Faithfulness

COUNTERING EGO

I was lying limp when I got to the room. The night shows his friendship with the light of the moon and the stars. Wait for the beautiful and soothing eyes of this heart, work and creation of God. God is so great and romantic, the proof is that He is not willing to leave the moon alone to light up the darkness of the night. Look at the very high stars He created, in order to accompany the moon, reflecting and refracting its light to everyone who needs it. What a glorious and glorious.

When I lay down I thought I would be Lia. I just took the phone next to the pillow and opened it. It turns out that on the main screen there is the name Lia. And that made my heart happy because there was a seven times missed call from Lia. I also felt calm because he was still contacting me. But even so I still feel sorry for him because I didn't have time to lift him.

An impatient feeling will listen to his voice, already unbearable in my mind and heart. Without waiting for long I called him.

 

"El, I'm looking for food first. You don't want to eat that Hospital food, what do you want to order?" Pio. Immediately my plan to call Lia had to stop for a while, in order to answer and listen to Pio's words.

 

"What do you want to eat?" Ask him.

"Crazy you, you who are sick even return.. Or your body gets hotter, let me call the doctor, fear you are mentally disturbed" replied Pio seriously who made me want to laugh wide at that time.

"Kampret lu, kirain I'm crazy." My answer.

 

"As far as you are, you're foraging whatever it's up to. What you want to eat. I'm gonna eat that. Down here is my wallet." I said shoving a wallet, so he could use my money.

 

"I'll be back at the boarding house to take a shower and after that I'll pick up Chiko, she says she wants to come here too." Pio said as he walked out.

"All right, I'll wait. Thank you"s yeah bro." I closed the conversation while picking up my phone again.

  

After that, I just called Lia. Ringing indicates that the hadphonenya is active, I once glanced at the clock on the phone, afraid he woke her if she was sleeping. I was surprised that he answered my phone.

 

"Hallo" The voice sounded from my phone speaker. My heart instantly changed hearing him speak to me back then.

 

"Hallo Lia." How come I'm back to him.

My sadness began to sulk again, and without further ado I just wanted to apologize to him for what I said this afternoon.

"I'm sorry about that, I didn't pick up your phone because I didn't hear the phone ringing, Are you still mad at me El? " She apologized to me. 

 

"Whether you are innocent, in the least, I am wrong, how not, ignoring someone's concern and worry for me is a shameful folly. I'm really sorry about that. I've spoken rudely to you. Shouldn't talk of someone who remembers me, I reply with a bad word at the ears of the women who are weak hearted like you. I'm sorry Lia." I said while holding back the sadness on my face with a soft tone of speech.

 

I only remember, if I had promised not to put and show her sorrow. And it can't happen again. After that conversation, not a single word was heard by Lia.

 

"Lia?" call me because it's true he's just silent.

 

"Yeah El. " Answer Lia slowly.

"Why didn't you answer my apology?" Ask again. 

 

I was afraid he was sad at the time. Really scared it would happen. I don't want him to be sad just because of my stupid mistakes anymore. I am enough to bear for him.

 

"You shouldn't apologize. It's natural that you talk like that! I promised not to call and look for you. But I broke that promise. It's really worth talking to me about." Say it again in a soft tone of voice.

 

"No Lia, you're not wrong, I'm the one who should be apologizing. Even if you promise me that, for me if you deny just for your fear of me, I am very happy. I'm sorry my Lia ego covered all my love and love for you. I realize that besides you wanting me to change to escape my bad thoughts, I'm also starting to realize that if you want me to no longer keep and put my ego first when I'm with you, before you take me back." I answered with a word that did not know where it came from, as if this mouth spoke as sincerely and based on how I felt.

"No El, you can't let me make and break my promise like that. You have to be firm with me. From now on you can't act like that. Do you want to forgive my mistake? and I hope this mistake tomorrow I won't make again. I promise I won't deny it anymore." It was his words that made me pause for a moment to hear his words.

"LIA"

Like my heart and soul. Why should I be silent on something like this. Actually with this alone it is very possible for him to scold me as badly as possible. 

"Lia suffice you to say in such a way, and remember Lia that I am yours and you are mine! I know and you know we love each other. You punished me for a very good reason. To be honest it's not good, I force you to kiss and do things that hurt your heart, when we have no official ties. You know that mistake I will take and make it fall apart, when I find you again. Lia, I sincerely love you. Do not forget me in remembrance of your dreams and your days. Remember me every time you breathe out every day you go through." His words softly gave me strength to recover quickly from my grief.

He who should need me to be encouraged is sick, not turned to me for strength to stay strong. I was stunned so embarrassed, she expressed her love and hope to me. I felt guilty once, having to try it by leaving it.

But I felt, it was not wrong that I gave my heart and love to him. For me Varel is a special man who never gives up and retreats from even the big things I have. I promise that he is a man whom I will not give to any woman who is on this earth.