Fear Aida

Failures

I walked down a corridor leading to a meeting room for doctors if there were press conferences or other official special events, I'm sure Charlotta and Aida won't be there because it will be completely opposite to where they were hiding earlier. I deliberately did it to further confuse the police, for the case that happened earlier I still have suspicion on Rick and Shane even though I have to admit Rick killed the traitor.

Amidst the noise of sirens outside the building, I kept trying to increase my alertness. Don't want a little slack because if that happens, it could be me, Aida, or Charlotta will be doomed. "Wait, what about Rachel and Dr. Robert? are they safe?" I asked in my heart, at that time I immediately ran at the intersection of the corridor to go to the main room of the doctor. There usually the doctors will gather in the middle of his break while working, but I'm not too sure if at times like this the doctors will gather there.

When I reached the room, I immediately opened the door and saw the condition of the room. Here also seen many traces of shots both in the glass and walled, it seems the attack was carried out evenly in all corners of this institution building. As I thought, there's no one here anymore.

Slowly I was about to close the door, but I heard the sound of the closet slowly knocking. It was so faint but I could hear it clearly if the sound was coming from inside the room, I undo the intention to close the door of the room and then settle - the precipitate walked closer to one of the cabinets that I suspected the knocking sound was coming from there.

Only armed with a small wooden block that I could hold well did I open the closet door slowly.

"By!!" rachel yelled in the closet, she looked very frightened and her body also shook violently.

It must have been hard for Rachel, the shooting was indeed terrible to happen in a place that should be safe for shelter. I understood what Rachel was feeling and seeing her fear made me want to immediately give her a sense of security.

"Brahel!! Rachel!! it's me!" I tried to wake him up from the panic

At that moment I realized Rachel was trying to save our fellow doctor who was shot right in the chest, with blood flowing so much that the doctor's distinctive white shirt is now changed to blood red. His body was already lying stiff in Rachel's lap, it seemed like he could no longer be saved. Instantly I understood what Rachel was afraid of was more than I could have imagined. My anger towards the perpetrators of the attack has also risen.

These eyes are now staring to look for any injuries Rachel might have suffered, but it looks like she just got a stain - a bloodstain from our colleague who was shot. I immediately threw away the wood I was holding while pulling the corpse that was holding Rachel's movements in the closet, after which this hand pulled Rachel's arm to get her out of the closet.

I tried to wake her up and ask her to find a safe place, but Rachel went into a deep shock that left her unable to stand. Rachel rested on the floor and I immediately hugged her tightly, I hope she immediately vent her emotions so I know her mentality is fine.

"Rachel... calm down, it's all done. You're safe now" I said again trying to calm him down, at once Rachel's cry broke but it made me relieved because the cry signified Rachel managed to control the shock she experienced.

I let her cry in my arms, gently caressing Rachel's long hair that she doesn't normally let unravel while working. It's not strange for me to see a woman hysterical and panicked in the middle of a situation like this, because that's the natural thing that happens to them in the middle of a situation between life and death. Charlotta was the exception, my thoughts about who Charlotta really was back tickled me. Either he's a friend or an opponent, but for now I have to believe that he also intends to save Aida.

"What... Andrews...? why is it like this...?" rachel asked in our silence, I sighed for a moment and then said...

"I don't know why this could happen, but soon I'll find out the cause, I'll try to keep her away from you to keep you safe" I replied, Rachel encouraging me to let go of my hug on her back then.

"That's not a problem!! if it's Aida they're after, let Aida stay safe with a military escort or whatever!! you are no one - who, Andrews!! you can also die from something like this!! don't force your luck!!" timpal Rachel with a snap

Rachel's words are not entirely wrong but also not entirely true, Aida was supposed to be in a safe place with the right escort but I needed and wanted more than that. Aida is a patient I have to deal with, with me Aida shows a good improvement and I can definitely heal her mentally besides Aida is a key witness to Daniel's involvement in this mafia case. There's still a lot I have to solve and the police agency is still hard for me to trust being able to keep Aida from uncovering this big case.

"Rachel... You know I can't do that, Aida is very important to.." I'm not done yet saying, Rachel chimed in with a bang and full of anger...

"He's not who - who for you!! You could die silly because of Aida!! understand if until you why - why - I will be very sad. stop acting like a super hero... Andrews.." said Rachel, when she returned to shed her tears.

Maybe he's right, I'm not who. Thinking of being a hero to save Aida from the clutches of the mobsters who intend to kill her, who am I? I'm just a psychiatric doctor, there's no obligation for me to save her at the cost of my life, but all that if I'm a person who has a purpose to live.

Andrews who now has no purpose in life except to make Aida able to live again among people without fear, after the incident that befell Celline... Andrews had died with him, as had all his pride and arrogance. On behalf of Sir Steve Smith and Andrews, who will now be heroes, even though that means I have to sacrifice my only life, all for the sake of the patient. I have a responsibility for that, as his doctor and also on my professional oath.

