
I missed school today.
Yes, actually going to school is also no longer able to be helped by my long conversation with Hanz today. Anyway I can't go to school, time runs out and if I leave it won't be on time. So, that day I gave Farrel permission if I got sick and couldn't go to school. I hope the school can accept it without a second thought, given my own condition, which is already well known as a patient of surgery.
Right now I'm heading to Dina's college. If it's not wrong today he left later at nine or ten in the afternoon. But, the problem is that the vast college is already like a housing complex. I'd be a fool to look for him without a clue. So, something I did was take an early step by tailing her from home before she left.
I'm now walking along with Hanz. By holding his shoulders and walking side by side, the two of us entered a zone where people could not be aware of our existence.
At first I was a little doubtful about Hanz's power that could make me disappear. But he can prove it quickly. I was a little surprised when I saw it firsthand, and it turned out that I really didn't look like a ghost.
At that time, we were looking for people at random. When he met, Hanz took me right behind the man before he finally slammed a pebble into his head.
A normal response is certainly experienced by the person where he feels disturbed and looks back. However, the abnormal response started when he had already turned around. Because we who are right behind are ignored just like that by the person. He just gawking, looking around, and doing a long view while researching where the direction of the thrown pebble came—where in fact the view has already led to us. Guilty enough to have one person in jail, but the results have proven overwhelmingly that Hanz and I are invisible to him.
There was quite a long time before Dina's departure. Of course I who was standing waiting outside also started to feel bored. Especially when curious how Hanz views this condition as a burden. I feel like I want to provide him with a better place for this task. In this case I could not feel the waves of his emotions, so the condition I was worried about was still a mystery of the truth or just an excess of thoughts.
“Hanz,” call me in the silence waiting.
“You need something?”
“Cuman ask circumstances. Are you sure you want to get into some business that might go down the drain like this? You said it's interesting, but we just got into the bored phase waiting for more than an hour.”
“So, you're worried I don't get a destination about looking for interesting things right now just because I have to wait?”
“You could say kayak like that.”
Getting into people's problems and saying that it's interesting to him is also ambiguous. I don't know if I should be happy or offended when someone does. Then, now I need to feel the pressure to be able to really make him satisfied to seek the pleasure he meant.
“If you think so, it means you still don't understand. I live in a more boring realm, being quiet with one individual together also includes life. I'm not really bored right now. Anyway ...”
“Hmn?”
Hanz did a little pause in his sentence. Not because he didn't know what he was saying, but more like he was making a certain atmosphere.
“Song anyway, I've learned that pleasure is a sought after thing, not coming by itself.”
“Ah, yes, I understand,” I replied slightly nodding. “That condition does depend on the mental as well. Whether the person is in the middle of a joke scope, if he does not consider it as a pleasure, yes the joke will have no effect.”
Of course, this has been proven by the power of detection of my emotions. Since childhood, I had the experience of coming to a celebration event, whether it was from school or from relatives such as birthdays and weddings. Of course in the event the existence of entertainers like singers or comedians is present, and it is not a secret that not everyone can enter into the fun provided.
Sometimes, there are people who have from the beginning put on a sad condition, sometimes there are people who from their heart have rejected the existence of the entertainer. Those who do not expect to have pleasure will not get it. One of the most important things to be happy is to open your heart to be happy.
“Alright, Kaivan. I don't get bored, but maybe you feel it yourself. So, instead of waiting outside, we can go inside and enjoy the view of your brother through the viewpoint ‘not seen.”
“Ah, of course, I also thought that you said so. But, you can relax, Kaivan. My power not only makes us disappear from view, because my power is already at the stage of being able to eliminate sound and awareness about what changes.”
“Eh?”
Back again I heard something new from Hanz, his explanation of the power made me think again. Maybe I understand the part of obliterating the voice, but the part to eliminate consciousness is still not in my logic—although it is not the magic itself that I deserve to stick with logic.
“Ah .. that response, so you don't understand?” said Hanz who was aware of my facial expression. “If explained briefly, my power eliminates all factors of existence. Reflection of light, vibrate sound, and dull the consciousness of people pay attention to the change of environment together with me.”
“I still didn't catch everything. But, the point is we can enter without being caught?”
“Tap.”
“...”
I didn't expect Hanz's strength to be that strong. If he really used it, he could easily commit a crime. All the people who are victims may not be aware at that time. It is like being hypnotized temporarily.
But, leave it aside about that.
“No, thanks, Hanz. I think it is not necessary,” answered I refused the offer.
“Why? Didn't you refuse to enter because of the risk of being caught?”
“I did say that, but that's not really the main reason. It's like I have the pride not to go into his privacy area.”
“What are you saying, aren't we looking to follow him now?”
“Really, but that's no reason to come peek at her at home. At least at home he is safe and will have no problems. No reason for me to come in now.”
I also still don't understand, human feelings and even my own feelings are still full of unpredictable things. What I feel is sometimes difficult to explain, I want something that is indirectly counter to my own goals. I made excuses a few times not to do something. But, when that obstacle was gone, I preferred not to do it for the basis of the new obstacle.
“Hmn .. I consider you an adult. But, it turns out that you are also as raw as other teenagers who are plan-plain.”
“Don't worry, Hanz. Lately I also started to realize.”
The environment outside was extremely unstable. I already knew about it, but only recently have I faced them head-on. Maybe I can face one or two people at random, my actions are not too clumsy like a confinement. However, something that had appeared lately had completely shaped my mentality bit by bit in various directions.