Chasing Dreams

Chapter 7

We were familiar with the medical tests to get into this campus, the beginning of the introduction of him who greeted me with a familiar and we became acquainted until finally the introduction continued in cyberspace we exchanged information and told some things. I used to think he was a really good friend, though, time passed gradually we began to become familiar after living in the dormitory and did not expect us to be a class at the time of class division. We are two solid people in the class maybe even in this class in your opinion, at that time we started telling a lot of things starting from yourself, family, family, girlfriend and her other unimportant things. All we told you is that there is nothing hidden between us.

She was the one I considered a strong woman at the time, she is beautiful and a strong woman because she was born into a broken home family that most of them fled to a dark world because they were lonely and inattentive, but he was different he instead chose to go into one of the pesantren during Junior High and proceed to one of MAN after that. He always understood me first, he always listened to all my complaints obey whatever I want, for me he is the greatest friend here.

Coincidentally, he was very quiet and well I think it is suitable for me to make close friends. We sit next to each other, tell each other when the exam comes, help each other when there is a problem, chat when boring lecturers give material, eat together outside, go for a walk together while on a cruise, making trouble together.

At that time he liked one of our classmates but unfortunately the man was different religion from us, he always talked about the man. But somehow the man was even close to me, yes I consider him just an ordinary friend no more feelings. Me and the guy used to talk, chat, and play around together whether he liked it or not to me first which obviously I had no feelings for him. But it turns out that he was jealous of my closeness to the man when I explained that I did not like the man, we were just friends.

ahh. It feels like this is a beautiful thing we have done together, hard and happy, crying and laughing, jealousy and much more. We spent 3 months together without any problems. After the weas finished we began to stretch and began to break away each of them, after walking a few months then it looks like what he really is.

He who always wanted to look perfect in front of me, who always got more attention than me made one fatal mistake. Because he restricted me from interacting with all my friends, but I never once restricted him from communicating or meeting his friends. It was night time and coincidentally my best friend when SMK used to be an alumni at my campus he was having a need for a UKOM event tomorrow, my best friend called me and wanted to give me a ride home at the time but she forbade me from seeing my best friend. He said to me, "choose him or me?" I was silent for a moment to think, but without a second thought I immediately went to leave him to spend the night at home because for me this attitude has been very outrageous.

From then on we often fight and fight even though only because of trivial. At that time he preferred another friend than me, when I was sick he even went to one of the malls with others. Though when he was sick I was always there even 24 hours I was next to him and took care of him, but what we want to say we can never demand someone to repay what we have given or done.

I started to slowly move away from her, starting everything on my own again just like the beginning. It's not easy, it's heavy but it has to be done. I don't want to be friends with people like him, he's more selfish without thinking about my feelings, he wants to always be understood but never wants to understand anything I say.

Make friends with anyone but remember not to be good friends especially until this incident happens again, you can be friends but do not be constrained, you can be dear but not to be lied to, you can not be fooled, you can talk about your life but with the right people, you can do a lot with people who love you.

Our lives are not just about friends, our lives are about everything we want to achieve. If you feel that your friend is going to make you worse then it's better to end up having no friends than to be restrained and depressed.

I hope that tomorrow even if we don't become good friends anymore, I hope you can keep all our secrets and I will be so if you can take care of them. Remember we have spent time with stupid things that are not important, we have been together in all things either difficult or happy.

I did love you first, I didn't want you to get hurt, but I'm sorry this is my choice because you put more importance on your ego without thinking about my feelings. Life must continue, though, I live my own days without any close friends anymore and the day re-adapts to this environment even though it has been a long time but feels foreign because we used to be just busy spending time together.

And I won't bother you if you don't bother me first, don't make our affection boomerang for each of us later on. You know more about me and I hope you don't interfere in my affairs anymore.

I can't trust anyone anymore since then, I'm enjoying this slowly comfortable lurch about it.

I love you but I hate you more