Chasing Dreams

Chapter 15

We never know what will happen in the future, whether what will happen let it be a plan from God. We as humans can only accept it.

Every person must have experienced his name broken, whether it is heartbroken or discouraged. Whatever it is must have all experienced it, so have I.

I've been broken even many times, whether I was heartbroken at leaving someone I love very much, betrayed by trusted people, slandered without knowing the cause, he said, even in staying gone forever by a very precious person in life. Every time I think about it I keep quiet and cry because my heart hurts too much when I remember it and there's nothing I can do, by crying I evaporate everything little by little to be calmer because it has released those emotions even though only with tears it feels quite relieved.

I remember every beautiful memory, I was happy at the moment but at the end of each memory I was always sad because at the end of each day there was always a deep and very deep wound. It felt like it was happening again, the more I tried to forget each of those memories the deeper I got hurt.

Like the last time I was betrayed again. He whom I consider to be truly loving to me suddenly left with someone else he had just met, leaving me who had taken him forward so far, leaving behind every memory that had become a wound in my life, leaving behind all the promises that have been said before. Everything you say lies, all you do is nonsense, you act perfectly when you suck.

In the past you claimed to love me very much but in the end you yourself are unfaithful, always lying can never be trusted. Humans can never survive with one heart if they still want a perfect thing, the longer it lasts, the longer you feel the pain that leads to heartbreak.

I do not understand why you prefer him, when it is clear that I am the one who accompanied you all this time. While he is just a new person in your life but he is able to change your world.

Loyalty always countered by betrayal? whether I'm not good all this time or indeed their characters are so I don't understand either. At least I've taken care of my heart and tried to be the best, even though it remains replaceable with others.

It's true that the figure that often makes us laugh freely and instantly makes us able to forget every problem that occurs, he also in the end that makes me cry, which makes me cry, a figure that I trust but he also gives wounds.

Loving is not about perfection, loving is about who never goes with all the trials and obstacles that come. No one is perfect, all of them have weaknesses. If love is indeed trying to complement each other, try to hold on as hard as you can, try to step together, and think for the happiness of both not the happiness of each, lower the ego a little so that it does not end in separation, try to hold each other when everything feels heavy, try to strengthen each other so that they can stand together.

Broken and lost are 2 things that are side by side and cannot be separated, when broken, we must lose something, whether it's a person or an opportunity that will leave a memory because we can not repeat it. When we are broken there is a sense that stuck in the heart, something is missing, something is empty. Losing is never planned, somehow God will separate us never know.

Sometimes I think, am I often broken hearted because I have done demikan to people before? I never broke someone's heart this often. If this is my karma, then it is enough to get here. I do not want to be constantly hurt, O God, I will stop to seek let the destiny of God who brings people with sincere love come to me. I don't want to keep repeating pain like this again, I don't want to be broken again for the umpteenth time. It's hard to forget every moment we've ever done together, but inevitably I have to do it because there's no way I'm going to continue in the grief while he's happy out there.

The story of my heartbreak is not only about a couple I once loved so much, I was once broken by the betrayal of someone I once considered a friend. This hurts more than a girlfriend, a boyfriend we can look for again but for a friend he will never be replaced. Even if it ends in betrayal like this, I personally can't trust anyone anymore. Even though he decided to part with a friend like this I'm sure sometimes he still thinks of me, it's not easy to part with a friend like this. As I said earlier as a result of this incident we are starting to distrust others again, we begin to close ourselves and begin to build forts and begin to build our own world in which only ourselves and with a million of our dreams, we start to be careful with people who want to be near us, not to be a boomerang for yourself. And remember that not only is he your best friend, he who you have considered a friend when only a few months started a very close communication turned out to be wrong, it turns out he can not accept every shortcoming that exists in you. True said people that the criteria of a friend is he who has known us for a long time is not he who we just know and we immediately entrust the world to him. From here I can learn that not everyone wants to accept us as we are whether it's a girlfriend or a friend, likewise with trust there is nothing we can trust other than ourselves and God the owner of your soul and body and you know what is the hardest to rebuild after being destroyed? yes, it is true that it is trust. Thank you and I hate you.

