Choosing the Wrong Honey

POV jealous. Natalyvon (28)

POVS. NAPHYSAS

tonight I myself endure the cold that hit my body, I seemed to oscillate with the circumstances that I made myself. sad, want to feel crying and screaming as hard. honestly I'm fragile my heart is not as strong as people see my physique is not as strong as they think it hurts, my mind is holding back the longing that wants to go back to the past.

sometimes I look at the bed that you have always had beside me, embrace me with loving affection with your love, peppering me with your affection that I now miss, me, I, the wife who now misses you will miss your presence.It feels like a dream and I want to wake up immediately waking up from this nightmare.

not imaginary this is my real life, my bitter life that I have to go through. My beloved husband, I have to be willing to see her interdict other women in front of me, even though it was at my request but in fact it was heavy to let go.

far away are you feeling the same way as me? definitely not the answer.You must be happy with your first night while I'm here feeling long for your presence

after a long time I finally felt that jealousy again, I remember the last time I cheered you on when we were together in college. with your handsome face makes all women want to have you, especially because your very gentle nature with anyone makes many women who approach.

really at that time I was very jealous even though I knew I was the only woman you loved but really I was very jealous. now I myself feel again the feeling of jealousy is a long-lost feeling, a long-lost feeling, slowly I had to get used to this jealousy of having to get used to my mad presence.

honey that I chose myself to accompany your days and my days. on the bed where we poured out my heart I lay looking at the ceiling of the room thinking of you, my husband, who was in love with his new wife.

and from that moment on you were always concerned with me, and always attended the senate meeting if there was me, trying to always be with me and make me happy. 3 Years I was close to you but you never expressed a sense with me.

I'm sure you and I have the same taste. and on that day though there was never an expression of love you and your family came to propose to me really when it was the most beautiful graduation gift I ever got a gift that I will never forget.

all night long silent I tried to remember all about you about us, about everything we've been through. I remember on our wedding day , you and I are so happy on your face always smiling and you are so sweet when you smile and it makes me love you even more.

on our first night that should be romantic we even laugh crazily because confused what to do. Abi, I really miss you 3 days go by without you it feels so hard Abi, I want Abi to always be by my side with me and always comfort me.

I miss swerving Abi, I miss joking with Abi, I always look at the bedside hoping that Abi caresses my hair which always calms my heart.

I don't know how long I remember everything about her until I finally fall asleep and forget everything.