DOLEFULNESS
Baffled
...HAPPY READING'S...
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This morning I woke up excitedly, because today is Saturday. I don't know tucked a little taste in my heart of wanting to see Rama soon, will he meet me again today in the cafeteria? or will he take me home in an angkot? Em I can't wait for that.
at half-six in the morning I took a shower to wake up my nerves that were still asleep.After bathing I immediately got ready and then met my mother and Bang Tito at the dinner table for breakfast together.It has become a tradition in the family we'll each do activities mom will tell me, Bang Tito and dad to have breakfast, too, if not breakfast then the mother will forbid us to go from home.Say breakfast is very important because the mother does not want if she among us there is a magh disease like mother. Moreover, the father whose duty is to serve the country, even though the father returns home once a week or two weeks, the mother always calls the father every morning to remind the father not to forget breakfast. My mother is the best mother in the world.
"Today I'm home mom?" I chewed my chocolate bread.
"Next week I said it to my mom".
" Buk tomorrow I play to his house via yes" I said in a slightly pleading tone.
"yes I can but Jagan's night's coming home".
"Each commander, bang tomorrow I will go to his house via"
"Yes, tomorrow you're not going anywhere".
When I got to school, the clock was seven, less than fifteen minutes. I immediately ran to class because today was my picket day.
" I'm sorry ren I'm late, just waiting for the angkot a long time" I said with a breath of bored because from the gate to the class I ran.
"Yes not papa shin, you remove the board because it has been swept all" replied Reni very friendly. I nodded my head in agreement.
"Vi know it does not turn out that Rama's house is one complex with me but different blocks" I said a little whisper because it is currently being taught by Mr. Onim.
"Book?" tanya also whispered a little.
"Yes, you know not yesterday he rode the lot with me"
"What's the angkot ride?" tanya via with a little scream, immediately I shut my mouth via so as not to cause noise.
"Yes vi, I'm surprised why he came down in the same place as I was I turned out he said his house was also in the complex"
"There was just the Rama, the guy yesterday went to school I saw he brought a motorbike, and then came home so angkot ride" said via with a little shake his head, I shrugged my shoulders at the sign of not understanding.
"Tau, he also said he would stop by my house but sometime".
" Maybe she has a crush on you kali shin" said via teasing me, I pinched her arm via.
"Open the hell vi, no, he's the leader of gangsters he must be a lot of girls"
"No, yes, I was in school with him since we were in Junior High and I never saw him or her all this time".I was silent for a moment.
" Oh yes vi I have not told you yes if the first day I went to school here I was tempted by two thugs and who did not know I was the Rama"
"Maybe she fell in love with you at first sight" he chuckled again after teasing me again.
"Via, shinta if you are talking to yourself please get out of the class" said Mr. Onim who I did not realize from the moment I saw and via. at that moment I and via both lowered my head.
"Sorry sir" I said to Mr. Onim.
"No apologies, now you two are out" said Mr. Onim in a slightly raised tone. Me and I immediately stood up and left the class.
"Where is vi, and the clock p
the two are out" I said in a slightly irritated tone. Actually I am not upset with via but I am annoyed at myself why I day talk about Rama together via during the hour of his lesson, sir onim, though the onim sir is famous for the most killer teacher in school.
"Kantin aja while waiting for the bell to rest" replied via relaxed once. Me and via also to the cafeteria, but when in the cafeteria I saw there were about five children sociology two was sitting at the corner table that yesterday I placed together via, via, and quickly my eyes could catch Rama there.
"Loh via say you in the gini lesson hour to the canteen, skip yes" said mamad, I know mamad because via ever introduce me to him, mamad is a girlfriend via a friend from Rama.
Via invites me to sit with them. Actually I am a little embarrassed and awkward because there is Rama here.
"No, we are out with the same onim" said via.
"Why?"
"Tau ah" said via, this time his tone was a little upset.
"I'm sorry, vi, because I'm out" I said, whispering.
"Udahlah relax aja shin, anyways I also rada males same lesson pak onim" said via.i smiled a little because via not angry with me. At first glance I glanced at Rama he was looking at me with a slight smile.
"Vi told your friend that she is beautiful if she smiles again" Rama told via. I who heard it was a little surprised, looked at it briefly and then lowered my head, I was ashamed because Rama's friends laughed after hearing the words of Rama, via also.
"yes" replied via a short while nudging my arm like teasing.
I saw Rama rise from his seat and approach Via.
"Vi may I sit there" said Rama, begging a little.
"yes yes" said via and soon he moved to sit next to him Mamad, and Rama sat next to me. My heart is beating so hard, I haven't felt anything like this for a long time, the last time I felt like pras was about to shoot me.
Rama slightly shifted his butt to get closer to me, I just kept quiet because I didn't know what to do. Now I'm stuck among gangster kids. I saw Rama hinting something to his friend, who made his friends leave us both, via also because my mother invited him to go, initially via refused but because mamad whispered something in via finally he wanted. Before leaving I shook my head at him begging him not to leave me here with Rama.
"Want me to take you back?" rama asked, breaking the silence between the two of us, I looked into his eyes looking at me.
"No need" I said and turned my eyes away again.
"But I'm gonna drive you back"
"Em" I'm confused as to what to answer.
"But not taking an angkot"
"continue?" I was a little surprised.
"My bike's up"
"motor?" I was a little surprised.
"yes, will?"
"Don't do it, I'll take an angkot only" Rama was silent for a moment, I was too.
"I don't mean you, but one day you'll want me to drive you home again".
