DOLEFULNESS

Farewell

...HAPPY READING'S...

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Today Deo picked me up at school again, at first I refused out of pity but he kept forcing me to finally do it.

At school, I just went straight into the training room because there were no lessons and especially tomorrow it was the third-grade farewell.

Before practice, my brother asked me if I was expelled from school or not. Then I told all of this to Mira. He seems concerned, he said maybe this is fate and is the best for me.

After the training, I found via and Reni who was sitting in a chair on the edge of the field.It just so happens that today nike is not in school.

"Hi." I greeted my two friends.

"Hi shin's. " Reply they are compact.

I paused for a moment, then took a deep breath.

"I'm moving to my old school. " I said breaking the silence between the three of us.

"Moving.? " Tanya.

"Yes, I can't prove that I'm innocent. " I said with a smile.

"I'm sorry we're shin, we failed to help you find the culprit. " Said Reni. I smiled at them both.

"I'm even grateful to you, because I've been helping and encouraging me all this time. " Answer.

"I'm so sad that you have to drop out of this school . " Say via with teary eyes.

"I'm really sad too, but how else. " I answered with a smile I forced.

"Who are you staying with, who is shin.? " Task Reni.

"I live with mbak icha, a trusted mother there. " Obviously, they were silent for a moment.

"We'll still be friends, right.? " Tanya.

"Yes vi, you are my best friends. " I said, then via and Reni hugged me as if she didn't want to let me change schools.

"Shin to yuk class. " Take via.

"You guys go first, I'll follow. " I said, and they left. Maybe I understand that I want to be alone now.

I sat on the edge of the field alone. I glanced around the school, I was only here for a while but there were already too many memories that I passed here.

I smiled as I remembered the moment I passed out on this field and Rama who brought me to the UKS, Rama I miss you. My inner.

I scattered my daydreams when I saw that there was Rama staring at me, I smiled at him but he turned his eyes away. Then I lowered my head and shed tears, but I hurriedly wiped my tears away, I did not want to be a crybaby like this.

But I always remembered Rama's words that he liked me and would always keep my smile, but now he's not the old Rama. He's been different.

Deo patted my shoulder and broke my daydream about Rama.

"Ndreamy. " Said deo and sat down beside me.

"No." My answer was short but I smiled.

"Go home yuk. " Said. I was silent for a moment.

"Oh yes de, I've called icha and told her that I will move to my old school again. " I said to divert the conversation. The smile from deo's lips faded away.

"You moved to your old town.? " Tanya deo's.

"Yes." Yeah."

"I thought you stayed here. "

"No, it hurts too much if I stay here. " I said. Deo was silent

"Where have you passed the test yet.?" I asked deo.

"Have a good luck. " I said.

"Yes, thank you. "

Then Deo invited me home, because some of the students had gone home.

As usual, Deo went straight home and did not stop by after driving me home.

Today is the day that all students are waiting for because in addition to the separation of third-grade brothers, this is also the day of the division of first and second-class rapists. I was so nervous about going to the closing stages of the show.

I will sing a song from the last child of grief, because the lyrics are like describing my feelings at this time who is grieving.

Sister Mira and friends gave me encouragement as I was about to go on stage.

On stage, my eyes searched for Rama's whereabouts, and I could find him. He sat next to Karina. I stared at him for a while, took a deep breath and then started to focus on my guitar and started singing.

"You killed me with this pain. You threw me into a broken heart. Until tears can't paint the pain you've carved in this heart."

"You destroyed me when you left, after you broke these wings. Until I won't be able to fly high again and look for a star that can replace you. "

"I'm still trying to wake up from a dream I didn't realize was no longer mine. Though the heart can never forget you and every tear that falls strengthens my longing. On your beautiful shadow. Your laughter, at the beauty of sorrow in our memories "

I was so absorbed in the lyrics for the lyrics I was singing that I didn't realize I was shedding tears.

I was greeted by the applause of the audience when I finished singing. I'm so glad I finished it.

I got off the stage and joined my other friends who were performing first.

"Finally finished too. " Said brother mira.

"Yes brother. " Answer.

"So proud of you. " Said brother mira who made us all smile.

"So I go to the toilet first. " I said to Mira, she just nodded her head assenting.

I walked to the bathroom, the school was very quiet because everyone was gathered in the school hall.

I ran a little because I was holding back my pee.

After being relieved to throw away the wish, I immediately returned again to the hall.

But when I came out of the bathroom, I saw Rama leaning his shoulders against the wall.

"Rama." I said a little surprised. He just kept quiet.

"What are you doing here.? " Tanyaku.

"Cuman ngantar because it is quiet here, afraid if there is anything. " Said what made me smile.

"No need for GR. " Rama said and walked away from me.

I walked behind Rama, and when I was about to reach the hall there was a karina who approached Rama and took his hand.

"You are from where really long "Karina said in a slightly spoiled tone. Rama looked at me for a moment.

"Turnback. " Rama said turning Karina's question away.

I stared for a moment there, I should have held Rama's hand instead of Karina.

Maybe now I should really let Rama go with karina, it's time for me to move on and forget all about Rama. I know it's going to be hard but I'm going to keep trying. I don't want to be too long slumped in feelings of sadness, because being sad for too long is also not too good for myself.

But on the other hand I was also happy because it turned out that in this class improvement exam I got second place in class.

It's true that life is bound to be there will like his grief. Sometimes we will feel sad and down but one day after we rise from the slump, there will be great happiness waiting for us.

And now that I'm in a time of crisis, I'm sure I can get through this because there are good people around me.