DEEPEST REGRETS
Episode 50 - I want to be happy too
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...Shen Yuwen stood around as he tried to digest Jia Fei's words. Suddenly his head was buzzing. 'Let's get divorced' those words sounded simple but were able to make Shen Yuwen's heart beat fast. Suddenly he felt his heart crumble. For a few moments there was silence. And the sound of a wall clock that seemed to beat louder....
...Shen Yuwen tightly grasped the ring that was now in his hand. He felt a rage slowly rushing up to the top of his head....
..."What you just said,"...
...Shen Yuwen looked at Jia Fei with a murderous gaze. The veins on his forehead look prominent. If the gaze could kill people then it was already in make sure Jia Fei's body would be hollow....
...Jia Fei slightly retreated backwards, she had not expected Shen Yuwen's reaction to be like this. Didn't this man never love her, why should he be angry. But he was determined and his heart could no longer bear the pain....
...With a trembling Jia Fei stared into Shen Yuwen's eyes. The eyes showed anger, and disappointment. Why did he feel that Shen Yuwen was disappointed in him, wasn't he the one who should be disappointed....
...He stared fixedly, Shen Yuwen's face looking extremely exhausted. With a single sigh Jia Fei again said 'Let's Divorce '....
...After those words came back out of Jia Fei's mouth, Shen Yuwen felt his breath hunt down. Somehow he felt so angry, shouldn't he be happy, isn't this what he wanted. But why did he feel a feeling of tightness in his heart....
...Jia Fei lowered her head concealing a tear that slowly fell down, This man, he loved her for over ten years, yet that feeling was always one-sided. Shen Yuwen never loved her. And he had also snatched away Shen Yuwen's happiness. She was a selfish woman, she should have let Shen Yuwen off long ago. Jia Fei hurriedly wiped away her tears. He's the one who's wrong here, he's trying to stay calm. Even though his feelings are raging right now....
..."Shen Yuwen, let's just get a divorce, all this time I was so selfish holding you back for so long by my side. You have to be happy with the woman you love. I'm not a noble woman either, all this time I've always embarrassed you. Sorry, I haven't been able to be the wife you want me to be. Sorry, I can't be a good wife to you yet,"...
...Jia Fei said it with a trembling tone, she paused for a moment then resumed,...
..."Shen Yuwen I want to be happy too,"...
...Jia Fei said the last words with flowing tears. Shen Yuwen could only fall silent. He looked at Jia Fei before him. He looked at Jia Fei's slowly flowing tears. Somehow he felt his heart ache, he felt like he wanted to wipe away those tears and embrace Jia Fei in his arms Jia Fei said, as if piercing every inch of his body. He felt a feeling of anger, resentment, sadness....
...Sad, why should he feel sad, didn't he ever like Jia Fei. Was he sad because Jia Fei was going to leave. Why should he feel this sad. Shen Yuwen also did not understand what was wrong with him....
...Xian Qian felt a happy feeling in her heart, this feeling was like when she got the award trophy of being the world's top model. Finally after waiting for several years for their marriage Shen Yuwen would finally get a divorce. And she will be Young Madame Shen....
..."Shen Yuwen, Jia Fei seems to have been impatient to divorce you and live with that man,"....
...Shen Yuwen narrowed his eyes looking at Jia Fei. It's only right after a few years of marriage that he suddenly wants a divorce. It turns out he wants to be with that guy. Shen Yuwen felt his anger as if it were exploding....
..."Jia Fei, you are so eager to divorce me and go with that foreign man, why? his service was very satisfying. That makes you so impatient,"...
...Jia Fei did not understand what Shen Yuwen said. Who did he mean by that guy. And what does Shen Yuwen say....
...Jia Fei became speechless she did not know what to answer....
...Shen Yuwen grew angrier with Jia Fei's silence, this meant that his words had already been confirmed. Jia Fei really was already with another man. Shen Yuwen imagined Jia Fei who was already sleeping with another man. He could not hide the disgust in his eyes. The previous feeling of sadness seemed to disappear just like that. replaced with disgust and also upset....
..."because you can't wait to be with that guy, I'll give it to you. Oh don't forget, you're a poor woman I'll compensate you for the divorce,"...
...Shen Yuwen said it fluently and in a cold tone, he really felt disgusted right now....
...Jia Fei immediately shook her head, "That's not necessary,"...
...Xin Qian felt annoyed, Jia Fei was trying to sell expensively. Though Shen Yuwen was already kind enough to give her the divorce money, but she immediately rejected it. Or is this a strategy for Shen Yuwen to cancel his divorce. Whatever the reason Xin Qian would not let Jia Fei rule over Shen Yuwen. Shen Yuwen was his and only he deserved to be Young Madam Shen....
..."Jia Fei, your life is so hard Shen Yuwen is already kind enough to give you divorce money. Why did you refuse him. Ah, I forgot you've been with a rich man of course you don't need any more help from Shen Yuwen,"...
...Shen Yuwen increasingly clenched his hands listening to Xin Qian's words. Jia Fei is a poor woman as well as a lowly one. She made herself the mistress of another man when she was married to him....
..."I'll send you the divorce papers right away,"...
...Jia Fei had already been humiliated to such an extent, if others were to insult her she always felt fine. She's not a noblewoman. Couldn't give Shen Yuwen the face to face everyone He knew that very well, therefore he never asked for anything nor did he ever ask to be introduced to anyone. He did not want Shen Yuwen to be in distress and did not want Shen Yuwen to feel ashamed....