" yes" I answered briefly. "where were your friends?" my many.
"Biarin, they're going through the same via mamad dating"
"Fuckin?"
"Yes let mamad the same via can not be strange" I just fell silent.
"I went to class first" I said, then stood up, and he stood up.
"I'm coming"
"came along?"ask me for wonder
" Yes, our class is next door"
Again I just kept quiet.
"You do what in the gini lesson hour to the cafeteria" I asked as we walked to class.
"Kasian teacher"
"Kasian?"
"Trus why are you fighting?"
"Let me not be alone"
"Em yes, you've been to your class" I said and sat in front of my class. Instead of going to his class he even followed me sitting next to me, Rama you make me so wrong, do not know what to say if it is near you.
"I want to be here first" he said without looking at me, I was silent.
a few minutes later the break bell rang, I sat in front of the class with Rama because I wanted to wait via who did not come back and I wonder why the gangster leader is still here, making my heart beat just doesn't make it, uh shit!
"Tomorrow to the shin canteen" I turned to the source of the voice and it turned out to be affredo.
"No, I'm out of the cafeteria" I replied kindly, I saw Alfredo glancing at Rama cynically.
"Em yes I've been to the cafeteria first yes" said Alfredo followed by two friends, I just smiled and nodded.
Indeed, all this time I felt that Alfredo liked me, not that I care but because every night Alfredo must send me a message or call me about things that are not important.
"Your boyfriend?" rama asked with a full glance.
"Not" I saw Rama smiling a little at my answer.
"Oh kirain"
"Where back to your class" I said.
"yes" he said and left me alone in front of the class.
Tonight this week I spent watching TV with my mom, even though I was actually still at home, want to invite Bang Tito for a walk but he again there is an event with his friends.At first Bang Tito would invite me but I do not want because I think the show must be very boring turned out at home it's pretty boring to know that I think I'd better go with Bang Tito.
I glanced at the wall clock just showing at half-seven p.m. I'd rather watch drakor in my room than watch soap operas with my mother, but when I went to my room I heard a motorbike stop in front of my house, I walked forward and saw who was visiting my house. At first I thought it was Bang Tito's friend, but it was Rama, I was aghast.
"Rama?" I said with a little nervous.
"Yes"
"Why did you come here?" ask me with the tone of voice I'm shrinking because I'm afraid that mom will hear it.
"You take your walk"
"Huh?"
"Kok hah, hunt ready, I wait"
"But?why not get it first?"
"No chance"
"Em how is it" I was a little confused because suddenly he was here and invited me for a walk. I saw his face made clear so I would go with him.
"Yes, I changed my clothes" I said and went into the house,
"Is there a guest in front?" ask mom
"Yes mom temen shinta, shinta wants to go out first ya daftar kok"
"Yes, replied the mother without looking at me because she was engrossed in the soap opera she saw.
" Didn't you bring a helmet?"my many.
"No, I've brought two for you"
"Em yes, it's okay"
"Where are your mothers?"
"There's inside"
"I want to say goodbye to your mother"
"No need to go straight away"
"That's not polite, cook I take the girls away but not saying goodbye first"
"I've been waiting here for you first"
Again Rama made my heart beat unbecoming, cold sweat began to wet my forehead just as I was about to poop.
"Bu knew this Rama Shinta schoolmate" I said introducing Rama to the mother. Rama immediately grabbed the mother's hand and kissed her, it turned out that the gangster leader was polite as well.
"Rama ma'am, his future girlfriend Shinta" she said with a big smile, my eyes widened to hear her words and looked at my mother who was also smiling.
"The mother is shinta" said the mother with a very friendly smile.
"Do'ain yes buk" said Rama.
"Do'ain what? " ask mommy in astonishment.
"Do'ain may shinta want to be with me" said Rama, times with a little laugh, I frowned while looking at mother with shame, mother also laughed.
"yes mother do'ain" said the mother as she looked at me meaningfully, I was ashamed.
Rama and I said goodbye to my mother and soon left the house, before leaving mother gave a message that she would not go home at night. Rama took me through the city on a CB motorbike that had been modified. Looks a lot of young people also enliven the atmosphere tonight this week.
"Where are we going?" My toot.
"Jalan-ja, it's foraging, you haven't eaten, right?"
"Yes" I replied briefly.
Rama took me to eat fried rice on the side of the road, I thought he would take me to a restaurant or cafe if he was a CEO's son but he wasn't, and I have no problem with that, anyway roadside food is also no less delicious with restaurants.
After eating Rama invites me to go home afraid of the night he said, honestly I still want to make a walk to say saturated but embarrassed to talk to him.
The night the air here gets colder, the more I just wear a T-shirt folded my hands to warm it.
"When you're cold, just put your hand in my jacket pocket" he said, he seemed to know that I was cold now.
" Not done"
"I don't want to minjemin you my jacket"
"why?"
"Later to be the one who's cold"
"Oh" I answered briefly.
"Udah hunted enter later if you are sick I'm angry at your mother" he said with a slightly seductive tone. Finally I gave up because the air was very cold, I put my hand in his jacket pocket, although it still felt cold but a little mending was not as cold as before, I saw from the rearview mirror Rama glanced at me with a smile, me too.
"Thank you" I said when we got to my house.
"Together, greetings to your mother"
"Yes"
"I'm gone", I smiled at her passing.
Ah Rama you made a new Taste in my life, Wish can always be near you, but I am ashamed to say that because I am still confused by my own feelings.
