Chasing Dreams

Chapter 11

Behind all the stories and stories that have been passed, not everything about heartache and wounds. Behind it is tucked a lot of happiness without you knowing, I who have felt a lot of difficulty can cover it with a fairly satisfactory value and counting does not make my closest people ashamed of me. Even though the grades on campus were quite satisfying, I never stopped learning so much from the people I knew, I am grateful that I used to work in a hospital and I am grateful that I used to go to school at SMK Health. It made me get a lot of lessons, all the basics about learning on campus mostly I understand. When I worked in the hospital, I learned a lot of lessons that I could use on this campus.

From the academic value on campus, the value of practice, and the value of alhamdulillah service are all quite satisfactory. Not that I want to be arrogant but that is the reality, but all my current values and abilities are not that I get instantly. Just like the others, everything I get from going through a process is also even a longer process than most people.

I who never failed to focus on learning due to losing one of the trusted people in this campus did not expect that the academic value is still satisfactory, it is still studying alone even though not with him, he said, the determination remains to do more. Even though he was evil but every test when he asked I always tried to answer, there is still a sense of pity in this every time he saw his distress let alone our class. It felt like every time I went to class that she had in it I was out of breath, ever since I decided to stay away from her I was more alone and more often outside of class, I don't want to linger in a room with him every time I see his pain always comes back, even though I try to forget but the feeling still arises. I'm not a good person, but at least I don't do anything negative like you talk to a lot of people. Relax, your position will remain you in my life, everyone will not be replaced with new people because the memories in each moment must be different, each person will not be replaced with a new person, every time you feel pain there is always you who cross the pain so deep that I can not forget that you are the best and most evil in my life.

Before deciding to continue this education, I was envious when my school friends invited me to gather or just hang out together. Because at that time I was very difficult to spend time because it always collided with the schedule of service in the hospital. It used to be terseit that I would never have time to continue my education again, but again fate brings all the impossible stories for us to imagine and think about. But when destiny really has brought us forward then we realize that all things can be realized or not realized at all.

During my time in college from the beginning of the semester until now, I think everything went smoothly without any obstacles. I learned to just follow the flow and the results were quite satisfactory, but sometimes there are times when I fight the groove when there is a feeling lazy to learn.

When I lose a friend that I consider valuable here I think will also affect my value, but God was too kind to me by giving me a lot of value and skills that would be good for me in the future. This is where I began to realize that not all loss will end miserably, there is also sadness that produces happiness yes although not the happiness of the heart can at least make happy people who are with us today.

When I was just in this education, I thought that I was not a failure just that I had to take me for a while so that I would understand a cruel and miserable world, not just pleasure. I was just late to make this decision, I did not intend to go to college that I wanted only freedom in nature but until now had not materialized. There will come a time when I make it happen to be free to wander again through every part of this world.

If only I had continued this education immediately after graduating from SMK, if it had happened it would not have been as heavy as it is now, if it happened, everything would be light because I would have lived it with a friend of mine since the time of SMK until now, yes even though it is now very rarely communicated with him. I'm sure he'll always be a victim of me if I go to college with him first, surely all of us pass by like our old High School. But it's all just if I never would have happened, because time we can't turn back time will just keep going forward without knowing and understanding everything that happens.

I get a pretty satisfactory value this is not just getting it there are many painful things that I have passed, too, nor was it a short time to get to this point I spent 3 years searching for myself and finally decided to return to the medical world where I should be, the most obvious thing is that you are just a fake friend who can slander and bring me down so painfully that even now it still hurts, maybe God wants to strengthen me with this value. Not only the academic values I have obtained so far, but the values of life are also a lot I get, the values of manners and manners I get as well. Although there are so many people who are not polite to me when I am older than them, it does not matter because there are also many people who still appreciate me. I'm late not a failure, I learned a lot not a lot of talk. I'm just late for college doesn't mean you guys are much younger than I can, remember every human has limits to hold back his anger and emotions.