Likewise, when I lost someone from the face of this earth, yes he left me his best friend and will never return to the world. It's also what broke my heart and broke my spirit, our friendship from when we were in elementary school until we started as teenagers. At that time we were on my test which did not expect that it was the last day we met, you cheerfully get off our school bus and before long the bus leaves you to spread out the road. And when it was also a fatal accident occurred, you who became a victim of the accident can not be saved again due to the amount of bleeding from the wound on your body. By nightfall I had no idea that this afternoon was going to take your life, and it was true that in the morning I had news that you were gone. As I sat pensively remembering everything we had been through together, your smile, your kindness were all too perfect in my eyes. I am so sad to lose such a good friend, so perfect in my eyes. Because at that time we were testing and our school place was different, I so did not have time to see you for the last time. Even so I keep praying the best for you and may you be calm with God, you are a good person and God loves you more. I'm sorry I couldn't see you for the last time, you'll still be my best friend at all times. All that lives shall return to the bosom of God. I love you and See you.

Another broken moment was when I found out that my head had a small stirrup, even if it was small, but it could make my life float if it was not treated. Although I have been treated, but at any time this tumor can appear again in the same place or in another place that may be more deadly. Fortunately I was surrounded by good people, although many were evil but at least I had a sincere person who loved and cared for me. I will remember all those who have given me support and have always been with me when I was sick, and I promise to make good on them as well somehow I will repay God for determining his destiny. Now I just need to focus on what's ahead and I need to be successful so that I can repay those who have been good to me and those who have been bad to me, all have a portion of each is not everything you equal. Be eager to pursue your dreams, for there is no point in lamenting that continuous sadness will not produce any results.

You know, why does every man prefer dusk to dawn? yes, because most of them are more often dissolved in sadness than welcome happiness to come, but as soon as you walk, you will receive it whether it is dusk or dawn, whether it is sadness or happiness.

Broken and lost teaches us many things, if you look at it in a positive way you can certainly rise up and think that this sense will lead you to true happiness and success, with this feeling we will cultivate new hope, a new heart, new thoughts and a new day as well. There are times when I have to understand that loving something does not mean we have to have it at this time, and there are also times when I think it would be futile to love too much. Love cannot exceed our love for God.

Maybe after this loss I will find true love, true friends and true happiness. I always wait for that moment to happen. The reality of loss is the most painful blow that every human being will experience, even as time goes on, hours become days, days become months, days become months, and the moon being the year all of it will continue to be felt until there is a cure to that taste.

Never ask me how I was hurt by you or by other irresponsible people, you will not understand the pain and you will not be able to be me. Too much pain and loss in my life story, you know what it's like to be betrayed by a partner? I even many times, you know what it feels like to be slandered when it's not necessarily me? I've been through this too, how about you ever? and what do you do when you're slandered like this, I'm sure not everyone is able to rise, not everyone can accept this heartbreak, you've been in your best friend's house forever? if not, rest assured that someday it will happen and not even rule out the possibility that you will go first. Don't ask me how this pain is.

When you need a place to lean on to expose all your distress but he actually avoids as if he does not want to know about your problems and even considers all of them a joke, how do you feel? what action will you take? yes really quickly get away from him, it means that he does not deserve you he just wants to be with you when happy but when difficulties come he does not want to ask about it, do not let you be broken because of someone like that if you already know it then quickly make a decision so as not to end up disappointing again, so that the tah is broken/sick again, so that you will not be disappointed again, and so that you know that not everyone wants to be invited in your process.

Crying and sadness is actually not a good thing to do, but which human being does not cry and does not grieve when experiencing these 2 things. This is one of the nature of a human being. Sometimes people just need a warm embrace at a time like this, all of it can feel lighter when embraced by someone they love. Cry so much that you can no longer cry in the future, break a broken piece so that no one can break you again in the future, humble as low as possible so that no one can demean you in the future, and be strong so that no one can defeat you in the future.

Whatever has been broken will not return to fullness as before, whatever has been lost will not return the same, whatever has gone will never truly return. Therefore appreciate every thing that happens in your life, even if it is a painful thing though.

