Faithfulness

PROMISE MEANING

My path was not as strong as the expectations I had wanted to achieve all this time. Deadlock, perverted do not know the direction. The vagaries of waiting, as well as the hopes that depend on it. That's how I felt, like the fog covered up and lost my mind.

"He just disappeared from me. I don't know if it can't be erased from his memory. Want to scale the incident did not happen yesterday. What a fool I am, I have made all men the same as they are. I was disappointed in myself for lying to him, hurting him and letting him go. "

I fell asleep that morning until noon. There was no thirst, no hunger, no anxiety with me. If only God wanted to call me today. I will hope first that I can forgive him before I actually leave.

I was confused as to what I should do. Wherever I don't know. Isn't that a fatigue in maintaining a feeling, which I often call love.

The hotter the day, the more my pain spreads. I also took samples of the work he had written. I speak with meaning. In his work he stated that he would not give up on anything. And how he talks about that anything that stands in the way of fighting will be destroyed by the power of his love for me.

Down under me. Can't do anything. Just begging her to meet me and tell me everything.

I have to apologize to him. I have to be honest with him about everything I did a month ago and yesterday. I don't want him to bother chasing the things he actually got.

With the power of my love who wants to seek it. I woke up from my sleep. I sat down on an old wooden chair. Reflecting on her, the same as she always mused her love on an old bench in front of her room with a soft bow. That's the thing I felt the day after she disappeared today.

"Hallo Lia, are you inside? Call someone from outside my room." I was really happy then. Because it's Chiko. I know it's the shape of the sound.

"Well I'm inside, Chiko's ahead yeah." My words ensured.

"It's Lia." Prattling

"But I'm out Chiko. " I said as I quickly wiped my tears away. And I quickly came out, because I was sure he would know Varel's whereabouts.

"Chiko, where's Varel. It's not you who brought him home." I said as I pulled his hand to take me to Varel. My tears could not be held back when I took her. I would really like to hold her if I find her.

"Lia, calm down. Remove your tears. I apologized for the video I recorded. I just don't want Varel to get hurt too far. Just so you know Lia, she loves you so much. But you're with Pio, who is his best friend. You won't know how broken he is." He also misunderstood the incident. It was the trembling of my feet that made me sit weak on the front bench. I really can't get through it all.

"Chiko, Varel has misunderstood the video you shot. That's not true. It's true Pio drove me home. But I really have nothing to do with him Chiko. I beg you to take me. I want to talk about everything so that he no longer misunderstands me and Pio. Please Chiko." My words beg.

"No Lia. Did you forget you visited him? Which one of them did you send a message to? Remember that Lia. That's where his feelings get bad. But he's still patient because he knows that you don't have any relationship anymore." He said while making me confused to have to talk especially. The worse I hear him say.

"No Chiko. I really love her. I'll be honest with him. Please find me with Chiko. I beg. Let's get me to her." My words while standing back pulled him back to take me to Varel.

"No Lia. I promised him I wouldn't tell you where he is now. Sorry Lia, a friend's promise is a debt to be paid off." His words that seem to hit me will be my fault.

"I beg of you Chiko. I beg you." I screamed while crying in front of him.

"No Lia. That I can't do. What is it that I have promised him. I just want to always trust him as a friend who has been together for two years. I wouldn't betray him as a friend for a lifetime." It was his words that amazed me and struck me. Only friends but they both trust each other and keep each other's feelings. My mind thinks that what I'm doing is far inverted from what he's talking about.

"Already if you can't. I'll find him and I'll meet him. Please get out of here. I don't want to see you. Go." I was annoyed in tears at him, who could not follow my wishes.

"Alright Lia. I'm gonna go. I was here to give this to you. This is the letter Varel left you." He said while offering the letter. My heart suddenly skipped a beat because the one I didn't want to see sent me a letter instead. I was so afraid that the letter was his despair.

"Thank you for taking the trouble to deliver this letter." I said as I received the letter with a trembling hand.

"Well, I'll go home first, Lia." He said as he walked away leaving me alone.

"I hate you Chiko. You can't take me just because you can't break that promise." My words yell at him.

"Thus, if you promise someone. Keep that promise, so you can always trust Lia. I'm leaving." He said, looking back at me and then just passed by.

I couldn't speak any more, just looking at the white envelope of the letter while bowing down hard. My heart really didn't want me to open that envelope. It was as if the letter was his request to stop fighting for me. But my desire prompted me to open it to find out what the letter contained.

I walked into my room in desperation, listening to Chiko's words telling me how much Varel was hurt by my behavior.

I sat back in that old wooden chair. Praying to God that my feelings about the letter were not true.

With an helpless hand, I slowly opened the white envelope of the letter. Then I get you a white paper that is not stained by any hatred in that envelope.

With a heart so scared. I finally said I would open the letter. I put it on the table, opened it wide and read it with all my heart.

"**Dear Lia"

Today, perhaps my soul cannot resist and endure. Although I was trembling and afraid of my heart to write this letter, but the strength of my love made me dare to write this letter for you.

Lia, I know that all this time, I've never considered what or who. You punish me for putting high hopes on this love. I adore and always fight for the love we have ever had.

But you're what? the phrase you used to say to me, "Don't you put your hopes on me, because I never put any hopes on you".

I've always imagined the one thing you want, which is so I don't fight for you too much, because you're afraid that if you can't accept me forever, I'll get hurt.

Therefore, if the things you have wanted all this time I have never done. So today, that desire will soon be reached to you, which makes your heart comfortable and happy.

And your desire will never be disturbed again, for I promise in the name of both me and my Lord that I will go far away from you.

Even though I know it's heavy. But that's the best way for me and you. Because I am so sure, one day there will be loyal people accompanying and taking care of you, which will never be the same as my nature and bad looks.

And with this letter, I spread my chest wide open to convey to you that my promise to fight for you will no longer be realized.

I declare surrender and will no longer fight for you, as you have always wanted.

Lia, chase your dreams and achieve your wishes. I won't bother you anymore.

Lia, I know you're always looking forward to this. Enjoy with relief as you read this letter. Laugh and smile, for you know that now, there will be no one to grieve over your mistakes.

Let's just say the love and love between us all along, never existed and never happened. Let everything disappear and be swallowed up by the memory of our future. Because I'm sure you'll be capable of that.

You and I will never again meet the face as before, where one is happy and one is forced and sad.

And if we are later met by God, I ask at that time consider me and you never know each other. If it happens a second time do not consider me the one who has accompanied you all this time, but someone who has never sworn with you before.

And with this letter, I promise and testify that I will never deny that.

Goodbye to the man I once loved. Goodbye to the people I love the most. Goodby. I'm saying goodbye forever.

"From Varel**"

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Seriate......

Hope not to cut my heart.. 😂😂