...All along if there was any question regarding who exactly the rightful wife of Young Master Shen Yuwen was, she could only stand there and stare at Shen Yuwen from a distance. She would not appear and claim to be Young Madam Shen, she knew a poor woman like herself was inappropriate....
...He therefore sought to be a good wife, trying to serve her. He would not do what Shen Yuwen did not like. If Shen Yuwen asked him to be quiet he would be silent the entire time. He would do what Shen Yuwen wanted. Even if everyone in the world left Shen Yuwen then he would never leave him....
...If Shen Yuwen became a farmer he would also help Shen Yuwen plant crops in the scorching sun. If Shen Yuwen became a merchant then he would help him in their small shop. Yet Shen Yuwen had never wanted a woman like her. His social status is far away. In the future if he comes back to love a man then he must find an ordinary man and from an ordinary family....
...Jia Fei nodded in understanding with Shen Yuwen's words. Her divorce papers will be sent soon, she will soon become a widow. He might be scorned for getting divorced at a young age. It doesn't matter that everything will be okay. Jia Fei imagined the smiling faces of her parents, her sadness lifted slightly. It doesn't matter that his parents and family will still accept him....
...Jia Fei then bowed saying goodbye and walked away. When he was just a few steps away. Jia Fei was stopped by Xin Qian's voice....
..."Wait,"...
...Jia Fei stopped stepping and turned her head towards the source of the voice. Xin Qian walked towards him with big steps. And stopped right before Jia Fei....
..."Jia Fei how do I know if you didn't steal the things in this house,"...
...Jia Fei stared in disbelief...
..."I didn't steal anything,"...
...Xin Qian smiled sinisterly towards Jia Fei....
..."It's possible that you brought some valuables in your suitcase,"...
...Xin Qian then looked towards Shen Yuwen, as if asking for approval...
..."Shen Yuwen, the last time he tried to steal my necklace. Isn't it impossible for him to steal other things. What if we ransack the suitcase,*...
...Shen Yuwen was speechless, in fact he disagreed. He had already lived with Jia Fei for several years. That woman couldn't have stolen the stuff in this house. However if he remembered the Xin Qian necklace that Jia Fei had stolen. There's no harm not if he proves it....
...",Jia Fei, if you didn't steal it, why don't you show me the contents of your suitcase,"...
...Jia Fei was silent, once he was in Shen Yuwen's eyes, nothing more than a thief....
...Xian Qian did not wait for Jia Fei to answer. He then forcibly took out Jia Fei's suitcase and directly opened it. He took out all the contents....
...Shen Yuwen watched him from the side. Xin Qian completely searched for him. Jia Fei had no time to fight back. He saw the whole suitcase being taken out....
...Xin Qian smiled mockingly, as she expected from a poor woman, everything is rubbish, nothing special. Actually he did it to humiliate Jia Fei. And he succeeded....
...Shen Yuwen was speechless staring at all the items scattered on the floor. All were Jia Fei's items. And those things don't look good. Everything is shabby. There was also no dress she had ever bought. Shen Yuwen clenched his hands....
..."Where's the dress I've been buying,"...
...Jia Fei hurriedly re-cleaned her things. Shen Yuwen might be afraid if he brought the items he had once given him....
...Jia Fei did not answer. Slowly he returned to his room, he brought all the items that Shen Yuwen had given him. He kept it neat. He brought it before Shen Yuwen and Xin Qian....
...Jia Fei carried two bags of groceries consisting of a dress and also a pair of shoes, then she brought back the credit card that Shen Yuwen had given her. And also one box that he wrapped in white cloth. Shen Yuwen narrowed his eyes looking at all the items and a box he had only seen for the first time. Jia Fei calmly gave one by one her things....
..."It's the dress and pair of shoes you gave me when we went to your family's house, and it's a credit card I don't need. I use it for nothing more than the monthly shopping money you always give me. I never used it for anything else. For the ring I gave it. And this...,"...
...Jia Fei bit her lower lip handed a box to Shen Yuwen. Shen Yuwen opened the box. It contained only a few hair ties, and a few cell phone hangers. Shen Yuwen knitted his brows. Jia Fei immediately said....
..."During our wedding, all of those were things you gave me. The rest is my work. I thank you for all the gifts. Now I have no business. We have no relationship. I'm gonna go,"...
...Jia Fei stepped steadily. He breathed a heavy sigh. His heart feels tight. But he has to leave immediately. He was never welcomed here....
...Shen Yuwen stared blankly at the box he was holding. All are worthless things. He remembered back then that he had bought a gift for Xin Qian. And he got some stuff as a bonus. These worthless items he gave to Jia Fei. But the woman even wrapped him in a cloth. This is a very valuable item. Shen Yuwen felt a tightness in his chest. He must have treated Jia Fei so badly. He felt like his heart was stuck in something. But not long before Shen Yuwen was made aware by Xian Qian's words....
..."Shen Yuwen, are you okay,"...
...Xian Qian felt a pang of resentment in her heart, Shen Yuwen as if regretting her decision to divorce Jia Fei. He could not let Shen Yuwen change his mind....
...Shen Yuwen darkened his head, he must not regret, this is his chance. Jia Fei had already asked for a divorce and she had already agreed to it. He can't falter. He won't let himself regret it....
