Chasing Dreams

Chapter 13

There are many things I want to do after I finish this lecture, there are many thoughts that I want to achieve that will make me excited when I wake up from my sleep, for me this dream is a rainbow in my life it's full of colors and in every color it has its own story. The dream made me realize that I was born into the world not just passing by, without leaving any impression. I had to leave behind many things that were memorable for the world, therefore I had to pursue what I planned.

In my stance every plan must be done so that I get what has been planned, I do not direct the dream exactly a few inches from my face because it makes the dream look faint, vague, I don't also hang my dreams as high as the sky because I know that I can't reach the sky (unless you have supernatural powers), I also did not equate my dreams as the moon because I was afraid that I would lose them when morning came, My dream is just to write on a small piece of paper and I stick it on the wall of my room so that every time I wake up I can immediately see and be excited to approach it from time to time.

Until the time comes when I will achieve it one by one, I plan to leave this city later if the time comes, I will find where my success is, I will find where my success is, let go of the familiar environment here, and maybe I'll leave you too. If the time comes, let me adventure to find my identity and seek success, if I succeed then I have a sweet story to remember. But if I fail let it be a lesson and at least I have tried, even if I have to fail.

There are a lot of plans that I want to do, starting from the test again like the beginning, working somewhere, wandering, wandering, business and many more things that essentially I want to be a useful person and want to be a person who can boast of the people around me. From the very beginning I stepped in to pursue my dream I was determined to achieve it one by one without getting tired, without getting broken, I would keep walking, stepping over what was blocking, he said, will stand if it fails. Indeed, sometimes life is not fair to most people, but this is how life always revolves and there are things that we change ourselves, indeed, in our lives there must be the intervention of God and others as well, we can not live alone without the help of others. If you think the world is being unfair to you then all you can do is just be yourself, you don't have to change for the world to notice you, sometimes it's okay if we're not okay we're just human beings who are sometimes broken and sad it's natural. Not always you are sad, if the time comes for you to be happy will surely come happy somehow by how he came, you just wait and live it sincerely.

I woke up in the morning, staring at the wall of the room that was attached to many plans, hopes and dreams in it. I approached the sheets of paper and began to look at them one by one which I had achieved, I stood and fell silent that nothing had been achieved so far. I was determined that I should accomplish all that was written on the papers, in order that every waking and every sleeping I would not only look at him anymore I wanted to also enjoy everything written there. It feels restless when you can only look without being able to have all that, there is a very deep desire even though the process is full of pain of loss, of betrayal, of injustice. This heart always hurts when it remembers everything that people have done to me, but it will mean nothing if I can only be sad. All of that must be countered by success and success so that those who have insulted me feel devastated, if only silence there will be no results that we can get.

No need to look good in front of the crowd but in reality bad, no need to look happy in front of the crowd but the reality is sad. Just so yourself don't have to change, a change from their scorn will make you look bad. Just live your life as it is, your beautiful plan will produce something beautiful in the future. Keep stepping up to achieve that, keep fighting and stay energized.

