Considered Cheap Women

Rania's back at my school

I woke up with a deep wound, early in the morning my mother came to my room and tried to strengthen that everyone must have had a broken heart. Looks like Diar told me everything last night because mom would be very worried to see her favorite daughter come home with puffy eyes typical of people crying.

Today I will return to the dormitory unable to feel like I have to go back to school and meet up with Kamal again. From under my mother called me said my friend came, I went downstairs with a giant step turned out to be Flowers, Zidan, and... Kamal.

I tried to look like I just woke up so that it was in my eyes like a person waking up not like a person who cries a lot.

"How come you're not ready to go back to the dorm yet? I also just woke up nih haha" I tried to be cheerful even though I looked like a freak.

"Yes, is there time? I want to talk for a while" Kamal said as he looked down as if there was no courage to look directly at me.

"What conversation is Mal? Here aja chat is the time to mepet we want to go back to the dormitory why not later at school? "

"There's nothing else to talk about, was it all yesterday, right?"

Bunga and Zidan just fell silent nobody spoke, Kamal raised his head and looked straight at me.

"Once again I want to apologize to you Yes, I know all this must be very painful for you. I'm sorry that I betrayed you even though you were so good with me. But all this time I didn't lie when I said love you that I really love you Yes!"

"Thank you Mal already cares about how I feel, want you to lie or be honest all this time I don't care that Mal is your right. I'm just disappointed why you had to lie about Rania when if you're honest maybe I could have been better Mal... Maybe it won't hurt like this" I gulped as I said the last sentence.

"I'm sorry Nia"

After yesterday's incident I tried to be normal with Kamal while at school I was still chatting with him of course Kamal who started the conversation he acted as if everything was fine. Is he really thinking about my feelings? Even occasionally he accidentally called me with affection that suddenly made a fuss in my class usually my friends will shout "reverse" and after that I will definitely leave the class.

One week had passed after my breakup with Kamal, many regretted our relationship which ran aground because of the third person but it seemed like Kamal was mediocre to respond to it. Until this morning I was very surprised to see Rania who returned to school here, reportedly Rania's father spent a considerable fee to re-enter Rania's school because Rania should not be able to return to the school after resigning.

And the moment I didn't want to see happened, when Rania and Kamal talked together as lovers, many of my friends who strengthen me but I really do not want to be considered a weak woman let alone just a love affair I try my hardest to be ordinary sometimes Kamal kind of signaled to Rania that I accidentally saw them both. Huh! What the hell is Mal? my people used to be your pretentious! My inner.

But there were some moments when I was alone in the dorm I felt cramped and heartbroken but lucky I had a friend like Bunga who always strengthened me. When sad like this I remember Diar, from the beginning of school I never saw him. I'd be proud to ask Diar about my friends, I also do not want them to think that Diar is my escape because of heartache by Kamal let alone they know Diar used to make me labeled a cheap woman or even until now their assumption has not changed to me. I don't know.

Wednesday, today I leave early because of the class picket. While climbing the stairs to my third-floor class, I overheard some people chatting "Mal, why the hell is Rania more choosy? it was more beautiful than Nia. Is it because it's hard in anything? hahaha"

"Hahaha even though it's been widespread in whatever Diar wants to be the same as you whose girlfriend is not loved"

"Haha ah it's not good to talk people, the heart can not lie I still love Rania" That's the voice of Kamal.

I was silent in that place must be Kamal and his friends I was indeed a picket schedule with Kamal even he who asked for the first time we dated so we could be alone he said. Why didn't Kamal say anything when his friends talked about me and Diar? but he knows the real story. Is it because I'm not her boyfriend anymore so she doesn't want to be tired of standing up for me? Though I remember very well how angry Kamal was when someone brought up about me and Diar, is it just to keep his good name because I am his girlfriend? I turned around not so towards class my head suddenly hurt so much so my heart. On my way back to the dormitory I saw the car stop and I recognized the car very well, it was Diar's car and sure enough Diar came out from inside after talking to me who was in Diar's car was waving and the car went out the school gate. I kept going, I shouldn't have met Diar when I was devastated again. But there was no way Diar could not see my whereabouts, after being close to Diar I looked at him and tried to smile.

"New kok coming?" much

"Accident, nih" he opened his hand hanging next to it covered in bandages, I didn't see it earlier because it was covered in a jacket hanging from his body.

