Chasing Dreams

Chapter 2

When I feel depressed and confused again there is a man who is always there and always entertains me at all times, he always tried to alleviate all my problems from the easy to the toughest.

He was just my coworker in the office but his attention was more towards me, he was always there he always made me laugh and came back cheerful when a lot of pressure from the boss.

To me he is different from other men, to me he is very kind, caring, and loving. He never once said rudely to me let alone yelled at me. He never gets angry when I make a lot of mistakes, all he does is smile when his heart hurts anyone.

Those of us who started out as just co-workers and became comfortable with each other decided to establish a relationship that was more than just a friend. The days I spent lovingly with her were never a drop of my tears falling because of her.

At that time I really felt the warmth and comfort in a relationship, I was mediocre it turns out that there is someone who considers me special in life, someone always put me first. And this is where I feel most perfect and happiest for owning and being owned by him.

This selfish me was finally melted down with the gentleness of his heart melted by the love and affection of all he who won it at that time. I never thought we could get this close.

It is true that besides someone who is strong there will be someone who is strong too, who will always be beside him somehow.

Time passed, It was my birthday, it turns out he prepared a surprise for me I did not think that he who had never been romantic so far could give this romantic surprise that was helped by my other colleagues. And for the umpteenth time I feel the happiness again made by him. He gave me a birthday gift of a clock at that time, which he said if I wore it would always remember about him in any time wkwk it was his first romp after dating me that saar.

At that time I was truly grateful to God for being given someone who sincerely loved me in the middle of this overseas. He always gives the unexpected, sometimes he suddenly gives me chocolate or suddenly takes me on the road when I'm dizzy or under a lot of workload... hmm, that was enough for me first.

My life always quickly returned happy when with him even though he was in a lot of trouble, he was the most beautiful gift for me at that time. Only he can make my days what they are today. I love him whatever and how he is.

Every second of time I pass there must be him and I am always happy, I hope he is my soul mate Lord. (my mumble in heart).

I don't want to part with him, I just want him to complete my life. I want to grow old with him I want to enjoy life with him...

6 Months passed, one day his attitude came and all his habits towards me changed drastically. He who suddenly likes to disappear without news, and he who acts cold towards me. I was so sad when she acted that way, when I asked her the reason why she changed. He said he was busy with his work and was sometimes playing his online games.

I kept thinking why all this time did not behave this way when the routine was equally no different, at that time I began to suspect because I felt the awkwardness. I started to figure out exactly what he was hiding from me.

Why not just decide me and then just go back to him properly (in my heart I was upset) when talking to him. He said he still loved me like this because he didn't want to lose me he said. But in fact he made me think differently, "you're a coward" I said. Then I left her crying and went back to the inn.

Today was the first day he hurt me and the first day I shed his tears. I condemn myself not to trust men anymore, I do not want to be stupid by men******** again.

And from that moment on I decided not to date anyone, and tried to keep my distance from the men I all thought were the same. I'm more comfortable making friends than having this kind of relationship again (i said in my heart).

And sure enough he really turned his ex back on it hahaha is not it. It turns out that I've only been used as his sole impingement for him to forget his ex, and in the end it remains the same he still chooses his ex over me.

If he really loved me, he would have maintained our relationship, not blamed the others.

this is how life is the more you pursue happiness the more you feel pain..

huft. I also decided to leave the office. So that I would never see the bitter thing he did to me again.

Goodbye and thank you for the happiness you once gave me, thank you for all the wonderful memories you painted on my days, thank you for all the wonderful things you did, she said, thank you for making me the queen of your heart, thank you for making me a part of your happiness all along. And thank you for all the wounds you have inflicted, I will never forget them even if I forgive you.

You are part of my happiness and part of my wounds, I hope you are happy even if you are not with me. I hope you don't forget us, we've been 1 in prayer and we've been through a lot of wonderful things. I'm grateful to have met you, so I can learn that beautiful things don't always have to be about you.

Thank you for awakening me to the importance of the perfect thing of consciousness. And thank you for this wound I will focus on pursuing my dream again which has been delayed because it is focused on you.

My prayer right now only wants to meet you again when I've been really successful. And you'll regret having hurt me before and for breaking my trust.

I hope you're healthy until it's time to meet me again.

I love you and I hate you