet aware of Ega being behind Juna's body.
" Happy Bro, may you be Sakinah, Mawaddah and Warohmah. Turns out you stole the start from me, cheated on you. No news at all arrived - suddenly came the news uh turned out to be a wedding invitation." Evan said at length while patting the Bride's shoulder.
" Thank you Van."
" It's been a while? What the hell are you talking about, this pegel." Juna said on the sidelines Evan chat with the Bride Boy.
" Eh turns out there is Abang Juna, who is Bang? looks like there's a tail." Ask the Bride the man who saw someone behind Juna.
" I found him at the end of that road. I'm afraid he'll be me, hehehe." Juna replied.
" Bad Juna is evil ah, so much the same as me." Said Ega pura - pura sad but in reality Ega really - really sad again.
Hearing the familiar voice of the Bridegroom looked for the source of the voice and how shocked he was when his eyes collided with the broken Ega bead. At that moment the groom turned sad when he saw the presence of the girl in his heart may still be there until now. He lowered his face unable to look at Ega's face. At first he was very happy but when he saw Ega's face immediately his face turned moody.
" Hey bro, good luck being the family of Sakinah, Mawaddah and Warahmah." It is Juna's turn to congratulate the Bride and also pray for happiness for both brides.
Juna turns to the Bride then comes down from the brides. Now it is Ega's turn to congratulate the man where the second was still in his heart but now Ega must immediately eject him and even drag him out of the recesses of his heart if necessary throw him as far as possible so he no longer meets her. This was the last time he saw the man who had successfully given him hope and then crushed that hope right in front of him.
" Congratulations, Barakallahu laka, wa baraka 'alaika, wa jama'a bainakuma fi khairin wa 'afiyah." Ega Prayer in front of the Bridegroom. Finished praying Ega smiled sweetly then clenched his hands together. The bridegroom bowed with sadness, he tried to hold back his tears that almost escaped. There was a sense of guilt infiltrating the recesses of his heart for not being able to keep his promise to the Sweet Girl before him.
Ega turned to the Bride and gave a prayer for her and left the woman with a firm step.
Ega did not linger long to accompany Evan and Juna because he had just left Ana in the Art Shop Pak Kadri. In a hurry Ega left the wedding reception the man had in his heart and would not turn his head again.
Arriving at the Art Shop Ega diomelin the same Ana because she had left him alone without a message. Ana is really confused especially the Ega mobile phone can not be contacted.
" Where the hell is that? I almost wanted to report a missing person named Baiq Ega Fajrina." Ana looks upset at having left her alone.
" I'm sorry, I just met you so I forgot. Sorry, Ana is beautiful." Ega clasped his hands together to apologize while flattering his coworker.
" Yes already, this time forgiven next time ogah." Ana still looks upset.
" Wualah is not sincere, sincere dong mbak Ana let her beauty double plenary." Ega's seduction makes Ana smile.
" I'm sorry without being annoyed."
" Thank God, then we continue our work." Said Ega trying to nurture his spirit. This is the only way to escape from the shadows of sweet hope with men who are now legally the Husband of another woman.
Completed verifying grant recipients. Ega and Ana leave the Village back to the Office. For less than an hour they have arrived at the Office but the state of the office is quiet. Ega immediately left his office feeling devastated when he got home Ega rushed into his room. Ega let go of everything and in the dark corner of his room Ega cried as if he had spilled all the tightness that was being held up earlier. Maybe he could hold it back and pretend to be strong but he was just a human who would be weak when his heart was hurt.
" O God is very sick." Said Ega trying to hold his chest that feels pain.
" It really hurts, this heart hurts and this chest hurts. I can't stand it, I can't stand why it feels this sick." Isak Ega tried to endure the pain in his chest.
Ega hit his chest and cried as if. The pain in his chest was excruciating the more he tried to toughen up the pain was increasingly trying to burst out and now Ega was slumped in his lonely and silent life. During this time she tried to endure the pain of being left by her future husband the day before the marriage contract took place and now again - again another man stabbed her right in the same wound and doused her with water hard makes it worse. His heart was completely broken to pieces and it felt impossible to stick it back intact.
" Aaaaaaaargh, sakiiiiiiiiiiit." Shouted Ega could no longer endure the pain in his chest. Although he struck as hard as he could, the pain grew - so as to laugh at his helplessness.
Ega was only able to cry sitting alone in the corner of her room. Drowned her face on both of her knees that she hugged. His knees were as if a backrest upon which He sustained his fragile heart.
" Hikz, hikz, hikz." His wife echoed in his room as if accompanying him.
" Hikz, hikz, hikz."
*If I knew meeting you to be this sick then I would never allow your sweet words to touch my heart.
If I knew meeting you just wanted to spread your false promise then I wouldn't allow that hope to exist.
But now I can what?
I've been hurt, so what?
Happy you saw me fall.
How you see me in pain.
Satisfied are you to see me destroyed so badly that you can no longer rise.
Now laugh 'cause you won and I lost with the situation*.
Seriate.
