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Is there a chance for me?

Diar, I haven't heard from him in a long time. I am indeed a generation with him, but fortunately different majors so we rarely meet, or rather I try to avoid it. After last making my name bad, I never wanted to see his face. And now he's right in front of me. Looking at me, smiling. I'm sick of it, it's not a sincere smile, it's a condescending smile.

"Sorry, I'm going through". I said, because he really got in my way.

"Kiss again dong". Diar said while patting her cheek.

"An****g you!". I pushed her body, as it passed. I wanted to punch him in the face, but I could still control my emotions.

"P*r*k". I could no longer hold back my emotions, I approached her I pulled her collar off, I stared into her eyes my vision a little blurry by tears. Diar just smiled, and made my emotions even more stirring.

"I'm wrong, are you?! I've tried all your behavior. I can report your depraved behavior to the principal, but I'm diem Di. I'm diem, because maybe you were possessed! you are not aware of what you are doing. But what?", I stopped talking. My tears could not stand. I've tried to forget everything, but why is this accursed man bothering me again. I sat down, crying and closing my face.

"But why are you spreading such embarrassing news. That you hate me the same as Di? am I wrong with you?"

"The wrong gate" he said as he passed.

And I'm still crying in the middle of the street, in the school hallway.

"Basar your crazy guy! An***g are you!". I shouted at Diar who was leisurely leaving. Aaaaaargh today my mood is completely shattered. I stood up, cleaned my dirty school skirt and went to class. I wiped away the tears that were left.

Up in class, my best friend Bunga looked at me while frowning.

"You why Nia? rich abis crying",

"Father, just a flickering whiteboard", I replied indifferently. I'm lazy to tell anyone, including my best friend, Bunga.

"Lawak elu mah", Laughing flower. And also some friends who are gathering.

Good thing, Bunga didn't ask me anything.

My Biology teacher came, we studied as usual. But today I was in a bad mood, some of my friends asked me why I only answered "again pms" so they understood and didn't ask much.

In the middle of my broken mood because of Diar. From the beginning of class, I felt Kamal watching me. It's okay if I'm considered GR. I tried to look at him who was on the right side blocked three tables from where I was sitting. Our views meet. Kamal looked at me expressionlessly, which succeeded in making me misbehave, turn around and pretend to read a book.

Back at school, I cross paths with Rian's sister. He greeted me, and made small talk for a while. Then he asked something, though,

"Eh, you really have a crush on Kamal from first grade Junior High? "

"Haha, it's an open secret, brother"

"Keep with Diar?"

I who was laughing, turned to look at Brother Rian sharply. He immediately salted, and probably felt bad.

"I'm sorry if you're offended I want to know, what all the news circulating is just gossip what the facts are"

"What news story? "

"Said you kissed Diar"

I exhaled violently, my feelings of hatred for Diar grew even greater.

"Udah ah Kak, I go home first yes", regardless of the response I immediately passed.

I went through it while keeping it from looking misbehaved. I heard Rendi say to Kamal "Don't look forward to people taking it, gaskeun bro!"

I don't know what Kamal's response to having gone through it. Suddenly Rene called me

"Yes, Nia" I turned my head. "Now, there's a greeting from Kamal still in love, isn't it the same?" all who were gathered laughed and cheered Kamal, I saw Kamal just smiling while leaning his back against the wall. O Lord, what a beautiful creation You are, my inner being.

I just smiled misbehaviorally and immediately left because I was really embarrassed, until not aware earlier many who noticed the incident including Bunga which turned out to be beside Kamal's friends so wrong I did not see Bunga who was chatting with Zidan his girlfriend.

"Aciee, cieeee there's been a development of this power" Ledek Bunga.

"Breeding?" candaku. And we laugh together.

"Yes, Kamal was wondering about you"

My eyes blinked "Don't make a smile deh Nga ah"

"Males is not a story"

"Bungaaaiiiiiiiih". Suddenly the Flower ran and I reflexively chased after him. Finally we're chasing the rich kid.

The night Bunga and I studied together, we happened to be roommates. As I explained at the beginning of the story that I live in a school that has a dormitory.

I'm still curious about the words of Bunga who said Kamal asked me something.

"No, tell doong Kamal what to ask you". I asked him while he was siphoning off the potato chips he had offered me.

"KEPO ah"

"It is you who first make curious, the sin of loh makes people curious"

"Hahaha, it's not time yet"

"What time is lebay bener"

"Udah ah learn again, I'm not done yet"

"Please Nga! the grilles are"

"Lu guess the grating test hahaha"

And in the end I was not told. That's why I feel at home friends with Bunga he never leaked secrets and can be trusted to keep secrets. Yes what I can do, hopefully it is not negative things that even make Kamal far from me.

BT really the same flower of the same secret-secrecy times me. Moreover, this is about Kamal actually making KEPO. About what Kamal said with Flowers. I swear to you. Kamal is there a chance for me? Duh so lebai giniiiii. Aaah so embarrasseduuuu. And Diar as usual always makes me cry and get angry only those two options are there when I meet him, you bullies.

Bandung, may 15, 20*11.

I read again my old diary, the color of the book is dull inedible age. But the memories in it I can still feel. Kamal, what a tremendous influence you had on me back then. Sometimes I laugh considering everything that happened at that time even though it has been a few years, it feels like the incident I just experienced this afternoon. Haha.

The rain, accompanied by a tangled song from fortwenty really drew me once again to that feeling. A very beautiful feeling, a woman's sincere feeling to a man who is adored.