Chasing Dreams

Chapter 1

I am just a commoner who is often called dear (wish, hehe) yes that's what people call me.

I was just an ordinary child who grew up in a simple family environment, who from childhood wanted a high ideal to make people around me proud of me.

it all started since I graduated SMK and started to know the real world, and sure enough many unexpected things happened afterwards.

I used to admit that there was a lot of lack of knowledge about the outside world that was very cruel, so it had made me lose direction in finding identity. I tried a test to become a member of the TNI but unfortunately my age has not met the criteria is still less than a few months away from being able to take the test.

At this stage I feel discouraged, because I have often practiced at that time but at that time I can return to the spirit when my family always give me the spirit to try again next time. while waiting for the next test time I had to work to help "bah" our name to him, mbah this is the parents of my mother's best friend.

Actually there is a fear of working to help her at home, because she is someone else is no longer family, even though the mother and child are friendly but still I feel afraid. because he has to stay at his house too. His work was only told to keep the stall, but the risk was quite large because there all the goods and money were entrusted to me. After I worked there all my assumptions were wrong, Mbah and his family were really good to me.

They treat me like a member of their own family. After a month of working here I found out that there was an opening of contract workers at a company, I was just trying to apply there. When I wanted to apply and complete the file I accidentally lost money to shop for stalls of Rp. 700,000 at that time, well at this time I do not know it was stolen from under the motorcycle seat that I drive, because it was unthinkable that anyone would steal it.

I also feel very guilty to Mbah, and it is good to forgive all my carelessness. And from then on I began to study carefully about whatever was entrusted to me. From that moment on I learned that everything that is underestimated will mean a lot if it has lost it.

And at that time I was determined to avenge all that I had been given all this time, both the material and the stories in his youth. All of these are valuable lessons for me. At the time of going home I say goodbye while thanking Mbah, it feels sad but I have to step up for the future...

After I got home I started doing activities like usual, just eating, sleeping, practicing, learning psychotes, and sometimes watching Korean dramas for about 3 months. A month before the registration was opened I started to complete the file which was for some people complicated, he said, but all that passed with a lot of support from the closest people and people who love me that makes me excited and not feel tired in the least, there was a very burning spirit at that moment.

And finally came the time to open for the test, I started from online registration at that time internet access in my village was a bit difficult because my house was still in a village that was quite far from urban, urban, to do the online registration I have to go to the neighboring village that has an internet stall (warnet) which travel time to the village about 15 minutes from my village. That day I completed an online registration from the initial stage to the end that will get the amino number for the number during the test later. After getting the amino number I have to verify the file directly to each panda that has been selected during online registration yesterday within the specified time.

Well the day before I left for the panda to verify the file I fell ill for about 1 week can not wake up, he said, while the time for me to verify it is only 1 week if not to verify it means registration is forfeited. And the second time I was disappointed again, at that moment I realized if it wasn't my path and then I made another decision to stop taking the test until the time came I would definitely continue on this journey again.

It was the same year that there was a job vacancy from my sister-in-law's friend, and at that time I didn't know that her job was like her sales system. At that time I went to an area where the company was located, at that time I was just lulled by the beauty of a chaotic world without thinking about anything else that could affect my life in the future.

For about a year I worked there with many things that I had experienced and I did there. At that time I did not feel the peculiarity here but my parents felt strange when I worked there so I did not attach importance to my family anymore, which I only thought about when it was working and working. Without me realizing it turns out I used to be very stupid to work there I was never paid while working there and the money generated was from the results we sell ourselves.

I don't know why I worked there for so long. There he said the system will continue to rise until it can be a "manager" he said and I believe in it because they used to always lure with fun things, he said, time passed with sorrow all I passed there (but to me much more sorrow than it pleased), many bitter things I experienced, many things, there were too many tears that I shed when there was too much disappointment that I got there, not to mention the pressure from various parties that demanded me to do things.