It is true that some and even most people think that academic values are important, but according to my point of view, they are not academic values but rather skills and ethics in real action. Because academic values can be manipulated or that everyone can get answers from others, but if the value of skills and ethics can not be manipulated let alone cheat values like this is purely from within and the results of the learning process so far.

Value does affect when we are in education but value does not affect success, free you have very good value but you do not want to succeed and you only live your life flow. When in education the value of influence for us in know many lecturers and many friends, but rest assured that like that will not forever sometimes friends who look at people only with value are those who want to use you at any time if they leave you you can not do anything you can only be quiet and pensive when you realize that you have been used all this time. Around me most people here just want to use without us want to walk together, they just want results without knowing the process

Like me, I realized that everyone who came close to me was just an illusory friend. Why can I think like that? yes, this is the fact that they use my abilities to benefit themselves, but fortunately I am the one who can distinguish which ones want to use and which ones really want to fight together. Not to be arrogant but to be more careful again in choosing friends, not not unwilling to share knowledge just afraid of being lied to again, not just want to join just don't want to look stupid like those who only use others. I've been traumatized by the figure of a friend, I've been traumatized by everyone who wants to get close, I'm afraid of being slandered again, I'm afraid of heartache again, I'm afraid of all that. I don't want to live with those who are full of lies, I don't want to live my day with people like that on campus.

Many successful people have scored poorly in academia, but they are able and willing to learn and develop their skills by creating and producing something that is profitable for many people, never give up when you get bad academic grades while in your education because it will not make you successful. Success is the result of your own ability.

When I look mediocre with the value I get, which some people think is satisfying I see someone who is so frustrated with the value he gets, she was crying but I didn't know her very well, all I knew was that she was just a classmate of mine but a class break with me. When the exam was going on I saw him busy studying in the dorm and in front of the class before the exam started, but why could he get a bad grade I asked in my heart, while I who never learn even get a fairly satisfactory result. I thought for a moment, that what we have but we're not even grateful out there is someone who wants it by working hard but still doesn't get it. From a distance I watched the man cry with his friends, actually I was sorry when it was added again I could not see people crying, my heart would pass immediately for sure. I wanted to help him, but I could if I was just an ordinary man, not a God capable of giving everything I wanted.

At that time I was grateful that there were still many people who wanted to be like me, many people who wanted values like this as well but why I was not grateful. Again here too I think again that friends will sometimes lead us to things we do not want like he who I see crying small values with his friends who are the same value like him, while I was just ordinary without any friends invited to study together at that time.

I became strong and strong as I am now, not because I was strong from the beginning. Only I don't want to look inferior to you, I'll never beg to get close and befriend you again. Sometimes when I contemplate alone I get sucked in my heart for revenge, but I'm not such a bad person. I'm not like you, you forget that you slandered yourself when you slandered me. You are the best and worst friend I have ever had in my life, may one day you feel this pain as well and may the pain go deeper than my pain. God never sleeps.

Thank you for your lessons, from you I learned that what looks good in the beginning is not always beautiful in the end. That is a very important value and will be useful someday.

In the last 2 semesters I did not expect much on grades, I hope grades will remain as smooth as ever and I gain quite a lot of ability and skills. So that I can surpass all those who have insulted me, so that I can show who I really am. I don't have to spend much time with you anymore, you are an illusion friend, a fake friend and a hypocritical friend. You blame me for everything, without you knowing that you are worse than me, you cover up all your ugliness by subverting me who never says anything about you even though I know, I could have been replying with more pain but for what? if I reply it means I'm just like you.

At the end of the semester I'm sure you'll need me, for you to get grades with my help. But unfortunately you are too embarrassed to ask and ask for help to me, but I do not necessarily refuse your request so I can even help you because you were once a part of this life, although in the end you dropped and embarrassed me without you knowing what it was like.

I hope in the future there will be more lessons from the values of life that have been passed so far, values are not just about the traveler. Value is about how you understand the meaning of all the actions you take.

When in education you get bad grades, it does not mean you are stupid just that you are adapting to the circumstances that you may have just felt now, as well as if you get good grades, it does not mean you are stupid just that you are adapting to the circumstances that you may have just felt now, as well as if you get good grades, not that you are smart, just that you are lucky and you have adapted to the situation. You should be proud when the greatest value of you is that you are able to help people, you are able to fix all problems, and you are able to make all those problems a lesson for your life.