You and I, we have a myriad of plans and expectations. You said we had to fulfill our dreams together, you said we had to go through things together whether it was happy or sad, you said we would live together, you said my sadness is your sadness and my happiness is also your happiness, ahh it's a speech I've heard from your mouth a lot and it really makes me excited every time I listen to it. You are the sun in my life, you are always shining, you are always there, you are everything. I want to be with you in every process, I want to be with you when you're busy with college assignments, accompanying you when you graduate, standing with you when your job application is rejected and you feel very sad until your job application is accepted and we are happy together, I want to be with you to happiness in the future, he said, I want to go through the process of maturing, I want to be with you for the rest of my life. But all this hope is lost when you get to know someone, who when you call his name my heart will feel like it's exploding and as if it's breaking. You are a traitor, you renege on the promises we have made, you change, and the hopes that during our gospel are simply lost. I slowly drifted away, you slowly disappeared, you said we had to change, you said we should focus on each other's paths. You are busy with others, without ever thinking about my feelings. You prefer him who just came to your life, even though he was your friend when High School used to be but he just came now when you were with me. You're the one who's always defending her when I talk about things that are really on her, like I'm the bad one. All this time what you've forgotten about everything we've done and been through, there's only me who's willing to stand by you when you fall, only I'm willing to accompany you when you're hurt, and I'm the only one who's willing to accept you for who you are, you forget that? Now when you slowly get everything, you forget about me who so easily chose someone else. Not necessarily that person will and can be like me, there are only a few people who want to be part of your process and the rest just want to be part of your results. May you remember what I said before, before he came into your life, both of us. And if it's true that you prefer him, then I'm ready to step back and slowly walk away from you, because I know I want to be in a duakan, I don't want to share it with anyone. Let me try to convert you rather than me having to be heartbroken continuously, thank you for 1 very meaningful year hopefully you can be happy even if not with me, may you not choose wrongly, he said, I pray for what is best for you, and may God repay all my pain through others someday. I will forget you but I will always remember all these memories and I will never forget them. That I once wrongly picked a person and accompanied him until he had everything but he ended up choosing someone else instead, thank you. Why do you confess love if you are unfaithful? why promise so much hope if all I get right now is a wound? why come if you finally have to go? you used to say that you wouldn't be like those people, but in fact you are worse than them you gave me a thousand hopes and poured so many plans in every meeting but in the end you broke them all. Maybe this is part of God's plan for me to be more determined, and to focus on the goal without having a companion who will only melt my focus all along. God loves me so much. I'm grateful I didn't make him a part of my life forever, with him being like that I know that he's not the best. I can't have you because you prefer him. And you know how much I love and love you but why would you prefer him over me who has worked hard to build everything from the beginning with you, whether or not I can get through it all without you, without your smile, without your spirit, no good morning from you when the morning starts coming and no congratulations on your break for me when I start to rest at night. Did you ever think what I would be like? but it's all for nothing I tell you if you've really chosen him, goodbye and thank you for everything.

It's the end of my semester, I have to face a lot of exams and trials, a lot of things I have to think about in order for things to go smoothly until graduation. Despite the presence of a companion, even though I no longer have you. I hope that all the difficulties in this semester do not come to me, and it's true that everything went smoothly and without obstacles until I graduated even though I had several times to revise the final task, huu tiring right? Fortunately there were no bullies and I focused on doing this final task, and everything was done on time. The seminar passed, the trial passed, and until finally the time for graduation. At the end of this lecture, everything goes the same as other people just that different people are no one who accompanies other than friends and family. For me not having a special person is not a problem, because if you have a special person like before will only make life feel heavier with all the lies for what? better as it is now, though, more focused on the future and charisma so that later when people are busy improving I have got something big because I have focused from before when they are busy denouncing and insulting me. Walk straight ahead without thinking about the people who will make a wound in your heart, just step one day they will understand that you are not what they think. And they will never change you with just their unethical blasphemy. You do not need an audience because you are not a spectacle, you do not have to be strong when you are sad because you are just an ordinary human being not an iron who has no feelings, even so, you always have hope to change yourself as long as you want to change it and want to try to be better again.

Out there are hopeful people like us today, those who live on the street just expecting to want to live in a warm home like us, those who are hungry only wish to eat what we deserve, those who cannot see hope to see as we do, those who are deaf hope to hear as we are, those who are sick wish to be as healthy as we are and those who have died wish they could live like us. Stay grateful for what you have, when you are desperate and feel the world is not on your side, remain enthusiastic and be assured that all will pass, if it's in your head to end your life remember that those who have died want to come back to life like us, don't waste your life just because the world is not on your side, do not listen to the words of people who talk about your ugliness, they are actually inferior to you, you must be strong, you must be strong, success is waiting for you there. If your despair gets worse all you need to do is leave it all to God because that is all that can help you get back up. Desperation is a temporary thing that you do not always have to fall, in any problem. When the time turns and you become very happy then remember again that you have felt very despicable and no one cares about you, when you think about it, be assured that God is reminding you that you must not be too proud of what you have right now, all of it is just a deposit from the almighty.