"How could it be? accident where? you like to speed! how's his hand? must be sick huh? Diar, eat it bring ordinary vehicles just dong do not have to speed it so rich gini"

"Whisper you, ah I want to get ready for school. You want to go back again? Is anyone missing?"

I thought back to Kamal and his friend's chatter, making my chest tight with pain.

"Father. Still quiet no friend wants to ajakin flower yes I've been to the dormitory first, bye" When it will turn around it turns out there Rania and her friends will go to school. I try to be friendly by smiling at them and passing by. Diar is still confused, maybe because I saw Rania in this school again I looked at Diar and winked while saying in my heart, I will tell you a story. Diar nodded. Ooh! Does he hear my heart? Dihs. Imagine me being amused myself.

I wasn't going to school today but after seeing Diar I decided to go to school I didn't know why either, but there was an urge in my heart to have to meet Diar again. Am I starting to feel for her? Ah that's impossible! I can't love Diar much less so soon I just broke up with Kamal if I turn away as soon as I just like to justify the opinion of people that I'm cheap who easily fall in love with men. I don't want them to think I'm that low.

All day I avoided Kamal, he seemed to realize that but could not do anything because if it was too close to me he knew that Rania would be angry again, that's what I heard from Bunga if he accidentally heard the chatter of Rania and Putri that Rania had run out because Kamal was still close to me. It's up to me to be really bodo time with their business.

Back home I saw Diar as if waiting for someone at the gate of the girls dormitory, again waiting for who he is? My inner.

"Yes, there is Diar" said Bunga.

"I've also seen so many people that I didn't see"

"Wait for you Yes"

"Dih. Most also want to go to the meeting" whereas in my heart I justify the words of Flowers.

After being close to Diar, he looked at me and smiled I replied

"You meet the one who just jumped the codes" he replied while laughing. As soon as I remembered my meeting with Diar this morning, I immediately stared at Diar sharply which he replied with a satisfied laugh.

"Let's have lunch outside while discussing the codes you loved earlier"

"What the heck In your GR my man was flickering" I replied with a laugh as well.

"Yaudah yuk I anterin buy eye medicine"

"Haha.. What the heck you guys are not clear Nia I tipped meatball dong a pack of yayaya" After that talk Flower immediately passed, but only a few steps he stopped and looked towards Diar

"Why are your hands?"

"Accident" I replied.

"Well you know very well Yes, lest there be love behind this wound" I glared at the Flower and Diar just a smile just made me feel embarrassed. Part of why I have to answer anyway, really mepet again menjawabnya. My inner.

Finally Diar and I had lunch outside without changing uniforms first.

"What code is it?"

"Fell On! Males ah"

"Hahaha. but I'm serious about how Rania can go back to our school again anyway?"

"Because of money what's more?"

"But crazy is doing anything for the sake of a loved guy, cool, said Rania"

I just kept silent not wanting to answer Diar's words that weren't in tune with my heart.

"Gue was rich too, doing everything for the girl I love. But never looked at, haha.." said Diar. What the heck ventured into laughing himself, strange. My inner.

"Return yuk ah already abis nih" said I do not want to drown into the curse of Diar.

"That's not what it's like"

"Whose girl do you love? speaking directly dong same person in not the same me"

"After everything I've done I've even been north to you, you still don't realize Yes?" I just fell silent and began to understand the direction of the conversation.

"Gue love is with you Desnia!"

"Well In I know you're just looking at my current situation, right? I don't need love with a baseline kasian"

"Why is it that in your eyes I know it's always bad?"

"Not Di you are so good with me but to fall in love again I still need time Di and to trust the same people again I also still need time Di"

"OK I'll wait until you're ready and believe"

"No need Di, try to open your heart to other girls who know there is a match and better than me"

Diar just kept quiet and didn't answer.

Dear diary,

Again Diar ngutarain feelings to me but somehow pain that Kamal love very deep for me difficult to believe again about love. Though Diar is good, I believe Diar is even better than Kamal. But for now I'm not ready to fall in love anymore.

*january2012

Diar, that name I will always remember with all the good memories. Although the beginning of our meeting was very angry and hate him, but with time Diar really apologized not only with words but also in all ways that make me always feel special.