Faithfulness

LIA'S DECISION

 

"Where do I run? I don't know where else I'm gonna stand. " I said, not with her words.

 

"Just go far away, don't you ever put your hopes on me, didn't I tell you when we were together, don't you put your hopes on me?? Throw away your race, do not make me feel disturbed again by your presence. " Reply Lia.

 

 

As if I had destroyed everything that was good for him, the word came out of his mouth that was never that harsh.

 

"What made you pass me? Don't you say, that problem a year ago you made an excuse to pass.? Less struggle, and my tears for you?. " I answered while holding back my tears. Maybe if there was someone else near me then, then I would be stamped as a man who was weak in heart.

 

"Well, the problem is overshadowing me. For so long I have accepted you not only for your love, but for your compassion and for not being able to leave you who seem weak without my affection." Lia said.

 

Hearing that word from Lia's true mouth, this heart wanted me to lose, so that I could die for this unrealized great hope. But of that, I really can't hear it, just the word defense that can come out of my mouth.

 

"Such shall the women, this one sinful error of Adam, be remembered for life, without thinking of his own guilt before others. " Cut me in self-defense, cut off his words.

 

"If you knew about it, why do you still wish for me? Now that you have freedom, don't expect me anymore." Said Lia to me who dropped my race, like a sun that was glowing must be lost covered with cloud cloud over.

 

"Well, you forget who's been bearing love for these two years, it's easy for you to throw away the soul of this front-line lover, a burning spirit chasing after the love of a girl of women like you." I said defend myself again.

 

I was really confused should he reveal it again. I'm really tired of hearing that, or maybe my love didn't get to her.

"Lia"

 

 

He thinks I made this for my own good? Don't know anymore, I almost died to reveal this. It's just that my heart feels that this is the only best way to be able to see him rise up much better someday.

 

" Yes, that's the truth. After that incident I no longer love you. All I know is a grudge against what you did at the time. I'm just asking after this, I don't want you to hope anymore. There will be no more hope for you. Please fight after what you want." I was rude to him. I knew that if he would answer he could leave me, even if he had to and lie to himself.

But what I'm doing right now, there's one thing I'm afraid of, which is if he really leaves without fighting, and leaves me forever. I honestly don't want to be left behind by someone I love so much.

 

"You forgot in this place, you and I made a promise about it, I ventured to ask for your little finger in response to your apology even to death. You smile, happy about what you want to happen. For six months I prepared everything to dare to state it directly. We were so far away before, but right now, does God just bring us together to say goodbye? For me it is not. I'm not leaving you. Please go far, wherever you want. But one thing you must remember! If the time comes I will look for you to say a new love for you. And I pray that God wills you to be queen when I grow old. Goodbye to those who no longer love me. Now you're free to leave, because we don't have the relationship we used to have. What you want today I will obey, just as we were together before. I'm leaving here." Reply loudly.

Hearing her answer was my heart crying, but I started where maybe I should cry in front of her. I squeezed my own hands as hard as I could to get through this.

 

"Varel"

 

" Yes, that's the truth. After that incident I no longer love you. All I know is a grudge against what you did at the time. I'm just asking after this, I don't want you to hope anymore. There will be no more hope for you. Please fight after what you want." Said Lia lightly in a rude manner.

 

I was a little upset about it, even though I was crying but I kept having to endure this pain. Can't be stuck here anymore.

"You forgot in this place, you and I made a promise about it, I ventured to ask for your little finger in response to your apology to death though. You smile, happy about what you want to happen. For six months I prepared everything to dare to state it directly. We were so far away before, but right now, does God just bring us together to say goodbye? For me it is not. I'm not leaving you. Please go far, wherever you want. But one thing you must remember! If the time comes I will look for you to say a new love for you. And I pray that God wills you to be queen when I grow old. Goodbye to those who no longer love me. Now you're free to leave, because we don't have the relationship we used to have. What you want today I will obey, just as we were together before. I'm leaving here." My words give an answer. I gave that answer in earnest, undaunted by what I was going through, even though I knew it was going to be heavy.

Lia was silent to hear that. But I'm sure, because it feels like the one that has been covered with revenge won't make him too sad. If it was true that Lia was sad at that time, it would definitely not be as bad as the sadness I bear.

After dipping away with the tears that wanted to burst from within this eyeball, I quickly left without even looking at her face. It was powerless of my heart at that time.

The incident at that time was not my desire. But it happened, because Lia still clearly remembered how I did a year ago. The mistake where Lia felt devastated, because the person she loved dared to kiss her who was still so innocent of it.

For me it was normal in dating initially, but it was not for Lia who was new to love at that time. He would not accept if he did such a thing. Plus I was the first person he loved. I felt so guilty after that.

Lia too often left me because of the problem, but she also could not see the sadness I was suffering. But after a year passed he did not think much more to reveal that I had to part with him. In the end, we broke up and were no longer together.