There are many people out there who want to have value like you, so when you get it try to appreciate it because it could be one day your value goes down and you feel like everyone else feels. Try to learn a lot from the experience that occurred during this time, learn patience from all insults, learn sincerely from all slander, learn to smile from a pain, and learn to succeed from all those things. You will never succeed if you never learn from it, you will not become strong and strong if you do not learn from it.

So losers only if you can not learn from all that, we are fragile, we are easily broken but rest assured if we learn from all that we will be strong and strong. I don't want to be the one to be cornered, I don't want to be the one to always be blamed, and I don't want to lose a friend like you. It's just that God knows and wants to give someone more than you, God knows that you're not as good as you seem, God knows that you don't deserve to have me as your friend, god knows that someday I will pass you by. Thank you for your betrayal first, thank you for your ego that is too big until I finally know that all this time was just your ruse.

I'm not a loser like you're talking about, I'm not a coward, I'm not desperate just that I'm trying to improve myself to outnumber you so you know that the person you've been insulting all along, you slanders are the ones who will be far above you. My message to the losers who may be reading this is not to slander others anymore, just me you slander. Fortunately there are some friends who never leave when you slander me, they never stop giving me support and support, he said, they are really good friends even though I often forget them but they never leave me, unlike you who are losers just dare to talk about me behind my back, even at times like this you can still cover all your rottenness even though I already know very well about it. What I am getting right now is the result of what I have let go of first, maybe if I don't go away from you I will always be your slave that you use as you please and with your selfishness you hurt a lot. Fortunately I let you go even though at the beginning I had lost my way but eventually I became strong and strong because of you, it was not easy to get to this stage, it is a difficult thing to go through but what will happen again if it is like this destiny we just follow the scenario of God alone.

I never took issue with the value in my work, because I was always confident in my abilities. But I see you always want to surpass me in academic grades, you are willing to justify all means to get good grades, from approaching the hostel supervisor to every lecturer wants you to take his heart, he said, whereas I am not good at seeking attention from people especially lecturers even though there are lecturers who used to always ask for my help but finally I chose not to deal with lecturers anymore unlike you it is what seeks the attention of everyone, though, even though you are so there are some people that you will not be able to take advantage of, remember that there will be karma that will come and you must also remember that academic values do not make you successful. Success is only for people who want to fight healthily, not for people who like to slander and like to seek attention and like to take chances in this narrow-mindedness. If you really want to compete with me then compete healthily, there is no need to play behind me if you dare why do not you come directly to me and just invite me to fight, he said, as long as you***you are a despicable woman who likes to expose your own disgrace and without you knowing you have embarrassed yourself. Whereas in the past we had a discussion not to drop each other like now, until whenever you will not be able to surpass me, until whenever you will remain under me, until whenever I will always remember you, and until now I won't stop learning so much to be better than you. May one day everyone know who you really are, may you feel this heartache, and try not to blame others when you get into trouble by your own behavior. I hope you will lose someone you trust right now, and I hope you will be betrayed by someone closest to you now, I will see how patient you are with all the karma that awaits you ahead. There is no need to look for positive things in yourself, because then you only see negative things in yourself.

Actually I'm not smart, it's just that I'm using more of the time that I've spent by getting good values for future life, really now everything happens. I'm just going back to what I learned and what I've been through.

I likened in front of me there are 4 crossroads that are left, right, front and back, if I choose left I will definitely encounter many difficulties as well as if I choose to right, if I choose to go back then I am wasting the time and tears that I spent up to this moment in time, but if I choose ahead I'm sure there will be success and all the time and tears and everything I've relinquished to get there will pay off handsomely with one word "success", success is waiting ahead there you just have to choose which path you have to take, which step will lead you to success, and which person will accompany you to fight.

We can learn a lot from the stories of others, experience a lot from the experiences of others, and be more grateful than others who want to be like us.