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Diar is not human!

That day, Diar was bothering me more and more. I heard that if she broke up with her boyfriend Fani, I was predicted to be one of the reasons they broke up. How am I?

Fani once came to me, she's a nice girl who loves crazy men like Diar. He asked if Diar and I had a relationship, of course I said no and told him everything in detail. But he just smiled, though,

"Diar likes you rich"

"Haha can't your Fan see what he did to me? she's spreading the disgrace that she herself did. But as if I was wrong, everyone looked at me as a lowly girl Fan. So, she's definitely not like me but..." I stopped talking because I was confused to say more. I wiped the tears that came out a little.

"Yes Nia, thank you for talking you good people turned out. I'm sorry I've seen you so bad because of that rumor"

I just smiled and didn't know what to say. Feeling kasian to Fani who want to relate to mentally ill people like Diar.

And again, today Diar is bothering me to ruin my mood I don't know what exactly he wants. Suddenly he was in the middle of the school street.

"Heh, I'm sorry I did". It made me smile cynically.

"Are there any premonitions of dying, huh? so apologize for all the fear of dying for your sins!"

"Don't know why, I can be as bad as you", he's like laughing. "But you're also a teaser"

"Heh, I've never known you at all. We never talk, where do I talk? crazy about you!"

"Haha, your face is rich p*r*k that I've seen in the same hotel my bokap"

I widened "Cuman's eyes because they look alike? Then why do you lanternsin all hate you to me who don't know anything Di? it hurts you!". I left with an angry feeling that was exploding in my chest.

Until the class I joked and chatted, until Bunga pulled me away from other friends.

"What the hell is Nga? "

"So you talked to Diar? pdkt don't say evil"

"Udah deh Nga don't accidentally pass through the hallway"

"Initially, the rumors that are circulating are not really Yes?" *Yes: Nia*

I never said a word, and to anyone about it. Because I was also confused how to explain everything.

"Udah ah Nga males said the unimportant thing!"

"It's important, yes, because what you want to know is not just me but Kamal"

I looked at the Flower, suddenly my heart was pounding quickly hearing the words Flower.

"Haha, lebay you! so how's the answer?"

"Switch clearly, but that's not really Nga gossip. I've never had a kiss with Diar. And you know why he kissed me? because of the hatred to his father's affair which he said was a girl like me, Diar often said I p*r*k Nga. That's sick, man"

"Yes, yes, you are the victim, but you are the one who is seen with one eye and considered cheap"

"I don't understand why Diar would spread such a rich disgrace to everyone let what try?"

"But I'm not the Diar who deliberately spread Yes". The last sentence of the Flower made me frown.

"I've been horrified, so there was someone who accidentally horrified Diar when chatting with his best friend Sadam. Well he said that guy spread it out"

"Huh?". That's all I can say. But why did Diar never say anything but he was rich always a cynical smile that made me even more sure if he deliberately spread his own disgrace. I don't know how I feel so not good.

I saw Diar there in front of his class. He glanced at me and approached. What the hell is this guy.

"sorry". He said while looking at me, I really don't want to deal with him.

"Where did I just say it now?" Answer me as it passes.

"Well I want to clear everything up, do you want to hear it?"

"Engga!". I really don't want to deal with Diar anymore. I walked past him, fortunately he didn't come after me.

Povs. Diar

That night, I somehow saw her I was so tempted that she wore polite clothes that were not sexy. His face is similar to the papa affair I met at the hotel, I hate that the woman wants revenge for having made my family damaged, when I met the girl I was shocked because her face is very similar to p*r*k stash my papa. I don't know why that came to my mind when I saw sip*r*k who didn't wear anything and hurriedly covered his body with a towel, ah dirty my mind is a jerk, I'm a jerk, who doesn't know me. Many times changing girlfriends until when I saw mama crying because many times betrayed I realized I had to change I did not want to hurt women again, until I met Fanny the gentle and kind girl. Honestly I don't love him I just want to change for the better by choosing good people. But when I saw Nia, I went crazy! the girl. ah why her face is so similar to Luna as my papa's love I've seen naked, which made me an avid fan of**** at that time.

That night I saw Nia sedanh himself sitting in the house of one of my friends. At first I only intended to get to know him, but I don't know what demon made me dare to kiss Nia. He just kept quiet, I'm sure it must be his first kiss because I'm a player I know who's good and who's new.

After that my heart was not lost, my mind kept on going to him, strangely every time I saw it all I thought was Luna making only the hatred that was there for Nia. I'm stupid, I should realize it's not Nia's fault but how I apologize even see it only hate and my lust that controls. I feel like I can't control myself.

Until then I ventured to tell my disgrace to my best friend Sadam, without our knowledge there was someone who listened to our conversation. He's Rian, my upperclassman. And I'm sure he's the one who spread the word to a lot of people. At first I did not respond because I was sure that gradually the rumors would disappear. Several times I saw Nia as sad, she was also often seen alone. I wanted to apologize for everything, but it seemed like he was always trying to avoid me. Until one day I saw him talking to Rian, what did Rian want from Nia? I have a hunch that there is something that Rian is after from Nia I can see Rian's gaze when chatting with Nia. What a jerk he is different from me! I'm pretty sure he stole the hearing when I chatted with Sadam. I can't stay still, I have to prevent Rian from messing with Nia. Huh huh? What's the matter? Why am I so worried about Nia?

I don't know what made Diar appear in my life again. Even now it's so bad! he really made my blood rise, my tears leak. Aaaaaaargh, I really hate Diar, God please keep me away from strange, crazy, sick creatures like Diar. I beg God, may he change schools from here and away from my life. Aamiins.

Bandung, 2011.

I remember so much that after writing that in the diary, I cried while immersing my face in the pillow that I hated Diar so much that even if I were told to go back to that time I would still hate him.