DOLEFULNESS

Resignedly

...HAPPY READING'S...

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The exam lasted for 2 weeks, and I really didn't focus on it, because I haven't got any proof that I wasn't the one who stole those exam questions.

After the exam, Hendri called me to his room, I was so scared.

"Hows it? did you find the culprit.? " Said sir Hendri with his firm voice.

"Not yet sir. " I said with my head down.

I resigned and accepted the fact that I would be expelled from school. I give up, I'm desperate. Maybe it's been my destiny to be here for a while and have to go back to my old school.

"It's agreed, because you can't find any evidence that you're innocent then you'll be expelled from school, actually, the father is also very heavy to release good students like you but this is the policy of the school and you cannot help you. " Said sir Hendri, who made my eyes glazed over.

"Yes sir I understand, but give me time until the holidays finish sir, I promise after the holidays I will immediately take care of all my moving letters. " I said to beg Hendri.

"Father, I'm sorry, Shinta, I can't do much for you, but I will obey your last request at this school. " Said mr. hendri.

"Yes Sir. " I said, then I said goodbye to Mr. Hendri to get out of his room.

Outside Mr. Hendri's room, I fell silent and crouched down and cried while covering my face with both hands, this really was my end in this school.

I'm so sad, I'm disappointed I couldn't prove my innocence. But how else, I have to sincerely accept all this.

Someone held my cheek as I cried, then I opened my eyes, I saw a deo, I hurriedly wiped my tears. I don't want to look sad in front of others.

Especially in front of deo who has always helped me and encouraged me.

"Sorry." Deo said.

"Sorry for what.? " I was surprised because Deo didn't make a mistake.

"I'm sorry I failed to persuade my father not to take you out of school. " Said Deo, I was shocked. Papa's? Hendri's father deo sir.?

"Papa.? " Tanyaku then frowned.

"Ah yes I forgot to tell you, sir Hendri is actually my papa, and not many people know because I deliberately kept it a secret. " Said deo.

"Yes de no papa, maybe this is my destiny. " I said with the smile I forced.

Then I walked slowly leaving deo, but I knew deo was following behind.

I'm confused what to tell mom and Bang Tito later? But actually, the mother and Bang Tito have prepared something if something like this really happens.

Dad finally found out about my mistakes at school because he asked my mom what happened to me that looked so moody like never, I wasn't angry because I believed in me.

I took a deep breath, and tried to smile even though it felt heavy.

Deo drove me home, I told him to stop by first but he wouldn't. He wanted to let me alone first to win the thought.

I immediately entered the house with slow steps like I had no energy. I saw Bang Tito and Mom sitting in the living room. I sat next to Bang Tito.

"Buk shinta at school exit "I said while holding back tears, it felt very tight in the chest.

Mom and bang Tito were silent for a moment.

"Shinta does not papa kok buk, maybe this has become the destiny of shinta. " I said.

"Do you have to stay in school here or shin, rather than go back there. " Said mother.

"Papa Shinta went back there again "

"But who will you be there.?" Ask Bang Tito.

"Later shinta will call mbak icha, shinta will stay with mbak icha until graduation from school. " I said,

Ichah's mother is the one who was given the trust by her to take care of her boutique in my old town, and has been considered a child of both mother and father.

"Later to call mbak icha first yes. " Said mother holding back her crying.

"Let shinta a ma'am call. " I said, Bang Tito could only be silent and could not speak anything more. Then she hugged me.

"I'm sorry you can't do anything for you. " Bang Tito said, I returned his embrace.

"Father Bang, it's destiny. " I said.

"Abang is a bad brother can not make promises not to make you cry. " Said, I felt my shoulder feel wet, then I let go of Bang Tito's embrace.

"The biggest brother that Shinta has. " I said and then wiped off Bang Tito's tears, I saw that mom wiped her tears too.

After chatting with mom and Bang Tito, I went into my room and sat down at my study table.

I took some polaroid photos there, there are a lot of photos of me along via, Reni, nike and also other friends. I saw it one by one, even though it was just a moment but it feels like I have known them all for a very long time, what else via.

It's hard for me to leave my friends who have been very good to me, always behind me to give support and encouragement.

"I'm sorry, guys. " Mumamku's.

I began to finish all my books on the study table and put them in the cardboard box.

After finishing the books, I went to lay down my body for a while, then sat down again to call icha to give him the news that I was going to stay with him.

"Hello." Said the man across there.

"Hello, Icha's mbak shinta." I said.

"Oh shinta, what's wrong, tumben phone. "

"Em gini mbak, shinta wants to move again to school there, shinta may later live there as well as mbak icha until graduating from school. "

"That's a damn thing, I'll let there be friends. "

"Yes, thank you. "

"But why move here again.? "

"I'll tell you later. "

"When did you come here.? "

"Let's go after school. " Answer.

Then I say goodbye to mbak icha for a break and hang up the phone.

At eight o'clock I woke up from my sleep, I went to the TV room where there was still my mother. Then I sat down next to him.

"Shinta called me icha buk. " I said, and then mom took her eyes off the TV to me.

"How important.? " Ask mom.

"Icha mbak gak papa said. " I answered, mother was silent for a moment.

"You really want to go back there.? " Task mom again

"Yes ma'am shinta sure. " I answered and smiled at my mother. Mom kissed my forehead.

"Udah sleeps again there, tomorrow must go to school right, he said he wanted to practice music. " Said mother.

"Yes mom.?" I said then to the room again.

Tomorrow is the last day of music practice, and tomorrow I'll say goodbye to all my friends.

I want this to go away, because the more I think it hurts.