Forgive Me, Love

74. No Caring

" Bi, did Boby never ask me as long as I wasn't home? " tanya Novia to bi Susi

" Boby.had never come home since fighting with mbak yesterday. "

" He really doesn't care about Novia bi. " Novia began to shed tears.

" O Boby....Mas Boby... had another woman bi.hiks...hiks..."

" Mr Novia don't think a no-no. "

The Novia Tangis is becoming. " Nov see for yourself bi...Novia saw for herself." said Novia in tears.

" Novia see Boby mas with other women in mall bi. Boby looks happy." he continued.

Bi Susi hugged Novia. She was crying too. Aunt did not think about her employer. Why Boby can cheat. His wife is also beautiful, kind, smart. Especially the one Boby was looking for. Bi Susi thought, she should tell all of this to her great mistress.

" The woman was spoiled with Boby bi. And Boby doesn't mind. " Novia is crying again.

" What's wrong Novia bi? What's wrong with this kid bi? Why would his father prefer another woman to his wife and children??"

" Mr Novia who is patient yes." said bi Susi calming while rubbing Novia's back.

" If this continues, Novia will not be strong bi.... Novia better get out of this house. "

" Mr Novia don't talk like that. Ma'am Nov can't leave. Nov has to be strong. At least for the sake of this baby. "bi Susi stroked Novia's stomach.

Novia stopped crying remembering the baby in her womb. He remembered Candra's message. His son needs him. He must be strong for his son. Well...He can't be sad anymore.

Novia wiped her tears. " Nov will try to be strong bi. For her sake " said Novia while stroking her stomach.

" Novia better rest first. Let auntie prepare the food. "

Novia nodded and walked towards her room. He put his body on the bed. He tried to close his eyes. But again the shadow of Boby joined with other women appeared.

Novia was back with tears. Piteously. Crushed. Heart slashed. When she begins to feel love for her husband and when she is happy with the presence of a child in her womb, she must accept the harsh reality. A heartbreaking reality. Her husband chose another woman.

Novia feels sorry for giving her heart, giving everything for Boby. But it turns out Boby was a b*Ng***. Now Novia feels herself only in tools. Boby never liked him. Especially love. Boby just wants his body. After he got it, he just threw it away.

Novia was crying, roaring. This time he felt a great pain. Only this time did he feel hate and love for someone at one time.

Suddenly he felt his stomach hurt. His lower stomach was cramping. He grimaced with pain. He can't complain. Because he can't complain to anyone.

" Mother.mom..stomach Novia is sick ma'am." said Novia mumbled to call her mother.

Novia really wants to hug her mother. Crying in his mother's arms. Telling everything. But he couldn't. He could not see his parents thinking about him. For years, her parents thought about her. Now he doesn't want to be a burden anymore.

" My son, you are strong, son. Follow your mother. You should be fine " Novia said as she stroked her stomach.

Gradually, the pain disappeared. Novia fell asleep after the pain disappeared.

••••

The day keeps changing. Boby only occasionally comes home. He always tries to avoid Novia. Novia also felt reluctant to greet her husband.

Although almost every night he cried because he remembered Boby's treatment all along. But at the same time, she missed her husband too. He misses the happy moments they had. She missed falling asleep in her husband's arms.

For a few nights he could not sleep well. Because she wanted so badly to smell her husband's body. Maybe it is the desire of the baby who also misses the figure of his father.

That night, she found out that her husband was coming home. She wanted to see her husband. Novia walked out of her room. She looked for her husband in every corner of the house. But he didn't find Boby.

Finally his feet went to Boby's room. He stopped at Boby's door. Novia raised her hand to knock on the door. But his hands felt heavy to move to knock. He could not and did not dare to knock on that door.

Novia squeezed her clothes with one of her hands and lowered her head while shedding tears. The other hand touched Boby's door. As if by touching the door, she could feel the existence of her husband.

He woke up from his sleep. Rubbing his face rough. Then stand walking near the door. At the door, he stopped.

Boby was worried. If he were to meet Novia now, he would definitely give Novia some hope. And it will definitely hurt even more for Novia. While Boby did not want to add to his wife's heartache.

Besides, he couldn't let Karell either. The woman he had been waiting for for his arrival for years.

Boby can only squeeze the doorknob and stick his forehead to the door leaf that is still closed. Resist his heart from seeing his wife.

Outside the door, Novia gradually changed her body position to turn back. Novia decided not to see her husband. He walked to the back house. Looking for Susi bi.

Tok.dok.. Novia knocked on the back door.

Bi Susi opened the door. Aunty was a bit surprised, what happened Novia these nights came to her room.

" Sir, tumben night-night..."

" Bi, Boby was coming home. Did the clothes he was wearing just now go to aunt? "

" Yes, it's mbak. That's aunt put it in the basket. "

" Not washed yet, is it?"

Auntie shook her head.

" Can you please get me the one with the shirt? "

" What do you do, mbak? It's still dirty " asked auntie confused.

" Novia just wants to bring him to bed bi. Nov can't sleep a few nights. Maybe the little guy misses his dad. Maybe if Novia smelled the smell of Boby mas, Novia could sleep bi. Maybe the little one wants Novia to go to bed. "

Tests.Inadvertently tears bi Susi dripping. Not to be bothered with what Novia experienced. But he quickly swiped before Novia saw him.

" For a moment, I'll get it. "

Bi Susi walked into the laundry room. Auntie took Boby's dirty shirt while crying. Before he came out, tears were shed from his eyes and cheeks.

" It's mbak. "aunty handed the shirt to Novia.

" Thank you bi. " Novia turned back on her body.

" Mom.." call aunt.

Novia.

" Mr Novia has not eaten rice for several days. Ma'am Nov just snacked the same as drinking milk. Mmm... mumpung mas Boby at home, do not Nov want to eat something? It used to be that Novia would eat ravenously if Boby mas were a bribe. "

Novia shook her head while smiling full of bitterness.

" Let the aunt say the same Boby. "

Novia shook her head quickly. " Don't bi. No need. Novia doesn't want to hear a rude remark from Boby's mouth anymore. If Novia's mouth wants to eat, Nov must eat bi. "

Novia continued her steps back to the room. He locked the door to his room. Then get on the bed. Tears trickled back while hugging and kissing Boby's shirt that was on his request from aunt. Novia finally fell asleep curled up while hugging the shirt all night.

Thanks to that shirt, Novia was able to sleep that night.

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