In life we always have many choices, but if you want to succeed then choose one and then fight until you get success. And if you make the wrong choice, then, continue to be in pain and heartbreak then all you get is a very deep pain that maybe it can make your life more broken not even more advanced.

Broken hearts teach us that not forever intact will always be intact, if the time comes it will crack as well. Sadness teaches us that we must not be happy forever. All have their respective portions, all the sadness will disappear as time goes by. The broken will grow, the lost will change, the wasted will eat, the fallen will rise again, for sure you cannot give up. If you give up then lose all this, you will never get the happiness that exists you will continue to be in a slump for a long time.

For all these feelings, if you are tired of resting for a while then continue again. You can't stay in a slump, it won't produce anything. Broken may but do not lose direction and purpose, sad may be but do not continue to be sad it can make your physical and psychological disturbed, but in contrast to happiness you can continue to be happy so that your heart and mind become more positive and calmer.

To be at peace with broken and hurt feelings we need only a sense of sincerity that grows in the heart. Learn to be sincere with everything that happens, even if it hurts, but you must be sincere so that you can continue many things that are waiting.

If you are heartbroken by someone, then rest assured there is someone out there who is waiting for you more than the person who broke your heart. If you are sad because of the loss of someone from your life, be sure that someone will replace him later. If you lose your spirit when everything you plan does not work, then try again to get up and start a new thing because in front there we do not know which plan will work.

Let you be hurt by those who have no heart, as long as you do not repay it to others. Because you never know that the person you are hurting right now is the one who is truly sincere, and he will be the one who will accompany you to success.

Do not continue to be in a false happiness, if you think everything is wrong then quickly take action. The sooner you go the less likely you are to be hurt.

If being together will make you change into someone else, then better yourself and be yourself. Is it not difficult to be someone else? if other people don't like you don't change because you are you, you are yours not theirs. They can only talk without knowing the truth.

Sometimes we need to be quiet for a moment to think about what your heart and mind are talking about, because the two are never in the same direction. Think before you act, whatever action you take whether it has a big effect or not, you have to keep thinking about it. Planning is very important to success, careful planning will produce something sweet later. Live what you have to live, remain grateful for everything that has happened. Not all of these stories in your life contain sadness and failure, without you realizing that you have forgotten that there are also many happy and pleasant things that you have felt. It is true that these humans are just lingering in sadness without ever seeing that their happiness is more than the suffering they have been feeling.

make your destruction today your race to succeed later, make each wound a motivation for your life and make yourself more meaningful than you are today. The world is always turning and you do not always experience failure and defeat, whether it is for your heart or your spirit. There will be a hand ready to reach you when you will fall, there will be a shoulder where you lean, there is a heart that becomes a place for you to complain, the point is to be patient until that person comes to you and gives it all away. In the end there will only be one thing that really won't leave your life is your life, if your life is no longer in your body then that's when you stop trying because however you want to turn back the time for you to live again it is not possible, it is beyond your limits. Other than your life, nothing will remain with you, everything will disappear either suddenly or slowly will definitely disappear.

Try to make the most of your time, appreciate every process that takes place, leave what is not necessary, let things that do not make you strong. Successful people are those who are able to survive in any situation and condition, not people who give up easily when tests and trials come. Successful people without fear of failure, successful people will experience many failures so that they can learn not to be weak and not easily shaky. Something beautiful we will get through a long process, in which there is a time bomb that can explode at any time without us knowing when it will explode.

Be a person who benefits others, be forgiving to yourself, lower your ego to be better. The process of maturation will continue, pain is also included in the process of maturing a person. Do not become weak just because of the blasphemy of people, arrange it as your motivation and race to get better. If they can do it why can't you? think that you are capable and confident that you will be able to finally. There is nothing impossible in this world, if we mean it then we will get satisfactory results as well.

And in the end there has to be a pause in every fight, and there will be a finished word for something that hasn't even started yet.

In every process towards something big, there will always be a big obstacle. The greater the success that is waiting for you, the greater the obstacles that are in front of you,