
"When the light in my life is dim, it can even be said to be gone now there is only darkness, no different from when I close my eyes, when I open my eyes it will be the same dark."
~ Zhivana Khoirun Nisa~
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Still where arrsyad is with zhivana. Arrsyad is still silent.
"Sorry, what for?" Ask zhivana softly.
Zhivana got up from her sleep to sit. Her eyes were straight ahead.
"Had it not been for my sister's family to take me to the airport it might have been, it wouldn't be like this." Arrsyad said with guilt.
"This arrsyad is all the destiny of alloh!! We as his people can only be patient, and sincere to face this calamity. I was sincere and tried to accept Alm's departure. My two. Basically, this all belongs only to alloh and will return again to the alloh of the creator. I'm also sincerely losing my eyesight basically it's all just a disaster I'm sure I can get through all this." Zhivana said with a sweet smile.
"But, brother"
"Not discussed anymore. Oh yeah, arrsyad don't you have to go to America, huh?"
Arrsyad took a deep breath, then exhaled violently.
"Not so. I don't want to go there anyway."
Zhivana already knew why the arrsyad didn't want to leave. Accidentally hearing the conversation between reno, luchia, and arrsyad earlier when they were outside was very clear. And zhivana felt that she had burdened them all.
"Is it because of me, you're not leaving?!!"
Arrsyad.
"Sir reno and sister luchia have considered me to be her own biological sister. Honestly, I'm so happy!! After my parents were gone, I still had a new family. Well arrsyad now I'm also your sister isn't it? As a big brother, I want you to continue your education in America. Make Alm. Both of your parents are proud. Make brother reno also proud for sure they will all be very happy that his sister is very great."
Arrsyad looked at zhivana in disappointment. Why does zhivana consider her a sister! The arrsyad loves zhivana. Not as a feeling as a sister to a sister, but rather a man to a woman.
"Arrsyad, please go! It's all Alm's wish. Your father. Make his hopes come true. I'm sure you as a child don't want to disappoint your parents. Even though they are gone, they are the most meritorious people in our lives, they are angels without wings for their children."
"You're right, brother. But does brother zhivana know how I feel?" Ask with emphasis.
"I don't know how you feel, but you have to listen and obey this maybe all for your good too."
"I love you, brother. Therefore I-" said the arrsyad cut off by zhivana.
"Please don't talk like that. For me you are a sister, about you menghitbahku it forget the arrsyad.we are young then continue your education."
"Yes I'm just an immature, stubborn and selfish little boy!!"
Arrsyad smiled wryly, he was too hopeful on zhivana basically zhivana just think of him as a sister.
"I beg you to go! Here I'll be fine. There's gea, my best friend she'll always be with me tomorrow so you don't have to worry about me anymore and there's your sister too."
"But Aki doesn't want to. Go"
"Surely because of me, arrsyad I beg you to go because I am blind. You're so messianic with me that you don't want to go."
"I mean, it's not like that, brother. I want to take care of you."
Zhivana was silent with a bow, her eyes already glazed over.
Arrsyad who saw such zhivana immediately felt guilty.
zhivana.
Arrsyad let out a rough sigh.
"Well, I'm going to America."
Ahhhhh. Mercifully. Inner zhivana.
"Are you really going there?!!" Asked zhivana enthusiastically.
"certain. For you and my father, I'll go" he said with a sweet smile.
"Thank God. I'm so glad to hear that." Speak zhivana with glee.
"Just with me agreeing, you're so happy, brother. But I feel so heavy when I say that." Inner arrsyad.
"But there are conditions." Arrsyad said with a big smile.
Zhivana scrunched her forehead. What, terms? Indeed, what conditions will arrsyad submit to him.
"promise. Always waiting for me to come home." Arrsyad said expectantly.
Zhivana was silent for a moment while thinking.
"Well, if it's gonna get you to America. Then, I'll always wait for you to come home." Zhivana.
Arrsyad who heard it immediately smiled.
"Take care of your religion and take good care of your health."
"I know, so will you trust me and wait for me." The voice of the arrsyad sounded very soft and sounded hopeful.
Zhivana nodded confidently, saying.
"Good thing, I will always believe in you and I will also wait for you to come home."
Arrsyad now stepped closer before the zhivana. His smile continued to expand, now they were facing each other at a distance of one meter. Arryad raised his little finger into the air right in front of the zhivana.
"Let's lift your little finger!! If you promise to always believe and wait for me."
Zhivana complied and raised her hand while pointing her little finger in the air.
"Promise" asked arrsyad.
"Promise" replied zhivana confidently.
The little fingers of the two seem to be interlocked. Even though there is still a distance between the two of them, it could be arrsyad eroding the distance between the two of them but they are not the mahromnya.
The two smiled with their fingers still raised, although the smile of zhivana was covered in a veil. But arrsyad was sure that zhivana was also smiling and that smile must have been beautiful.
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