"I'm not who to Aida, but I can't do what you're suggesting. I have no purpose in life other than to protect her, Rachel" I firmly chimed in

I know how much Rachel worries about me, the love she has for me I can still feel so great even though I can't repay her with the same feeling back. Since my departure Rachel has lost many of her closest people, she certainly does not want to lose me either. But my determination to return to being a dedicated doctor Lee wholeheartedly was very unanimous and I did not want to stop, this was also my penance for Celline.

"Rachel forgive me for everything that happened, I know I hurt you and I don't know how to forgive you. Perhaps this is the last thing I can say to you. Live happily without thinking about me, I will always pray for your happiness and.." I have not finished saying, I have not finished, Rachel slapped me so hard and we went back to each other.

No sooner did Rachel stand with tears dripping so profusely down the floor, I did not have the courage to look her in the face because my guilt was too great for her. Not long after I saw Rachel step her foot out of the doctor's office, she left me alone in this room with all my guilt on her. I let Rachel pass without chasing after her, I don't want to give any hope to Rachel.

My relationship with Rachel has been falling apart for eight years, and I didn't know what to do with everything that happened between me, Rachel, and Celline. It was all my fault, doctor Lee took everything from me and now there's only a loser named Andrews Hopkins left.

I stood up from my crush and took a tablecloth to cover the body of my colleague who was shot dead, after making sure she was well covered by that time I immediately walked out of the room to go back to look for Charlotta and Aida. At the end of the hall I saw some police combing this place and I immediately called him with a hand gesture, I said if my doctor colleague died inside.

With a few people from the rescue team evacuating the bodies immediately, it seems like things have started to be conducive at this time and I am sure soon I will get an explanation of what happened. I just hope Aida and Charlotta are really in a safe place, because between friends and opponents really is not clear the difference.

A policeman approached me and asked me about my situation, I told him I was fine and that I had just left them to look for Aida and Charlotta. Seeing the noise inside this institution building, it seems that the situation outside is really resolved properly. At least I no longer hear the sound of gunfire, only the sound of sirens left unpretentious.

In the second-floor corridor I walked through each room, until I finally reached a doctor's headroom. At that instant I remembered that I had not known how Dr. Robert had been so far, I knocked on the door several times but there was no answer from anyone, I don't know if Doctor Robert's gone or if something bad happened to him.

I opened the door slowly and peered inside the room to check inside through the small opening, but the situation there looks good - fine without any sign - if this room gets an attack. Unlike other rooms that look chaotic due to bullets, here really not touched in the slightest by bullets fired by criminals.

Wonderful, but I keep trying to think positively, maybe the criminals did not shoot because it does not look people in this room. Unlike other rooms that are visible activity, the doctor's headroom is special for one person and it is possible that Robert's doctor did not have time to enter the room when the attack occurred.

I wanted to close it back, but a file on the table caught my attention. There is only one file with a map that looks familiar to me, I really recognize what the file is because I have worked here for a time that can not be said for a moment. The map is a special map for every entrance test participant in the institution, is I am the only prospective doctor at least in this year who applied in the middle of the year.

After strengthening my resolve, I ventured to enter the room and took the file. I slowly opened it up and read through every result, but the thing that surprised me was the fact that I failed all the tests. I did not manage to pass the competence as a psychiatric doctor and what was more surprising to me was the fact that if I had an early stage psychiatric disorder, I was declared psychotic.

I could not say - words at that time, I have read all the data and if I have to be honest then I say if I can indeed be declared psychotic through these written data. But I don't feel like I've experienced it, whatever I've said and told you is the truth. My fear has become reality so many times. I'm not hallucinating with any of that, it's an insult to me.

I close the file and then I put it back on the table exactly as it was, I'll act ignorant of the results I just read. I don't know why Doctor Robert didn't tell me about this result right away, but he would have reasoned if this morning's attack was the reason he didn't immediately tell me about the results he had obtained from my competency test. I can't wait to hear the reason even though I already knew it would be the classic answer, I already know what will happen in the future.

"Andrews!! are you still inside?!! Andrews!! this is Simon Dalton speaking!!!"

The sound of Mr. Simon being amplified with a loudspeaker was clearly heard in my ear, I immediately ran towards a room where I would be able to see out of the window in the room. Behind the window I saw the parking area of this building was filled with tight security from the police, the atmosphere outside was also very safe and conducive. I opened the glass window and looked at Mr. Simon from the second floor, not knowing when he was there.

"Master Simon!! I'm fine!!" I shouted to attract his attention, with a smile that looked relieved Master Simon looked at me.

"Thank God you are safe!! what about Aida and Charlotta?!" still speaking with a loudspeaker Mr. Simon says, I was afraid that a traitor in the building would listen to our conversation and he had hope of finding Aida and Charlotta before me.

"He is with me!! they are fine!! I'll be right down and see you!!" I answered and then closed the window again after getting a hand gesture from Mr. Simon.

I ran to find Aida and Charlotta and I believe one thing is that they have not been found by anyone and both are in the same building as me.