When you are hesitant to step up and make a decision, replay your memory that there are people who are very happy to see you not succeed. Therefore you must remove your doubts and remember again the plans that you have made. All your heartache will be your biggest motivation for success, try to focus on success.

Hope is always there for people who want to work hard, hope will always be there if we never get tired of waiting, hope will come with a myriad of dreams. And every plan must be done by action, without action there will be nothing we get. Everyone's plans are different, everyone's expectations are different, and dreams are different. We cannot equate our dreams with others, because every time there is a person and no one has a time, just be sure your time will arrive later when you actually take action to go to that dream.

We as human beings just try and pray that what we hope and dream, we just wait for when God will grant those prayers. Keep trying, as long as your efforts do not violate destiny, be sure God will grant it, you just wait patiently. We cannot plan destiny, because only God knows about our destiny in the future but we can change destiny apart from a soul mate,and also sustenance as long as we fight and really believe that everything can certainly change.

Planning for the future is easy, what is difficult is to achieve it because in each process must have obstacles. Before you become a successful person you should be tested by God if you are able to become a successful person, if you go through the process and are patient in every obstacle that comes, rest assured that you really deserve to succeed. Nothing is easy in this world, even to get instant noodles we have to boil it using boiling water first we can enjoy, likewise, your success must work hard first so that you can get the results.

If the time comes, sadness will become laughter, pain will become stories and memories will become our best teacher. If one day your dream is achieved never forget the people in your process, because because they are you who can be like today. Those who are only a few of these are able to make you successful, those who always present a smile to comfort you when you are upset, those who are able to accompany you from the bottom to the top later. Rest assured that only a few can be like that, when you succeed they will be proud of you instead of looking for a way to get you to fall into the abyss.

There used to be people who said to me "why are you tired of chasing your dreams? though you knew it would be difficult to achieve" I just smiled at him and said "this is my plan from the start, this is my choice. Whatever the result is it will be mine" then I leave it and say think that a lot of people who disagree see I want to succeed. Those like this should be told that my success does not need an audience, I just need supporters who are always there. The spectator will make a noise later and he can only see when we lose he will blaspheme and when we win he will praise us, while their supporters will always support you whether you win or lose they do not care what they know only you are happy. Just step your feet to test your dreams slowly but slowly but surely, although slow but still will work. No need to rush because it will make your plan destroyed, just you pay attention well and continue to walk carefully then success is definitely waiting.

The key to a good life is not to care about more things, but to care about the simple things and only to care about what is right and urgent, and do not pursue it too much because it will make you look bad, just do everything properly and you should then look good. Humans will never be satisfied with what they have when a plan they have succeeded in achieving they immediately want to reach their other plans, without them knowing they forget every process that has been passed and they only attach importance to their dissatisfaction.

Dreams can never be realized if they are not planned, and plans can never be realized if they are not done. So, when you have a dream to work hard to get it, because he will not come alone just with your plans igu, he needs to be done will produce a dream that you expect.

When you try to approach your dreams, at the same time your dreams are also approaching you. Believe that nature and its people are on your side and that it works the way it should.

Sometimes man only plans but is lazy to act so this is what will never get his dream, yanh, if you have planned then you should try to make it all go smoothly with the actions you do. There is no big thing without a process, and there is no solid foundation to support a tall building, no need to hang your dreams as high as the sky if to start moving us you just lazing around. Remember that laziness can ruin all your hopes, lose that feeling if you want all your wonderful plans for the future to be achieved. But if you just want to be a loser, then you just laze around in your room and do the routine as usual (only planning it will not pay off).

The universe never makes a sound and tells you what will happen to you whether your dream is in sight yet, the universe just runs its time forward. Every time that has passed from this universe we can not repeat, as much as possible we have to use it. I will be the most stupid person if I laze around, I will only be a loser if I do not act, I will not succeed if I plan without any action that I instill in me.

If you really want to be a successful person, then learn to be strong and strong because later if you are successful we never know what tests will come.

Plan + actions \= successes

Plan + no action \= stupidity

Actions without a plan will also produce something that is not desired, therefore every action must be planned